The Places We Have Come To Fear The Most
By Phoenix036
Disclaimer- I do not own any of the characters of General Hospital. They belong to the creators of General Hospital, Wendy Riche, Bob Guza, and ABC Daytime. So, I will finish this very depressing Disclaimer with...don't sue!
Rating- T
Warning- Mild scenes of a sexual nature
Genre- Romance/Drama/Humor
Pairing- Sonny/Brenda, with small Jax/Carly, Jason/Sam, Stone/Robin, Patrick/Robin, Ned/Lois
Summary- Slight AU. Set during present time. When Brenda Barrett returns, once again, to the small town of Port Charles anything can be expected. SonnyBrenda.
Authors Notes- Okay, this story is set in mid August, Summer of 2006. It's a week before the anniversary of Stone's Death. Please take notice that this has some future spoilers concerning April's death, and how Robin is about to push away Patrick in the aftermath. Also, there was no Sonny and Emily, Sonny never had a breakdown, Carly and Jax are still together, John/Spencer's true paternity is not yet discovered, Everything with Jason, Elizabeth and Lucky also happened, Jason and Sonny run the business together, Sonny and Michael still live in the penthouse and Brooklyn and Lois are still in town. The big changes are that Morgan was never born, and Carly and Sonny never got back together after Sam got pregnant. Other couples will be JaxCarly, JasonSam, StoneRobin, NedLois and PatrickRobin.
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Sonny Corinthos leaned over the table at Kelly's, and grinned charmingly at the beautiful woman sitting across from him, "Since when do you run away from a challenge? Are you going to be satisfied with a spark or do you want to set the whole world on fire?"
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"This isn't just a kiss, you know? It's a prelude." Brenda Barrett smiled at Sonny.
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"Exactly. They don't need words. They have a look, a smile, a touch, they're connected to each other right here." Sonny said, pointing at his fast beating heart. "A connection we all dream about, right? It's on a whole other level - cosmic, if you believe in that stuff - soulmates. It takes your breath away and at the same time makes you complete. It's a strange thing this connection and it can be terrifying."
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"You make it hurt so good." Sonny said staring up at Brenda, from his bed.
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"So that's why I feel so sexy. All that hot blood of yours in my veins." He laughed over the phone.
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Brenda stared down at the bandaged man before her, "Sonny, you owe me a complete body job."
"Oh, I can do that." he said, eyeing her appreciatively.
"Mmm...on my car." she said nervously, immediately noticing her embarrassing mistake.
"Oh, is that what you've done all this for because of the car?" he asked gesturing to his newly wrapped bandages she so tenderly put on him, "I never would have guessed."
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Brenda shook her head, smiling, dark brown hair falling in her face, "I know, but I'm not afraid anymore. I'm not afraid of you, I'm not afraid of us, I want to be yours for the rest of my life."
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"I know my limitations and you're not one of them." smiled Sonny at Brenda.
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"Well, I never figured pain and suffering would be so erotic." said Sonny, with a big smile plastered on his face.
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Sonny teased Brenda, "They say stimulation helps the healing process."
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"I don't know...this irresistible force just keeps drawing me to you." shrugged Brenda, smiling nonetheless at Sonny.
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"I believed and I still believe, that we have a connection that goes beyond the norm." Sonny said passionately, looking deep into her brown eyes.
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"Don't be confused." Brenda said stubbornly, "I might be very young, but there are certain things I understand, like the way two people look into each others' eyes, or feel when they're touching each other... There's a sense, an awareness."
"It's called chemistry."
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"You are important. And tomorrow, when the sun comes up, we'll still be who we are - except without the loneliness." Sonny said, wrapping his arms around the woman he loved beyond all measure, the woman he would always love.
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"It's so you can count the minutes we're apart." Brenda said, looking hopefully at Sonny, who still had the classic pocket watch dangling in front of him.
"I'd rather count the minutes we're together." Sonny turned and smiled irresistibly at Brenda.
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Sonny said, grinning, "That's what keeps our relationship exciting, sweetheart: one surprise after another."
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"It's not wrong...Sonny, then if it's wrong, then let me be wrong." Brenda said, losing patience.
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Brenda looked desperately at Sonny, her heart breaking for him and her, "Do you understand how much I want you and how much I want us, and I am willing to take it anyway I can? I don't care if it's a moment here and a moment there. I am willing to take that and have it be enough for me."
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"I have decided no pride is worth saving face, or anything is worth knowing that I can't be with you anymore, and that I will never be able to make love to you anymore. Nothing is worth that to me!" Brenda yelled at him.
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Brenda angrily said to Sonny, "I don't want you to save me. I just want you to be with me."
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"We were something else together you know, we were like a force of nature." The brunette beauty softly recalled.
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"Brenda, we couldn't have held it together. we were too big too powerful too intense, we would've exploded." said Sonny, shaking his head.
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Brenda gestured between the two of them, "Once I realized that I could feel this way about somebody how could I settle for less than this feeling? How could you settle for anything less than this feeling?"
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"I can't keep pretending I don't want you anymore." said Sonny desperately at his love.
