Chapter 1- "No Paradise"

I thought things would be better once we left Earth. We weren't living the fairytale life at all, Ann and I ended up what I think is called a halfway house. We were sharing the house with other aliens who had issues or were exiled from their houses. We lost our condo because all of our money went to Ann, she was very ill and the doctors said she barely had two months to push by. The halfway house was the only hope for us left since we had no where else to go and what I brang in for money wasn't making it.

I missed our house and Ann wanted to pass away in that house but she couldn't anymore. We lost it.

I felt like I let her down as I looked at her sickly figure. She remained in bed more often and the blood from her mouth seemed endless. She would cough and cough and then it was time for her vicodin. She had numerous infections, she couldn't really fight off her main sickness anymore and basically was on death bed. She barely talked and was always in pain, I tried to ease it as much as I could but it would only come back and hurt her.

Ann could get up out of bed but then in a few days she couldn't get out of it.

"Ann..." I whispered. "Oh my sweet...I let you down..."

"No." she would whisper. "You didn't Alan, it isn't your fault..."

"The house..." I whispered. "I wanted to still have the house."

Ann suddenly changed personalities. "Forget about the house! I won't die in it now, just forget about it!"

I felt the sting go inside me. "Ann, remember what the doctor said...No more fits."

"Mmmmh..." She replied painfully. It was time for her vicodin and later would be her morphine for her later episodes. I couldn't stand to see her in so much pain and cry every night because something was always wrong but I knew why she cried so often.

We lost a baby a few months back, it was still so recent to Ann. She went into depression after and considered herself a failure. Everything was so wrong and I often wondered how we got here.

Ann began crying. "I want...want my baby! My darling Alian..." Ann cried and continued to cry. I couldn't provide for her anymore, her time was near and all I could really do is be the lover I am to her. Our baby could never come back and Ann and I were going to try again but she fell ill and now won't have the chance anymore to be a mother. I felt robbed of my fatherhood just as equally Ann was devestated from her motherhood.

I picked up my flute. "Ann...Do you want me to play the lullaby you always love? My sweet, it would make you sleep easier."

Ann nodded and continued to cry. "Yes...please play it..."

I began playing as Ann continued to cry and now scream. She was very devestated and would have these episodes many days in a week. I've tried warning her about the doctor but I don't think Ann cares anymore about herself or her last days, all of them since the diagnosis have been pure misery. She no longer cared what anyone did even me because she was gone. She was ready to die and just be done with anything that had to do with living or enjoying life. It pained my heart twice over maybe even more to where I couldn't describe it.

I tried to continue to play but Ann's screams pierced the beauty of my flute. She wasn't going to sleep tonight at all, her screams kept most of us up but the aliens didn't complain, many of them couldn't sleep anyway. I barely slept anymore, I couldn't and there was nothing any of us could do about it.

"Ann...Please don't scream, you're body can't take this distress. You'll have to go to the hospital again for this." I hugged her and held her tight. "Please, my sweet. I can't bare to see them do more to you."

"It's not your right!" Ann screamed becoming vicious. "If I collaspe again, be it for the final time and end my misery! I can't live this way anymore!" Ann rose up in bed. "This was the paradise we dreamed of, Alan?"

"My sweet...I didn't know...The tree would die again. At least it gave us energy where we don't need to be evil about enegy..." I tried to be calm as possible but I couldn't mask my sadness. "I just wanted..."

Ann turned away. "Leave me alone, Alan. I'm dying and all you care about is the past!"

She stung me again. It wasn't Ann's fault, she was dying and plus everything was wrong or just too wrong for her. Her anger was mean but she still loved me and I knew it was just her sickness talking for her.

Ann threw another fit as I restrained her. "Ann, I don't have the money to make the doctor come to the house this week. At this rate, you will be in a hospital bed again."

Ann still screamed. "Let them take me! Alan...I'm finished! I don't want to live this way anymore. I.." Ann began to choke and breath irregularly. She was having an episode again and I quickly laid her back down to sleep. "Damn you! I was fine..."

