1 I begin to get aware of my surrounding for the first time. All my existence that I have gained a sense I have been floating in space weightless. In space and time. I don t know how much time has passed since I had started floating but it hadn t been long. Sometime I can glimpse into some picture like I am flying in time so fast that nothing makes sense. But this time it felt different. Anything different is good when you feel like a shapeless senseless cloud, like a forgotten memory. But lately I have been getting some kind of sense back. Then suddenly I am floating upright on a road like time has come to a screeching halt. I can t feel my body parts but I can see.

And it felt good. I am watching a bridge and it is night. Then out of nowhere I see a car coming and a lady standing on the road like they just popped into the scene. Just as I was watching the car swivelled and went over the bridge into the water.
I wanted to help the people inside the car but it felt as if an invisible rope is tugging me away, away from the people in that car. I tried to fight against the tug but soon find it fruitless. Then the surrounding gives a huge swirl and I am back to floating in space again.

I feel so exhausted from the tug and swirl that it takes some time for me to realise that no way the night was so silent. Then I realise that I could not hear.
I could never keep track of time when I am in this state. Sometime I would succeed for a small time but then it would sleep through my fingers and I would just float and float. But this time when time stopped I knew very little time has passed. It is still night and I am standing in front of a hospital. Weird, I think. I feel like a gust of wind hit my back and I get carried inside the hospital to a room. There are rows of beds with white-sheet clad bodies on them. It is the morgue.

But there is one exception. A girl is lying on a bed with two men standing beside her. One is almost the same age as the girl and the other is older. Suddenly the girl convulses and she opens her eyes and I feel like everything is being tugged and turned inside and outside of me. Like after the monotonous floating I am changing somehow and it is not possible for anyone to change me back. When I came back to my surrounding, I saw the doe eyes of the girl and felt hot and cold at the same time which is weird since I don t think I have a body yet. Like she is everything familiar I have ever known and yet some part unknown, like I am meeting a part of me. Then I see them talking and feel a buzz going inside my head like many voices are whispering in my head. I tried concentrating on their voices to try and distinguish them. Suddenly a voice entered my head with so much pain in them that I could feel it in every grain of my body, again weird due to lack of body.

I can hear her too but too overwhelmed to infer any meaning out of it. Then I tried to hear the third voice but there was nothing but silence like there are only two people in that room. I tried to know whose voice I am hearing and whose voice I am not. Then he turned and the blue eyes silenced all the chaos inside of me. My head cleared and for the first time in a long time I peace. I remember me and them and home. Ours.