Title: Must Be Nice
Pairings: Gaara & Hinata
Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto.
It must be nice to have him near you. Not having a monster inside of him like I do. Nice not having to drag out a conversation to hear him say at least three words to you.
It must be nice.
Nice to have him say that he loves you without you thinking he will kill you at any second. Nice that he can show his feelings in public without thought.
It must be nice.
Nice that you can accept him. Nice that he knows that you will never second think what he might do to you while you sleep comfortably. Nice that he will always have you.
It must be nice.
Nice of him to show him all of himself. Nice of him to have you not waiting for love. Just plain nice of him.
Well it's not nice to me.
It's not nice how I see you walk down the street with him and not me. Not nice how I'm such a coward. Not nice how I know I probably wouldn't have had a chance anyways.
Not nice at all.
Maybe if I had a little faith in myself and you I wouldn't be a pathetic mess. Life is not nice to me I guess. It never was. But somehow it's nice to him.
Nice to everybody but me.
Yes that how I feel because you're not with me your with him. You don't tell me you love me, you love him and tell him that. You're not lying down with me but him. Strolling down the street hand in hand with me….wait…him again.
So I guess it still must be nice to you.
I don't blame you though. I blame myself for being the stupid demon fool that I am. For thinking for a second that I had maybe a chance of you returning my feelings. I was blindly in love with you and still are but that just isn't good enough.
Nice was never a nice word to me.