My blue winced back the hurt. "No. No, you weren't. That was an episode, Ann. It was worse than last time, I'm tired of telling you about how this affects you. You're so gone, it's almost like you have died already."

"Good! Where is my funeral?" Ann was not sarcastic in the least. "Make sure my coffin is white, Alan. I want to be dead, my body is so useless. I don't like being on a bed pan for three days straight!"

It was true. When her body failed for three days, she was bedridden and unable to get up. It's those days she looks so dead but she springs back to life days after but eventually it would be fulltime bedriddment for Ann since her doctors couldn't predict her disease anymore. I felt like we were screwed out of so much so soon.

This was not redemption at all.

OOO

Ann laid in my arms as she looked at me. A month went by and she was done struggling, she just laid there and looked at me. I held her closely to my body as she responded very little, Ann refused food and ate very little and the doctor was ready to go to a next step to sustain her life but Ann shook her head no. She stopped talking about two weeks ago. Obviously, she shut up because the condition suffocated her. She wanted no more treatments, no more anything done to her, she also refused all medical treatment unless it was for pain.

"Are you sure this is what Ann would want? She will die much sooner without this procedure." I liked our doctor because he was compassionate and just the best. "I won't fight you two over this. This is her choice and she says no more treatments or medical procedures then I can't ignore her orders."

"Thank you, doctor." I replied as Ann figited in her wheelchair. "How long left now? I hate to keep asking you but I have to be prepared for everything."

The doctor sighed. "...Five days, a week if she is lucky."

I felt the hurt erupt inside me. Ann was going to leave my side very soon, she would no longer be there with me anymore. It was the worst realization I've ever had to come to. We never left each other's side and now we were going to be seperated forever. I didn't want it to be right. Ann was everything to me. She looked at me, her pink eyes sick with sadness and death. She looked so sad and withdrawn and the pain became excruiating but Ann never screamed anymore. She was done with that tirade now.

Ann became very senstive at this time, she began crying only with tears not noise. I knew in my heart she wished for death but in my mind she didn't want to leave. Ann pointed to the door as I wheeled her out.

"Thanks again, doctor." I waved and wheeled Ann out. I looked at her as she looked at me weakly. "Ann, is the disease making you be silent? Is that why you don't talk?"

Ann shook her head. "Yes..." She barely got out the words. "Alan..." She reached for me.

I looked at Ann. "Ann, what do you want? Why are you reaching for me?"

She stumbled with her words. "Sex..."

I blushed. Even in her worst state she still wanted pleasure. It was almost sickening but then it made her alien, aliens didn't do the same things humans did. I couldn't give her anymore of that, her body was too weak and the doctor forbade of us doing physical things anymore.

I looked away. "Ann, you know we can't do that anymore, you are too sick for that."

Ann began growling angerily like a child. "No...I'm not..."

I crouched down to Ann's level. I knew I had to make a compromise with her. "Listen, Ann...I don't think we can do physical things but we can do other things to make up for that."

Ann smiled. I was trying to make her as happy as I could before she passed and left me. For the first time in weeks did she glow with happiness but I knew it would be short lived, as soon as we went back to the half-way house then that was it. Both of us would be miserable for the week again.

Ann stilled looked at me. "Alan, I want to...to have real sex with you."

I know we were warned by the doctor not to but Ann didn't have long anyway. "...Ok, my sweet. We will do it but if something is to happen then we will stop. I want you in no more pain."

Ann smiled. "I want to...to be touched now by you." she grabbed my hand and guided to where she was senstive. "Please Alan..."

"In front of everyone? Ann, that's daring even for you." I warned. "Maybe later."

Ann was at least sastifed that it would be later. I was afraid to hurt her while we were in passion but I think Ann cared less. She wanted that connection with me before she died but it was the same connection we had to make Alian, our baby. I could see in Ann's eyes she wanted passion from me, it wasn't selfish. She wanted it and I did too, it had been awhile since we last tried to do passion.

