Part II of Blaque Kat
The 6th- Here on Earth
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"God, did I faint again?"
"Yeah, you did."
"I feel like shit."
"Katrina, watch your mouth, the baby can hear you."
"Really now? Then hear this honey: Your mommie's life sucks ass. "
"Kat, when will you learn." Relena felt exhausted dealing with her friend's crazy ways.
"Never. I learned that my past will never stop haunting me and I can't keep a man."
"Not that Katrina."
"Besides what are you doing here? Shouldn't you be more worried about the buns in your oven?"
"There aren't any-yet."
"Wellll, The Perfect Soldier is also 'perfect' in other areas, okay . . ."
"Katrina!" She scolded, face turning bright red.
"You hear that Birdie?" Katrina grinned, looking at her round belly.
"Birdie? That's what you're calling her?"
"I dubbed thee Robyn Bernice Thorton, Birdie for short."
"Aw, what a pretty name."
"Trust me, I'll be a bad mother and that won't be pretty."
"You have motherly instincts."
"I don't have a damn-a dang-gone motherly bone in my body."
"If you keep on cussing like that."
"Hey, it's my mouth."
"Whatever."
That was five years ago, and this was number six:
"You still have mouth you know that?"
"You know me."
"I'm surprise Birdie didn't come out like a demon chid."
"I was having a baby, not Rosemary's baby."
"I hope she doesn't cuss like you."
"Told ya' I was a bad mother."
Relena sighed. "You're not bad as a mother. They can be-just-tiresome."
"Children wear me out, especially little Miss Robyn with her questions."
Relena had to know: "What are you going to tell her about Dylan?"
And Kat had to answer: "I can't tell my own child that I killed her father."
"You didn't kill him."
"No, but I had something to do with it. That's killing him, just like I killed Colleen."
"Your sister's death wasn't your fault."
"I can't just shut it off. The blame-" She rubbed the base of her forehead.
"Because your mind won't let you, Katrina, stop feeling like you must make amends for everything you do. Stop worrying, things will work out."
"I have something to worry about Relena-my child."
"This isn't some mission I play with, it's a life that I created. People die around me, things don't last. I almost lost her. I'll be just another reminder of what I don't have-my parents, my sister, her dad . . ."
"Duo?" Relena blurted out, Katrina managed to survive a heartbreak but they haven't seen each other since the warehouse. "Sorry. I didn't mean to say that."
"Yeah, that too." Kat ignored that comment, she could stand his name now.
"How is Maximilian anyways?"
"You should see the baby."
"Another one?" Katrina was taken aback. "What is it this time, three?"
"No, just two."
"Well, Hilly Hill is getting her TLC."
A little girl with sky blue eyes and shoulder-length brown hair ran up to the two women.
"Mommie, I put the roses on Mr. Thorton's grave."
"Where's Robyn, Helena?"
"She's still at her dad's grave."
"What for?"
"I don't know. I think she's telling she's sorry she didn't meet him and to sleep tight."
"We betta find her before she get lost-again. I swear that little girl gets into more trouble than-"
"Her mother?"
"Hey-this conversation isn't about me."
The women were being led by the hand by little Helena who insist on taking the lead, she acted not the least bit scared by all the graves and the dead people, toward a small child with green-grey eyes and braided black hair standing in front of a large tombstone.
"Birdie, we gotta go."
The voice was tiny and sullen, "I know."
"Did you talk to him?"
"Yeah, I said that I love him and that I'm not on punishment."
They laughed.
"It's getting late and it's about to rain."
"I wanna stay here."
"Aw, but we can't stay love. Don't forget you wanted ice cream."
"Everybody had their daddie, I don't have mine."
"That's because-because he died."
"How Mama, how did he die? Couldn't you save him? You said you wanted to save him."
Katrina didn't feel like crying now but the water gathered in her brown eyes.
"It's a long story honey, I . . ."
"You don't wanna tell cause it's something bad! You did something bad to him!"
"Robyn-" Was the only thing she could breath, she didn't know whether to get angry or be sad.
"You killed my daddie!" The child screamed running off in the other direction.
"Robyn!"
"I'll find her Katrina."
"I know where she went." The other girl spoke finally, "I'll find her Mommie."
Helena then took off after her playmate. The women shock off their shock and followed . . .
"Dammit Dylan, why me, Kat's mind raged, why are doing this to me!"
