/a.n./ I was listening to Rue's Lullaby for the umpteenth time and this idea started to come to me. It's in Katniss's point of view; mostly towards Prim. I hope you like it, and I suggest you listen to the song while reading… I realize there are different versions, so here's the link for the one that inspired this poem: .com/watch?v=JdC9Nw6YN-g&feature=related Enjoy!
Those Time Left Behind
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Behind my frigid back
Lights flicker and flare
But I am not even present
Into the dying fire, I stare
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Trying to unearth feelings
It's as if they aren't even there
They are hidden in the crevices
Of this place we used to share
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Maybe it's better, you don't see me now
It's not a pretty sight
Now I must bring myself to accept
Conjuring up my last drop of might
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Perhaps years after
When my life here, is left behind too
We could meet in a foreign place
But for now, there is nothing I can do
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A cruel twist of faith
To take someone so young down
My evanescent smile
Now replaced by a permanent frown
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A sense of hurt and betrayal
It is confused, my trust
I know I should place it somewhere
But I don't know where I must
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So it lingers in the air
Threatening to fly away
Maybe these are the consequences
I don't know how to make it stay
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How could it be fair?
For someone to lose all
Now that everything else has fallen,
Is death the only one left to stall?
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A living body with a dead soul
That's what I have become
Eyes glazed over
Sanity? I could use some…
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Where is the sky I used to love?
Where did those green leaves go?
It seems the crimson of blood
Is now the only color I know…
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Fell so many times
Always managed to get up
This time, maybe I fell too deep
The era of strength, has come to a stop
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The nightmares that haunted me
No, they haven't left
The long list of those gone
Has left me bereft
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The world I used to cherish
A clash of death and life
Memories carved into my flesh
With a cold, ruthless knife
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Sometimes I wish I could blink
And my past would disappear
A sense of blissful emptiness
Replacing doubt and fear
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Maybe one day far, far away
I'll look back on these days
I'll remember those who time left behind
I'll remember each gaze
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I'll remember a blond braid
And those piercing eyes
Then I'll recall while they're all memories
I'll recall him, who still struggles with lies
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Why am I still trapped in this world?
This life which I so despise
Where death and insanity lurks around
Always in disguise
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Many years have crawled by
The inferno of agony turning into a dulled ache
Finally able to comprehend
The pain I once couldn't take
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As spring turn into summer
A black and white bird calls
Alas, life is not forever
A rose petal falls
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