GokuTsuna -5927-
For you I'll give up everything that is mine.
For this ever all encompassing feelings of happiness, sorrow, jealousy, pain… love. All this emotions inspired by you.
I wanted to give you everything I can, to protect you, protect your smiles, your warmth that reaches out and envelopes me, us - for I am not so foolish that I think that I am worthy of your full attention.
All I can do is give you my devotion - my life, my soul, my everything.
But even though everyday I make this clear to myself ( that I cannot have you, that this is merely a purely unrequited love, that I am not deserving to stay by your side, that nobody is worthy of such a position ), you look at me with those clear chocolate, amber, honey, tangerine depths and say so sweetly "Gokudera-kun!"
And then my heart beats so wildly that it drowns out everything but you. I wonder what will happen if you call me by my first name. I can imagine it, me fainting from the sound of it falling from your lips.
Every aspect of my existence revolves around you. When I eat, I think if you are doing the same and if you like what you are eating. When I sleep, I dream of you and your smiles and I dream that you are doing the same. I want to always be at your side.
I remember what it was like when everything was a cold, lonely grey because you weren't there.
-full of cold, hate-filled, indifferent gazes that tell me that I'll never be a part of anything-
But I cannot remember how to live that life again.