This is set in new moon. What would happen if Jacob hadn't answered the phone? If Bella and Jacob had kissed? Well you're about to fine out!
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Keeping his eyes on mine, Jacob began to bend his face toward me. And I was still absolutely undecided.
The shrill ring of the phone made us both jump, but it didn't break his focus. I looked into his deep, dark eyes and tried to make my decision. I loved Jacob, as a brother. But would it be so bad to make him happy? I would never love again, so why not give Jacob what he had been hoping for. Alice's being here meant nothing. Edward, I winced as I thought the name, was forever gone. And with that, I made my decision.
Jacob must have seen the choice in my eyes because he smiled, it was a peaceful expression, more of my Jacob then I had seen of late. I knew, with grim satisfaction, that I had made the right choice. His lips pressed softly to mine. The kiss was warm and full of love and triumph. All the while the phone rang away. Jacob pulled away to look at my face.
"Ah, Bells," he sighed contentedly. He pulled me closer.
I cried a few silent tears as I rested my head on his burning chest. The phone finally stopped ringing. The air was filled with silent finality.
"I'd better get going, hon. The guys will be getting worried." He said.
"Okay," I nodded He hugged me, and then left.
I had no sooner heard the soft click of the front door closing when Alice was at my side.
"Bella, what's wrong?" She asked, sounding strangely confused.
"Nothing," I said wiping at my damp cheek. I had made the right choice, I told myself. Now I just have to live with it.
"Bella, what's wrong?" She asked, sounding strangely confused.
"Nothing," I said wiping at my damp cheek. I had made the right choice, I told myself. Now I just have to live with it.
"I can't see you when your around you flee friends," she said, sounding mildly irritated.
"Sorry." I answered in a monotone.
"So…want to tell me what happened?" she asked, sounding completely innocent. That's how I knew something was up.
"Not really" I answered coolly. Throwing her a sly glance that I'm sure she didn't miss.
"I saw you kiss him, Bella." She did not sound mad, merely stating a fact. I looked over at her now.
"So, then you know." I mumbled.
"You don't love Edward anymore?" She asked. She looked totally at ease, except her hands were balled into tiny little fists.
"OF COURSE I DO!" I exploded. My pent-up heart ache and frustration finally boiling over. "I WON'T EVER STOP LOVEING HIM…I CAN'T HELP THAT!!!" I started to cry but raged on nonetheless "GOD KNOWS I'VE TRIED…god knows I've tried," I finished weakly. I collapsed onto the floor in a wilted heap, sobbing. I felt cool hands stroking my hair, then rubbing calming circles into my back. I cried harder. All the memories I tried so hard to keep locked away flooded over me once more. Drowning in the loss and pain I tried to claw my way to the surface.
"Its okay, Bella." Alice kept murmuring. But it wasn't. I wrapped my arms around myself in the vane attempt to keep from shredding apart. Wave after wave of pain bombarded me until I could stand it no longer. I had to get to Jake. He would keep me safe, keep me whole. I staggered up and towards the door. My only thought was to see my personal sun. I doubled over, clutching at my chest. I tried to gasp for air but it felt like I couldn't breathe. My vision became fuzzy. I trudged on anyway until I tripped. Strong hands caught me.
"Bella, you can't drive like this. What's going on?" I tried to make out her words but they held no meaning. I tried to walk forward again only to be restrained by Alice's stone arm.
"Bella, stop this. Talk to me!" I looked up at her. Her beautiful, pale features another reminder.
"LET GO!!!!" I shrieked. She was so shocked by my outburst that she released her hold. I only made it two steps before she had me again. She picked me up and, in a flash, plopped me down on our sofa. I lay there, curling in on my self, crying in shear misery. I heard an odd, unpleasant chiming noise.
"Hello…Edward!" My heart felt as if it had been shredded. I cried out in pain. " No she's alive." There was a pause. "It's Bella. I have no clued what's wrong with her!" There was another pause, longer this time. "Edward, I-" Fired seared in my lungs. I had to get away. I couldn't handle this in front of Alice. My pain was not her problem. She, like…he did, deserved a happy life. I tore through the kitchen, only to stumble into the table and fall.
"Bell!" A sharp, stinging pain flared across my cheek, but it was nothing compared to the other pain." Snap out of it! What's wrong?"
I only shook my head in response. I turned my face away from her into the tiled floor of the kitchen.
"Just go away," I begged.
"I did, but she didn't even flinch! I don't know what to do! Charlie's do home any minute…could you?" She voice rose. "Yes! I think you need too…okay…bye." There was a snapping sound. "Bella, it's alright. Edwards coming to make sure everything's okay." My eyes widened. No. He couldn't be coming. My sobs broke off. I sat up bolt right.
