You know what sucks? When you're completely in love with your best friend.
You know what's even worse than that? When they're a guy and have accept the fact that you're gay.
I never really was into girls. I wasn't ever sure what it was that made the idea of kissing a girl disgusting to me. It just was.
Now here I am, a gay sophomore, leaving school with my secret crush slash best friend. And no, he doesn't know that I'm gay.
"I fucking hate the English 1 teacher," Kellin groaned, leaning back in the passenger seat.
I chuckled reminiscing about the altercation that happened just a moment before we left.
Mr. Warren wrote up Kellin for using "foul language."
"Right before the bell rang," Kellin complained.
"I swear he hates me."
"Well, you hate him so its only fair," I said as Kells stared me down.
"Well it is! You can't bitch in his class all day without expecting him to do something about it."
"I know, you're right." He admitted.
"Just forget about that. It's Friday, the weekend is finally here, and we're gonna relax, so just chill, okay?"
Kellin looked to me with a smile, "Okay."
Kellin and I through our backpacks on my mess of a desk and sat down on my bed.
"I'm so tired." Kellin whined.
"You sure do complain a lot." I joked.
"Yeah, but you still love me." Kellin said.
Yep, a lot more than you realize.
"So," I trailed off.
"Wanna fuck?" I joked.
His cheeks turned bright pink and he looked embarrassed.
"What? Am I not good enough for you?" I asked playfully.
"Of course you are, no one could replace my favorite Mexican." Kells said.
I couldn't tell if he was joking or if he was serious, but I got my answer when he kissed me.
And all this time I though I was the gay one.
I pulled back. It's not the fact that Kellin just kissed me.
Actually, it was. But it surprised me! What would you do if the guy you've loved since you can remember kissed you out of nowhere?
"Kellin...? What was that?" I nervously questioned.
"Uh, I'm sorry! I shouldn't have done that," he stuttered, as he jumped up, scrambling for his stuff on the desk.
"No, wait." I grabbed his wrist and pulled him back down beside me.
I can't believe I'm about to actually do this. Here goes nothing.
"Kellin. I think at this point, you should know I've been waiting for you to do that for so long now." I finally admitted. It wasn't as hard as I thought it was going to be, considering the circumstances.
His face immediately brightened and a huge grin spread across his face.
"Really?" He asked in a surprised tone.
"Well, yeah. I don't know what it is about you Kells, but you're perfect to me,"
"I can't even begin to explain how happy it makes me that you kissed me. I just need you to know that I love you." I revealed literally hoping to god that he loves me as much as I love him.
The grin on Kellin's face got wider as he finally said the words I've waited so long to hear from him.
"I love you, too."
I could feel my heart beating faster than ever. My stomach felt like it always did when I was around Kellin. It felt like it was tied in knots, and it was the most beautiful feeling ever.