Title: Hurt
Rating: K+
Summary: Shannon visits Boone's grave and she has a few words to say to him. Shoone. Oneshot.
This was originally meant to be a Skate fic, but after listening to the song so many times, I wanted to do it as a Shoone fic because the lyrics fit the characters perfectly. It's my first Shoone fic, I mainly write Jate and Skate. I don't really like Shoone, but I did it for those who do like it. I, for one, don't really like the writing on this fic, and it's definitely not my best, but I just wanted to see what people thought.
Song: Hurt - Christina Aguilera
Disclaimer: I don't own LOST or the song.
Hurt
Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today
Shannon walked across the beach; head down, shoulders slumped. She had to say those painful words that she wasn't able to say before he died. If she could only bring him back… he didn't deserve to die here; so young and innocent. She was so arrogant to him, she felt so guilty now.
I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I want to call you but I know you won't be there
She kneeled down right in front of his grave and placed the flowers, she had gotten from Sun's garden in front of him. A few tears fell on the hot sand right below her, as she thought of all those times, they fought, cried… laughed. They scarcely laughed, but now, the thing that Shannon wanted most was to turn back time and be able to see him again, alive and healthy.
I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just want to hide 'cause it's you I miss
You know it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this
'Hi, Boone.' She said with a wobbly voice and took a deep breath as she tried to blink back the salty tears that fell. 'I just wanted to say that… I… I…' she tried to say it, but couldn't. Why was it so difficult?!
Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes and see you looking back
'I'm sorry, that I was so… so arrogant, bossy and boastful. I just wanted to apologise and… Oh God!' she said again and collapsed, completely in front of him. It was almost impossible doing this. Words could not express enough how she felt about him and what she wanted to say.
I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself
If I had just one more day, I would tell you how much that
I've missed you since you've been away
'I'm sorry, Boone! I'm so, so sorry. I… I can't tell you how much I miss you and how much I want to turn back time so we can be together again and- Why did you leave me?! Why?!' she sobbed, in front of him. 'How am I supposed to live without you?'
Oh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line to try to turn back time
She calmed down a lot now and, forcefully, wiped away her tears. There was just one more sentence that she needed to say to him, she was sure that he knew the rest.
'Goodbye, Boone.' She said as she got up to walk away.
'I love you.' She smiled as she turned and walked back to camp.
I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself
By hurting you