Just somthing I wrote out of the blue, was feeling a bit down. This is in the POV of Rei after a fight with one of the bladebreakers or all of them, which ever one you wish it is. Review or not I don't mind really.
Running away seems like the only thing to do now, but I can't it's not in my nature. I won't, no I can't give up, let go. I want to fix this to fix everything, but I can't I have no idea how to and it pisses me off.
This whole thing is bringing too many feelings and memories I wished and willed away and you know what, the wounds were nearly healed and now they're nearly as bad as they were before.
I can't believe they would do this to me, blame me, scorn me, for things completely out of my control. It's for the way I hide. The way I act around people and how "unfair" it is to do so.
This person was one of the people, few people I still trust. So stupidly and foolishly I thought they would get it. Sadly they didn't, they think I'm too faced and selfish, a hypocrite. I have lost again; I seem to be getting better at that.
People I love slip through my fingers like sand with bits of class hidden within the grains. They slice and price the skin it stings and burns but grains soon fill the wound cutting the pain short, but they will never heal completely, never. The memories they left behind will continue haunt and tear me to shreds. Slowly though, very very slowly. The pain will slow but never go, not completely anyway, I should have learned that by now.
So running is not an option, but neither is trying to fix it. So ill wait out the storm, see where I end up and hope that its one my feet.