Dear Jean,
Hey there, its me.
If you are reading this letter it means I am no longer there with you anymore and you are going through my personal belongings to find something small for yourself to remember me by before giving everything back to my family. Don't worry though, I have you covered with this letter, this is the only letter I will be writing so just promise me you will tell my family that I love them dearly.
Now I have no idea how it happened but knowing you like I do I figure you will be blaming yourself for my passing, Stop it! It wasn't your fault, and don't give me your bullshit, I know in my heart it was not your fault so stop blaming yourself.
Ok so I guess you are probably wondering how I knew I was going to die. I had a bad feeling tonight is all and I thought I would jot down my feelings just in case. Guess I was right huh?
Jean do you remember the first time we met? Our first day as cadets, you were right there next to me and i remember thinking you were the coolest guy ever with the way you held yourself and your 'I can do anything" attitude I was instantly drawn to you, you were and still are everything I wanted to be in a man (maybe less cocky if I may say) Then I find out we have the same ambition, to join the military police, Ahh that would have been the good life! Guess you will have to live it for me now.
As time went on and we grew into young men, you went from being my idol to my best friend and more (I will explain that later, I promise) I watched you grow into an amazing soldier, man and leader and I tried my hardest to keep up with you man, guess I was never half the man you are.
You are probably wondering what I meant when I said you were (sorry) are more than my best friend, well here it is, Jean Kirstein, I am in love with you I always will be, Jean don't worry about it if you didn't feel the same way just know that I would have been happy to stay nothing more than your best friend, if by some miracle you felt the same way, I am sorry, I'm sorry we didnt get the chance to be together just know that I want you to be happy okay? Find someone who will make you as happy as you made me Jean Kirstein becasue you deserve all the happiness in the world. Believe me, for once.
There's so much I would have loved to do with you as we grew old together, the first thing would have been my original plan of telling you how i felt about you. If you had returned my feelings I would have smiled at you and claimed your lips as mine and would have stolen your breath and your heart, I would have shown you how much I love you; In every single possible way known to man and many of our own ways. I wanted us to have our own home where we would share our food, our warmth, our bed and our hearts. I would have given you everything you wanted, everything you deserved because you deserve the world. You are my world Jean.
Well I should wrap this up, we graduate tomorrow, I need to sleep, plus you are calling me up to your bunk to chill and chat before lights out.
Just know I'll always be with you watching out for you, supporting you, yelling at you for being a dick. Loving you. I love you Jean
I will always be with you, this is a promise I make with my whole heart and soul.
Forever by your side
Marco Bodt
P.S. I know you hate Eren but just trust him. Something tells me he is very important.