"Alice," I said hoarsely. "No" Edward, I winced, couldn't come here. Just the thought of his beautiful face, velvet voice, and ice cold touch made me ache. A whole new monsoon of pain rained down on me, but I had o focus!
"But Bella, aren't you happy?" she asked. "I thought you loved him?"
I didn't take the time to answer. I got up and walked the phone in a daze. My only thought was to get Jacob. My sun.
"Bell! Bella! Bella!" I heard Alice calling my name, but I did not respond. I got to the phone and dialed the number before Alice's stone arm rapped around my waste. I did not protest. I only listened to the ringing on the other end of the line.
"Hello," Billy's husky voice answered.
I took a deep breath, trying to sound normal. "Hey, Billy. Is Jake there?" I could here how dead my voice sounded. My only wish was that Billy didn't notice.
"Umm…no. Not yet. What's wrong, Bella?" He asked. Apparently my fairy god mother was busy, for my wish was disregarded.
"Nothing, Billy. Everything's great. Just have Jake call me when he gets in. As soon as he gets in. Bye Billy." I hung up before he could answer.
"Bella, please tell what's going on!" Alice's frustrated voice boomed in my ear. I looked at her. Took in her beloved elfin features.
"I'll tell you in a minute. Just give me a second." I said. I was tired. I wanted to curl up in a ball and, where nobody could see me, go to peaces.
"Okay," she said reluctantly.
I nodded gratefully and made my way upstairs. I collapsed down on my bed and began to shake. I closed my eyes, only to see Edwards's perfect face gazing beseechingly at me. My eyes flew wide open. I rushed out of bed and to the bathroom. I rinsed my face with shaky hands. The cool tap water dripping down my face and staining my hair an even darker brown in conjunction with my unusually pale face gave me a ghastly appearance. I sighed end wiped my face with a towel.
The phone shrill ring made me jump. I tore out of the bathroom and down the stairs. Alice was sitting on the counter next to the phone, kicking her feet.
"Want me to get it?" She asked.
"Nope. It's okay. I've got it." I said, finally reaching her at a sprint.
"Alright." She said as I picked up the phone.
"Hello?" I asked. I guessed it was Jacob. But I was wrong. So, so wrong.
"Hello, Bella," Said the familiar voice. I meant to reply, but the words drowned in my throat. The pain that I had been trying so hard to overcome for months finally became too much to bear. The last thing I remembered was a sharp pain in the back of my head, the sweet nothingness.
While I was unconscious I dreamed. I dreamt Edward had never left. That he loved me still. In my dream I was laying in his cold embrace. Just looking into his face, breathing in the delicious scent of him. He whispered my name because no dream was complete without the sound of his glorious voice. He smiled at me and moved his hand to cover my cheek. His hand was warm…not warm but blazing hot. I overlooked this fluke in my imagination. He kept saying my name louder and louder until he was nearly yelling. He shook my head. I was confused. This was very bad as delusions went.
Then I realized the blazing hand on my cheek felt far too substantial to be good fir me. So I clawed my way back to reality. But, when I wrenched my heavy eyelids back, the warm hand was still there. At first I was worried that I had gone too far, that my mind had finally snapped. Until I realized that it was Jacob holding my face, Jacob calling my name.
"Bella! You're awake!" Jacob's husky voice boomed. He was right there next to me. I was lying on the hard, cold floor of the kitchen. He was shirtless as usual but what caught my eye was that his skin glistened with drops of water.
"What happened?" I asked.
"You fainted." Alice informed me. She was on my other side, gently stroking my hair.
"Come on, hon. let's get you off the floor." He lifted me up, cradling me in his arms like a child, and set me down on the couch. "What happened to her?" He directed the question towards Alice, yelling it at her.
"You might want to watch your self Jacob Black." She said, gesturing to his shaking form.
He ignored her. "What happened," he asked, sounding more in control of himself.
"I really don't know. She's been crying since you left!" I turned my head into the couch cushion, embarrassed.
There was a soft knock on the door. I made a move to get up but Alice said 'No, I've got it.'
She left the room in a silent flash. Jacob turned to me. "What's wrong?"
"I-I-I… he's coming, Jacob!" I said in a strained whisper. He looked confused for a moment. Then realization dawned on him and he set his mouth in an angry frown.
Alice squealed from the front door. She said 'hello' and then, the entered my living room.
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Teehee. Cliffy! I know it's short but I actually had it way longer. Then I decided to only update up to here so I could leave a good cliff hanger. You should also check out All Alone by JasperandJill