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"I want you to know that you're never gonna be alone. I'll never let you be alone." Brenda whispered, cupping Sonny's cheek in her hand.
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Sonny stared tenderly at Brenda, "Do you want me to tell him what he's gonna lose? Huh?" he asked in a low voice, stepping close to her, his and her breath increasing. "How you look in the morning. How your eyes shine when you're touched in that certain place." he cupped his hand over her chin, running his thumb over it in small circles, "Does he touch you in that certain place, huh?"
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"Wasting time is like laughing in God's face. And...I don't want to do that, anymore, Brenda, not when it comes to us...I don't want to waste any more time." said Sonny seriously.
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Brenda smiled at Sonny and said lightly, "I think we're just imperfect creatures and we just always mess things up sometimes."
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"I don't need to open a bottle, I can drink from your eyes." smiled Sonny.
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"We've only just begun. Between us, we can make the angels sing." said Sonny over the phone.
Brenda smiled meekly on the other end, "Promise?"
"Guarantee it, you'll see." smiled Sonny, widely.
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"I know things about Brenda, Jax will never know!" Sonny yelled in frustration.
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"Check my pulse?" asked Sonny, raising his hand to Brenda. Then he added seriously, "On second thought, you might raise it."
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"But it never sticks! We always end up right here, you know, inches apart!" yelled Sonny, gesturing between the two. "So close I can feel your breath." he added in a whisper.
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"I can feel your heart beat. Thump, thump, thump." Sonny said, placing his calloused hand over her sheet covered chest, "You hardly notice that, and then someone invents Valentine's Day, and somebody gets the idea that hearts are articulate.
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"I'm human, Brenda. You are wonderfully distracting." smirked Sonny.
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Sonny looked at Brenda and said, "Is it enough to say that," he paused, "you make the blood in my veins so hot that I can barely touch my own skin?" Brenda slowly opened her closed eyes to look at the man before her, "I have never wanted another woman as much as I want you. Is it enough to say that I-" he paused again and laughed embarrassingly, "that I think about your face, your mouth," he stopped at touch his mouth, now Brenda was smiling at him, "and when I do, I want to stop whatever I'm doing and make love to you?"
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"I am a better stronger Brenda." she said forcefully, "Do you know, I used to think I couldn't live without you, now I know that I can. I just don't want to."
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Sonny took in a ragged breath, it was so hard to breathe these days, "All this time I thought I left her, but when she said those words I...I realized you know I've been holding onto a lot of things. I mean not that there was a possibility that we'd be together, but I was holding on to her and what we were to each other. I mean all this time I thought it was enough that if you know if I saved her life, she would be free and I would be free. But I got to tell you something Jason...I'm gonna love her forever. I am gonna die remembering her face."
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Brenda had no idea how hard this was for him, how hard it was to let her go, "But there are going to be some things I'm not even going to be able to see. How you are going to look like when your pregnant...holding your first child...oh yeah even maybe around the years when you get some gray hair and lines in your face. But I hope your smiling Brenda, I hope you get everything I ever wanted to give you...love and a life without fear."
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"Mrs. Corinthos, you like that?" Sonny asked, with a smile on his handsome face.
"Oh yeah, I was born to be Mrs. Corinthos!" Brenda laughed.
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Brenda whispered, "You know, of everything that's ever happened in my life, your love was the best. I couldn't let go of it even when I wanted to. It's the strongest thing in my life."
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"Even in Hell, I'll be thinking about you." Sonny said truthfully, looking at Brenda.
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"Remember when I told you I didn't love you?" she asked. "I lied. I love you, it's the only thing in my life I've ever really known. I don't even know whether it's right or wrong, but it's real, and I do love you." Brenda finished, looking deep into his intense eyes.
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"We were so beautiful weren't we?" she asked, gently.
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Sonny couldn't even breathe anymore, he couldn't live. Not when his heart and soul were lying somewhere at the bottom of the ocean. "I want her back! I want her right...I want her right now!" he yelled.
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"I don't-I didn't want to see you die, like she died. I was not going to let that happen. So I did not want to watch you die, so I left." he said to Brenda, his heart shattering in a million pieces.
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"But look at us! See how we always find our way back to each other! Because we really love each other!" Brenda yelled.
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"From that day in that car dealership till now...nothing, and I mean nothing has been stronger than us. I couldn't fight it then, I can't fight it now. The difference is, I love you. And I just want you to know what you're getting." Sonny said carefully.
Brenda smiled, "I'm getting the only thing I've ever really wanted. I love you too. You know what you told me, that uhm, wasting time was like laughing in god's face. You were right, I don't wanna waste anymore time."
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"I love you. As God is my witness I love you with all my heart." Sonny said passionately.
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Sonny whispered, "No...We were inevitable, as long as we were alive, it was gonna happen between us."
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Sonny looked at Brenda intensely, "You know sometimes I look at you and wonder if your real, you know."
"Why?"
"I look at you and wonder, what your doing with a guy like me?" he answered, playing with her fingers.
