1- Clear thoughts

"Dear Pain, you strike me again, my wounds are not yet healed but the scars has been revealed oh please I wanna be saved from the pain that never fades."

"How long do you think you'll stay for?" Kim's voice asked me as I clenched my eyes shut trying to block her out. I felt a jabs of Kim's fingers poke my arm, I clenched my fist in annoyance.

"Kim stop it" I said irritated, she sighed but she did stop poking me,

"Well I need to know soon...well at least my parents do" Kim said, I felt her lean back on the sofa, I kept my eyes shut.

"I wont stay long Kim don't worry" I eventually replied

"I'm not worrying, I want you to stay but I know I wont be the best person to…" Kim cut herself off in thought, I waited silently for her to reply, I knew she wasn't good with words.

"..to help you" she said nervously. I smiled, feeling a wave of affection towards my good friend Kim Connweller.

"Kim as long as you can distract me then it's fine" I replied with a sigh, she went quiet. I slowly opened my eyes and looked around me, I was on the other side of the small sofa in Kim's house, around me was bookshelf's and a small TV in-between all of them.

I could feel Kim's stare as I looked around the place that was so familiar to me that I could almost call it home. Childhood memories filled my mind from when we used to come down here for holidays. I looked at Kim turning my head slightly, my neck still ached from the way down here from the car, I don't sleep well in cars.

She smiled at me, I felt a small wave of jealously hit me as I looked at Kim. Her dark completion stood out against the dark lights of the living room making her skin look cleansed and clear, her black hair was wrapped around her in tight waves, she had pulled it to one side in a low pony tail, her blue eyes stared into mine.

"You okay Eve?" She asked nervously, I nodded and gave her a slight smile

"Yeah, just staring longingly at your hair" I said to her, she replied with a small smile, "seriously can I have it?" I asked, she laughed. I brought my hands out to touch my short auburn hair, wishing for a slight second that I hadn't cut it.

"Sure, I wouldn't mind being bald for a while" she said, I smiled slightly, she sighed and got up with a stretch, Kim turned to look at me, her eyes tightened. "Do you need any help unpacking?" She asked me kindly, I shook my head.

"I think I'm good, I would like to be alone to help prepare for tonight" I said with a sigh, Kim frowned,

"You know we could cancel" she said quickly, I quickly shook my head,

"No I want to do this, I have to" I said quietly, on the inside I was dreading this evening. Kim had 'invited' me to go with her to meet up with her friends…who are all guys. I have to say I was surprised at first, Kim was always the quiet, bookworm type not the type who surrounds herself around guys, but I made myself not be judgemental, it was her life. I knew that people used to judge me, I made myself not be like them.

Kim smiled brightly at me "Okay then, I'm going to be at Jared's, will you be okay by yourself?" she asked concerned, I resisted the urge to roll my eyes at her.

"I'm sure I'll be fine" I replied, she looked slightly relived, I knew she wanted to go see her boyfriend, a word I still couldn't meet terms with. Kim, the girl who would rather stay at home and read for the whole day than go out, has a boyfriend. I was genuinely happy for her but I was also intrigued on what he would be like, I knew Kim wouldn't go for the bad boy type, I guessed a dorky guy, that would be what Kim would like.

Kim began to get her coat on, she looked more happier now that she was leaving me, I could almost sense it, I knew I shouldn't get upset over it, Kim seems to be the only one who can actually stand me these days, I smiled at her and got up as well, slowly taking much care to not hurt myself. I stretched slightly, feeling my back click and move around causing jolts of pain, I sighed and cleared my mind. I could feel Kim watch me, I ignored her while walking into the spare room which I guess was now my room, everything was wooden, wooden shelves, wooden bookcases, wooden dresser. I collapsed on the bed wondering what I could expect from tonight.

hallo

I've had this idea for god knows how long, it's going to be a long story WHICH i am determined to complete, so

please faithful readers I know Eve may seem like a complete bitch to you or maybe a nice girl BUT STAY WITH ME I WILL UPDATE FREQUENTLY!

I promise

Well I'll try

and REVEIWWWWWWWWWW it would mean a lot to a 15 year old who is craving nutella and cookie dough ice cream :DD

ps. sorry it's not so long :)

XOXO GOSSIP GIRL- i love doing that.