It`s the first time that I used a song title as the title of a story. Maybe you know the song Sound of silence by Simon and Garfunkel?

Well anyway, the part "silence like a cancer grows" kind of inspired me because it`s true. I thought that`s how Addison might have felt when they weren`t talking and the gap between them became bigger and bigger.

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I hope you`ll enjoy the story.

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Sound of silence

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There were times in which I enjoyed her gone. Times when I really needed some peace and quiet. Don`t get me wrong, I`ve always loved her, but I still enjoyed the times when she wasn`t around and I was by myself. Then I could look forward to the time I would see her again.

Especially lately I enjoyed the time alone. While we were living in this tiny trailer on my land in Seattle and it seemed like all we could do was fight, fight and fight some more. She yelled, I yelled, she cried, we were frustrated, we didn`t talk to each other, we never made up. Not during our time in Seattle, but we did when we lived back in New York and it was always great. When she didn`t talk, that was the silence I always hated so much. Seriously, when your wife refuses to talk to you, it really hurts. But the time without her still was a blessing.

And now, now I want to slap myself for ever thinking like that. Now that she is gone, all I want for her is to come back. I want her to come home, to come back to me. How could I just let her go? How could I let her leave in the state she was in?

All I know is that it`s all my fault.

I am the one that made her leave that evening, I am the one that made her run over the streets, not looking to the right nor to the left side. I`m the one to blame. And even though everyone pretents it`s not my fault, they still know it is. And I know it too.

Now that I sit on my own in the trailer, there is nothing that is more horrible, there is nothing more scary than silence. The sound of silence now feels like a burden.

Life changes so fast, things you see as a blessing suddenly become a nightmare. This happened before, I loved Addison, I was blessed. Yes, I used to think that and then suddenly, I began feeling like she`s nightmare and know I know, she was a blessing. She was my wife, my soulmate. My best friend and the woman that was supposed to be the mother of my children and all that is left know, is the beeping of the machines which are supposed to keep her alive. But they won`t beep for much longer because they are going to pull the pluck. Because that`s what she would have wanted. She wouldn`t want this and I`m going to respect her wishes because I love her.

The end.

Thanks a lot for reading.

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Antonia