Brenda smiled Sonny, caressing his cheek in her hand, as she said in disbelief, "Oh baby, I can't imagine being anywhere else."
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"I love you" Brenda said looking deep into his intense eyes.
"I love you...end of story." Sonny said, kissing her bare shoulder.
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"Good morning." Brenda smiled as she rolled over in their bed to look at the man.
Sonny smiled back at the gorgeous woman, "How'd you know I was up?" he asked.
"'Cause, your breathing changed."
"Wow that's good...do you know what I was dreaming about too?"
This time Brenda smiled mischievously, "I could take a guess."
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"Because I decided that for the rest of our lives all we're gonna do is eat, sleep, and make love." Brenda answered with a tone finality in her soft voice.
Sonny nodded seriously, "Sounds like a great plan, baby."
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"How could you ever doubt me?" Brenda asked above a whisper.
Sonny looked down at her, "After everything I did?"
Brenda shook her head, "You never did anything. You were so perfect and I was the one who ruined it, I'm sorry. I'm going to be so much better honey, I'll be different."
"NO! Don't be different." he exclaimed.
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"I'm scared." Brenda said in a weak voice.
Sonny closed his eyes, "Than walk away."
Brenda looked up at him through her thick eyelashes "That scares me even more."
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Brenda whispered, "It hurts me when I see you hurting."
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"I know the way out, and I'm takin' it." Sonny said, as he wrapped his arms around Brenda.
"What?" she asked, curiously.
"You."
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"Brenda died four years ago today. Actually Jax let her die. The big blond idiot couldn't keep her safe, and a light went out in her life and mine. I try not to, but I gotta tell you something, I couldn't help by think of what she went through that night. Was there a moment when she realized that she was going to die? I told you I'd die seeing Brenda's face. I just wonder if she died seeing mine." said Sonny, his voice breaking.
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Sonny shook his head, "You know to this day I'll be walkin' by her billboard and see some guy staring up at her, and I'm thinkin' this guy's an idiot..w-what does he know? He doesn't even have a clue to how beautiful she really is, not even Jax knows..only me."
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"I wish I could make you feel the way you make me feel." Brenda said, as she traced patterns on his hand.
Sonny turned to look at her and whispered, "You know I love you."
She shook her head, "No, I mean what your mother wanted for you. To be safe. You're so strong Sonny and I know that you are never going to let anything bad happen to me. That's how I want you to feel. I want you to feel safe. And I can't change all the bad things that people did to you in your life, but I want you to know that your heart is safe with me."
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"Do you know how much I love you?" Brenda asked.
Sonny's lips turned into a mischievous smile, "Probably not, but you can show me."
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"Go to sleep sweetheart, dream about that castle" Sonny whispered, as he brushed her beautiful hair from her angelic face.
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Sonny raised his glass to the crowd, "I'm not as good with pretty words as my partner and I can't sing a note so bear with me, I wanna make this official. Brenda, you saved my life and you have gone on saving it ever since. I do not care if it takes the rest of my life to repay you, which I rather hope it does. So here's to you sweetheart."
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Brenda shook her head, "I know you want me and I know you want me as much as I've wanted you. I would have done anything to have you forgive me and take me back. I would have done anything to have us love each other the way Stone wanted us to..he got what was real, he knew what was important."
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"You're gonna get back with her you know." Stone said, lying on his deathbed.
Sonny shook his head in aggravation, "Don't start that again what are you gonna do pull strings somewhere?" he asked, sarcastically.
"I won't have to. It will just happen." Stone smiled mysteriously.
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"You're my drug Brenda." Sonny said, desperately.
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"I'm happy.God, I don't know if I've ever been this happy." Sonny laughed.
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"She's dangerous." Sonny stated, feeling like a fool sitting here taking to his dead best friend's 'ghost'.
"What, if she'd stayed longer, like you wanted, you two would be dodging bullets?" The ghost of Stone asked.
The first sincere smile graced Sonny Corinthos lips in years as he answered, "No, I'd be kissing her. The kind if kisses that last for days and all hell breaks loose."
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Brenda threw him a half smile, her world crashing around her, "Be a good father. Make it worth it."
"I love you Brenda."
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Sonny stared at her and said, "I let you in places I didn't even know I had. I loved you more than I ever thought I could."
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Sonny closed his eyes, to keep the tears from falling, "I kept loving you and I couldn't stop."
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"You're the best thing that has ever happened in my life. I need you in my life. I'm going to take care of you and protect you always." Sonny said as he looked at Brenda.
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Brenda said sincerely, "I felt so much for you, it affected me physically. I felt like I loved you so much sometimes I couldn't even breathe."
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"I have always loved you and I will always love you. No matter what happens you have to know that." said Sonny, as he caressed her cheek.
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"Flight 102 to New York now boarding." Came a masculine voice with a thick Italian accent over the speakers in an airport in Rome, Italy.
A beautiful brunette woman stood up, facing the terminal.
"Here goes nothing," she spoke, then added, "or everything."
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Millions of miles away in the small town of Port Charles, Sonny Corinthos bolted upright in his bed, breathing heavily. "Brenda?"