I catch sight of him in the corridor and my heart thumps painfully, I duck down my head and try to sneak past but I feel his hand on my shoulder, I glance quickly into his eyes and I see his agonizing stare. I look down and manage to utter
"I've got to go, sorry"
"Victoire, we need to talk"
I brush his hand off my shoulder, I don't need teddy's pity, I scramble away and find the girls bathroom before letting the tears fall down my face, God, why am I so stupid? Before I can stop myself I think back to the end of the Christmas holidays when I kissed him…
We're sitting in the kitchen, it's late and we're sharing a mug of hot chocolate. I know I'd liked him for ages, the whole holiday I could feel my feelings growing stronger for him. We're laughing at something stupid and I'm looking into his eyes and I lean forward and gently kiss him on the lips. The chair bangs on the floor as he jumps away.
"Victoire, what was that about?"
I blush furiously, cursing myself.
"I'm so sorry..I..Oh God, just forget it"
I run upstairs and lay on my bed sobbing. I've ruined a friendship. I ignore him, he kept trying to talk to me but I brush him off, hoping he'd forget about it.
I take a deep breath and bathe my eyes and hurry away towards Charms.
I take care to avoid him the rest of the day and instead immerse myself in my friends, and their problems. I don't tell anyone about what happened that night. It's too embarrassing, every time I think of it my face grows hot and my heart thumps painfully, but I can't help feeling that there was a moment, albeit how short, that he kissed me back.