After Alian died, she didn't want again since she was scarred.

I still couldn't believe I would lose her to death. I still didn't think it was happening but it was, this was all real. She seemed fine but I had the feeling she wouldn't last the week, that five days was it for her how long she was going to live. I felt like my heart was never going to heal. We were both twenty-two, in human years that is about sixteen years of age. Ann was too young and I was too young for these tragedies, enough plagued us just when we thought we never had to go through anymore rought times.

"Ann..." I looked at her pink eyes. "I will give you passion, it's against the doctor's orders but I will do it."

Ann was happy. "I know after Alian..." she coughed heavily. "Left us, I didn't want to anymore but I now want some of the passion we used to have."

I looked at the sunset. "Ann we have to go home." I shuttered at the word home because where we lived was not home at all. It was house full of people fighting, struggling, and messed up because of addictions.

Ann nodded. "Let's...go home." she always struggled with that word.

I looked at the sunset. It made me die more inside, her time was almost near and the passing of the time. I hated seeing this, I hated the seeing the sunrise, and I hated seeing the moon. They all meant time was passing, and passing fast.

I just wanted Ann to be with me not gone forever.

OOO

"Ann..." I replied as she slowly opened her eyes. "Are you alright?"

Ann nodded. "Is it safe...to?"

I looked around, the addicts had gone out for an inspirational weekend. It was just me and Ann as she laid in bed. She was very quiet as she looked at me.

"I'm very wet, Alan..." Ann smiled a little. "I need it...Have sex with me."

I came closer to Ann as I removed her panties. Ann quickly covered her sacred spot. She began blushing as her rose colored eyes looked up. It had been awhile since we were intimate. I put my hands through her hair.

"Ann...Are you sure you want me to? You're hiding it from me." I was very concerned.

"I'm sure...I want to. It's been so long..." Ann replied, she seemed to be full of life. "I'm ready, Alan."

"If it really hurts tell me to stop, ok?" I said soothingly. "We aren't supposed to do it but...I can't deny what you want."

Ann guided my hand gently to her clitoris. She began moaning gently as her eyes begged me to touch her. I gently put my finger near it and began circling as Ann let out a cry of passion. Her body shook with ecstasy as she began helping my hand touch herself.

I slowly moved toward her neck as I bit passionately. I continued biting her as she screamed quietly.

"Ann...Is it ok?" I replied. "Am I being too rough, my sweet?"

"No..." Ann smiled. "More Alan...Do more."

I looked at Ann's sacred spot. Her area was wet and so were the sheets, she was ready for me. I laid beside her as my fingers traced her opening, I slowly inserted one finger. I began teasing her insides.

Ann screamed as I exposed her breasts. They were beautiful despite her sickness. They looked the same the last time she was indecent for me. I began going in and out of her sacred spot, she was so wet.

"Oh Alan..." She began as she panted heavily. "I feel so sexy...My pussy feels so amazing, Alan."

I gave her a seductive look. "You look amazing, my sweet." I opened Ann more as she gave me a shadowed look. It was very sexy. "Mmm...I forgot how pink you were...yeah, you like me spreading you open?"

Ann looked straight me. "I like being violated..." She panted heavily. "Alan..."

I got in front of her. "Should I devour your pussy, my sweet?" my seductive blue eyes looked up at her blossoming rose eyes. "Say you want to...I know how good it makes you feel, Ann. Are you going to yell out some naughty things?"

Ann groaned. "Yes...Oh yes, Alan." Ann laid back. "Lick me...Make me cringe."

I got between Ann's legs and I began getting my fill. Ann screamed as I looked up at her in a naughty way. I know I was turning her on, she couldn't take it when my eyes stared deeply into her soul. She couldn't take it.

