Disclaimer: I know, I know…. I don't own Gundam Wing. I'm not making any money off of this either. *crosses arms and pouts*
"Good bye…"
Relena curled her legs underneath her body and looked out of the garage. A thin sheet of rain fell in front of her eyes and splattered loudly across the carport driveway. Small puddles formed in the deep imperfections of the driveway and ran down the slight incline away from where she sat. She watched the darkened sky were clouds rolled and tumbled in rage. They tumbled and fought like her emotions. She knew what she had to do, but she didn't want to do it.
A peal of thunder reached her ears and she pulled her knees closer to her chest in an attempt to ward of the chills that were coursing through her weary body. The wind out side blew harshly and small droplets of rain pelted her face and arms making her take in a sharp gasp. Lifting her head Relena looked into the night as a flash of lightening lit the outside and made the brief silhouette of her car visible in the darkness.
She knew as she sat there watching the rain pour buckets that nothing would ever be right again. The world was shifting violently under her and just like the fateful day four years ago she could do nothing to stop it. Her fantasy was over and she'd never be the same again. She and fought it for weeks telling herself she was imagining things, but it was there like a cancer that slowly spread until it had everything in it's clutches. He had changed and he didn't love her anymore. Just as her thoughts were escalating and her tears were beginning to form bright lights blinded her. Pulling herself roughly to her feet she saw the car attempting to pull it's way into the driveway. She was glad it had come just then she didn't want to cry.
Clumsily Relena pulled herself to her feet wincing as the cold cement burned her bare feet. Absently she rubbed her arms as chill bumps rose along with the hairs on her arms. She wasn't entirely sure it was just from the cold. What she was about to do ripped at her soul. Brushing a stray strand of dirty blond hair out of her eyes she watched as the door opened flooding the darkened garage with an eerie light. He stepped out of the car his suit impeccably perfect down to the creases in his slacks. His hair was tamed and combed over to one side in an attempt to put his hair to rest, but the long day had taken it's toll and a few hair had begun to stick up. He was watching her as he exited the vehicle his eyes the same icy blue she remembered from when she first met him. He always looked at her the same way.
Another chill ran through her body and she shivered involuntarily. Silently she wished for a pair of socks and perhaps a jacket, but it was too late. She was here to say what she had to jacket or not. He was still giving her the cold glare as he shut the door and plunged them both into semi darkness. The only thing that could be heard was the rain falling on the roof and Heero's footsteps as his hard military shoes came toward her. She waited as one would wait for their execution for him to reach her. It was painfully slow and when he finally got her she almost backed out.
"What are you doing out here Relena, it's cold." He told her and grabbed hold of her arm and turned around in an attempt to pull her toward the house. She didn't move though and he turned to face her again a little confused at her reluctant behavior. "Let's go inside." Her cold and sorrowful expression stopped him and he let his hand fall from her arm.
"I'm not going in Heero." She told him knowing that she wanted to say more, was supposed to say more, but the knot in her throat refused to let her. He lifted an eyebrow as if to ask a question. Relena reached out and touched his forehead and ran her finger over his brow. She would miss those looks. Heero reached his hand up to hers and stroked her skin from a moment. His eyes closing in the bliss of her touch. Relena watched him with a growing sadness and almost decided to forget the whole thing when a peal of thunder shook her thoughts and lit the garage. "No." She whispered half cried and pulled her hand away. The abrupt movement caught Heero off balance and he gave her a questioning look.
"What's wrong?" He asked not daring to reach for her when she looked so sad, afraid that her sorrow would some how seep into him and crush his soul with it's anguish.
The question was simple, but Relena could think of so many things that were wrong that the question almost brought all her defenses down around her. "Us." She told him simply unable to find the words she had practiced for hours while sitting on the carport waiting for him to arrive. She had forgotten his eyes. She had forgotten what he did to her when she looked into them.
"What do you mean us?" He asked shoving one of his hands in his pocket and the other hung at his side. He looked as if he was lost; he didn't know what to do.
"I mean…" Relena started but her voice was dying in her throat. She hadn't imagined it would be this hard. "I mean we aren't working any more Heero." She paused and waited for her words to sink in. She watched his face for any emotion that might spring up, but his face was devoid of anything. Sighing she pulled her arms tighter around herself and pushed her sorrow away. "We've grown apart." She paused again. "You go out all night long, we're never together anymore. We can't have a conversation. We've grown apart." Relena didn't realize his silence could hurt so much. He wasn't denying anything. She wanted to break down in sobs right in front of him, but she knew that would only cause him to come to her. It would be a false feeling. He would pity her.
"I don't understand…" He let the words stumble clumsily out of his mouth and he looked at his shoes. He couldn't look at her right now.
"You do Heero. All we do is fight; all we see of each other is breakfast. We've grown apart. Being together has become a habit." Relena realized how bitter the last statement sounded. It had become that bad though. Their life was routine, and their time together was forced. There was a barrier that neither of them could breech and she was merely admitting defeat. He was silent this time and Relena took that as her queue to leave. She shifted her weight and tried to force herself to move, but it too hard her heart wanted to stay when her mind told her that it was over. "Good bye." She managed and took a step toward the outside where the storm still raged. He didn't move to stop her. He didn't cry out for her to stop. Even though Relena had known that it was over it hurt that he didn't go after her.
Relena turned her head to look at him one last time as she proceeded to step into the chilling rain. He was still standing there his head hung his hands stuffed in his pockets. She turned from him and stepped into the rain. The first drop was like an icicle chilling her body to the core. The next was worse. Her bare feet stung as she felt them splash in the small puddles she had been starring at her earlier. Absently she felt the tears making unmarked baths down her face as the rain soaked her thoroughly. Another flash of lightening lit the darkened sky and she felt something grip her arm. The hold was like iron and she knew that it could only be him.
Immediately she froze. She hadn't expected for him to come after her. His grip was like a vice as he squeezed her upper arm between his strong fingers. Blinking Relena turned to look at him he was mostly in shadow, but a peal of thunder followed by a brief flash of lightening made him visible in the night and she stopped emotions catching. He wasn't pulling her toward him he was merely holding her arm. She didn't understand. If he wanted her to stay why didn't he pull her toward him? They locked gazes for a moment.
Relena's heart ached, as she looked at his hair no longer perfect but disheveled from the heavy winds and violent rain. His suit was soaked all the way through and his eyes were intense. They screamed at her something she couldn't understand. She knew he wasn't asking her to come back. It was something else he was pleading and she couldn't find it. Eventually his hand slipped from her and he let it drop to his side again. His eyes never left her though and Relena opened her car door and scrambled inside. Once shielded from the rain and his intense stares she let a sob escape her throat. She wanted to collapse on her steering wheel and cry, but she couldn't, with him standing only a few feet from her. Putting her keys into the ignition she heard the car roar to life and flipped on her headlights.
Looking up she saw his form standing to the side of her car watching her leave. Relena turned her head violently from him and stepped on the gas. Soon she would be away from him soon things would be okay. As she left his soaked form grief over came her and sobs fell from her throat as her teeth chattered from the cold. It hurt so much. Her heart was twisting in her chest leaving her whole body in pain. She cried, but nothing was enough the grief was too much and she had no way to release it. Pulling onto the side of the road she collapsed onto her steering wheel and cried. All she could think was 'What have I done?'
Heero watched her leave. He watched her car disappear down the street until not even her headlight could be seen, but he didn't move. He couldn't move. The rain was causing chills to run through his body, but he couldn't bring himself to go inside where he knew he'd be warm. He didn't know what stopped him. It was simple. Pick up your feet, but he couldn't.
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