The 6th- Here on Earth
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"God, did I faint again?"
"Yeah, you did."
"I feel like shit."
"Katrina, watch your mouth, the baby can hear you."
"Really now? Then hear this honey: Your mommie's life sucks ass. "
"Kat, when will you learn." Relena felt exhausted dealing with her friend's crazy ways.
"Never. I learned that my past will never stop haunting me and I can't keep a man."
"Not that Katrina."
"Besides what are you doing here? Shouldn't you be more worried about the buns in your oven?"
"There aren't any-yet."
"Wellll, The Perfect Soldier is also 'perfect' in other areas, okay . . ."
"Katrina!" She scolded, face turning bright red.
"You hear that Birdie?" Katrina grinned, looking at her round belly.
"Birdie? That's what you're calling her?"
"I dubbed thee Robyn Bernice Thorton, Birdie for short."
"Aw, what a pretty name."
"Trust me, I'll be a bad mother and that won't be pretty."
"You have motherly instincts."
"I don't have a damn-a dang-gone motherly bone in my body."
"If you keep on cussing like that."
"Hey, it's my mouth."
"Whatever."
That was five years ago, and this was number six:
"You still have mouth you know that?"
"You know me."
"I'm surprise Birdie didn't come out like a demon chid."
"I was having a baby, not Rosemary's baby."
"I hope she doesn't cuss like you."
"Told ya' I was a bad mother."
Relena sighed. "You're not bad as a mother. They can be-just-tiresome."
"Children wear me out, especially little Miss Robyn with her questions."
Relena had to know: "What are you going to tell her about Dylan?"
And Kat had to answer: "I can't tell my own child that I killed her father."
"You didn't kill him."
"No, but I had something to do with it. That's killing him, just like I killed Colleen."
"Your sister's death wasn't your fault."
"I can't just shut it off. The blame-" She rubbed the base of her forehead.
"Because your mind won't let you, Katrina, stop feeling like you must make amends for everything you do. Stop worrying, things will work out."
"I have something to worry about Relena-my child."
"This isn't some mission I play with, it's a life that I created. People die around me, things don't last. I almost lost her. I'll be just another reminder of what I don't have-my parents, my sister, her dad . . ."
"Duo?" Relena blurted out, Katrina managed to survive a heartbreak but they haven't seen each other since the warehouse. "Sorry. I didn't mean to say that."
"Yeah, that too." Kat ignored that comment, she could stand his name now.
"How is Maximilian anyways?"
"You should see the baby."
"Another one?" Katrina was taken aback. "What is it this time, three?"
"No, just two."
"Well, Hilly Hill is getting her TLC."
A little girl with sky blue eyes and shoulder-length brown hair ran up to the two women.
"Mommie, I put the roses on Mr. Thorton's grave."
"Where's Robyn, Helena?"
"She's still at her dad's grave."
"What for?"
"I don't know. I think she's telling she's sorry she didn't meet him and to sleep tight."
"We betta find her before she get lost-again. I swear that little girl gets into more trouble than-"
"Her mother?"
"Hey-this conversation isn't about me."
The women were being led by the hand by little Helena who insist on taking the lead, she acted not the least bit scared by all the graves and the dead people, toward a small child with green-grey eyes and braided black hair standing in front of a large tombstone.
"Birdie, we gotta go."
The voice was tiny and sullen, "I know."
"Did you talk to him?"
"Yeah, I said that I love him and that I'm not on punishment."
They laughed.
"It's getting late and it's about to rain."
"I wanna stay here."
"Aw, but we can't stay love. Don't forget you wanted ice cream."
"Everybody had their daddie, I don't have mine."
"That's because-because he died."
"How Mama, how did he die? Couldn't you save him? You said you wanted to save him."
Katrina didn't feel like crying now but the water gathered in her brown eyes.
"It's a long story honey, I . . ."
"You don't wanna tell cause it's something bad! You did something bad to him!"
"Robyn-" Was the only thing she could breath, she didn't know whether to get angry or be sad.
"You killed my daddie!" The child screamed running off in the other direction.
"Robyn!"
"I'll find her Katrina."
"I know where she went." The other girl spoke finally, "I'll find her Mommie."
Helena then took off after her playmate. The women shock off their shock and followed . . .
"Dammit Dylan, why me, Kat's mind raged, why are doing this to me!"