I licked slowly just like my favorite ice cream. Vanilla with caramel and whipped cream. It was like that but it was Ann's pussy. I did this for another five minutes as Ann saw that my member was swollen.

Ann put her hand inside and began jerking me. God, it felt so good and I hadn't had it in so long. I know what she was after as she looked up at me in a naughty way. She wanted the forbidden, it was just like the first time before I took her virginity.

"Oh, Alan...fuck me..." Ann laid back on her back and opened herself. "Alan, I need you. I need you inside me." She became quiet. "Fuck me..."

"You're a naughty little thing, aren't you?" I replied seductively. "I love when you misbehave, Ann. You're such a hottie."

Ann giggled. "You're so sexy, Alan. I love showing my pussy to you."

We laughed seductively with each other. I began playing with her breasts and licked the nipples gently. Ann loved it. Ann watched me as I began twisting her nipples to make her shutter. I forgot how senstive she really was when we were intimate together. I really didn't want to lose her and she didn't have long.

She was so full of life. It was almost like she wasn't sick, that she was cured. Nothing seemed to hurt. It was all nice pleasure.

I placed my member against Ann's sacred spot. "How's this, my sweet? Feel good to you?"

"Oooh...more Alan." Ann replied softly. "Stick it in me. I want to feel you inside me again."

I obeyed orders as I slowly began putting myself in Ann. Her face lit up as I began thrusting her gently. Ann let out a sexy scream, her breathing began to change as I continued trusting. Her breasts were perfect, it was like I was seeing them for the first time. It had been so long, I had forgotten what they looked like.

I thought it was so sad. To forget what my half looked like. Ann hid herself from me. After Alian died, she shut herself up. She was never the same. I forgot what everything looked like. Everything she loved to do, she threw aside. She thought her body was dirty, that there was always something wrong with it. It was all psychological.

I was glad to see her enjoy pleasure. She had been in so much pain up until now. I was glad to see her expressions change and her love her body and like the sex.

Ann screamed as the bed shook. "Oh god...Alan...Oh, I love how you're hammering my pussy..."

"Is that what you like?" I grinned sexually. "You see the roses on the bed, my sweet? Those are for you."

Ann giggled. As I continued thrusting her, she loved it. I went for her mouth as she pulled me forward. She let out more pleasurable screams.

I suddenly became concerned. "Ann, are you ok?"

"Yes, why are you asking?" she replied quietly. "I feel really good, Alan."

I smiled as I began smashing her insides. "You said you like it fast, right? You like it hard too, my sweet?"

"Alan...ALAN! More!" Ann began breathing rapidly. "Oh god..."

I removed myself from Ann as I grinned. "Turn around, Ann. You know you like getting it there..."

Ann turned around. "Mmm, I love this attention from you..." I put my hand on her sacred spot then poked at her other hole. Ann grinned. "Mmm, you're going to stick it in there?"

I nodded but I changed my mind. "How about I slide my finger in...here?" I began jacking Ann's sacred spot.

Ann began moaning. "Oooh...Alan, that feels amazing...I love the attention you give my pussy."

Ann's face told me to do more, so we continued into our wonderful pleasure.

OOO

I began packing my things. Ann had died a week ago and the week was the worst. It would never be the same. I still slept with Ann's picture in the frame. I never thought I would lose the one person that understood me best, that never every ache and pain, and the one that loved me the most. That was no more.

I decided that I didn't care where I went. If I wanted to travel then I would. If I moved again, then I did. I decided that I missed Serena enough to go back to Earth to see her. I just wanted to be around someone. I was lonely here at the halfway house, and things were only getting worse. Food became scarce.

We all fought for food, we all fought for everything, and I was tired of staying there. It was for people who had no hope left. I still had some hope but not much left and I didn't have the problems everyone else had. I picked up my suitcase and walked out.

Wherever I was going, I knew I couldn't just go back. The past already made itself up. It wasn't time to move on but I knew I couldn't stay here anymore.

I looked up at the moon wishing for Ann.