This is a rather depressing little poetic sounding thing that came into my head. It's Phan and from Dan's point of view. Enjoy :)
When I'm Less Broken
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Bitter tears. Betray me.
Empty eyes. Explain me.
Broken heart. Delay me.
Though I wish it wouldn't.
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Can't it end?
This crisis I have.
Can't I end it all?
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What is my worth?
In this big world
Where I am so small.
Why do I exist?
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To bask in his brilliance.
To soak up the warmth
That I wish was mine.
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To be rejected
If I ever had the courage to ask.
To shatter one last time
If faced with the words that haunt my sleeping hours.
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"We should stay friends."
They circle my brain.
Vultures pecking at my self-esteem.
Not true
But probably…
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"Hey Dan?"
So perfect and innocent.
"Yeah Phil?"
Innocently stamping down on my heart.
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"I was wondering if you wanted to go to the cinema?"
The warmth in the cool eyes.
The smile that lights up my life.
"Maybe another day."
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Maybe never again.
Maybe another life.
Things will be different.
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I'll find you again.
When the tears stop flowing
When my eyes are warm like yours
When I'm a little less broken.
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I'll always find you.
"Okay."