Chapter 1
My head was spinning in circles trying to figure out everything.
I lost my job today due to the place went out of business. I had to find another job and fast.
I didn't know what I was going to do or get for a job. I knew rent and bills had to be paid.
My mom called me she was the only one that ever talk to me since I made the decision to leave my abusive ex boyfriend. If you called him that which I didn't.
I raised my daughter on my own since I left. Rose done good with her life. She in college now and has a job.
Rose also has a great boyfriend. I won't be able to see Rose for Christmas this year though.
She going to Brad's parents. But to get back to my mom phone call.
She told me told me that she still couldn't talk my dad or my sister and brother into letting me spend Christmas with them.
My hope to be able to spend one Christmas with my family is failing. I'm about ready to give up all together. Even though my father is one of the drug Lords in Michigan.
I went and put a bunch of applications in before I even went home tonight.
Brad and Rose were coming over for dinner tonight. So I had to stop at the store.
Yep Rose and Brad go to the same college and they are in the same city.
We live in Chicago Illinois, the windy city. Well the good thing is I get to spend thanksgiving with Rose and Brad.
I loved to cook and bake. It's fun to spend the holidays with My daughter Rose.
We would always end up getting into food fights every holiday. It was almost like a tradition with us.
Then when Brad and Rose started going with each other and spending the holidays with us we included him on our tradition.
We even had fun with the clean up. It would seem that Brad would of started a new tradition.
We would end up getting each other soaked with water while chasing each other with the wet wash clothes.
But now Christmas it would seem that I would be alone this time.
As I was leaving the store it started to rain. I just shook my head. I went to the bus stop to wait for bus.
A truck went by and hit a huge water paddle.
"COME ON CAN THIS DAY GET ANY WORSE TODAY!" Now I was soak and wet. Water dripping off of me.
The bus finally comes and I get on. "Hey Rebecca, I see your not having a good day are you?" Debby the bus driver asked me.
"Don't ask!" I go and sit in the back of the bus like I always do. As I'm sitting back there I watch this couple.
The way they hold there hands, the way they look at each other and the way they kiss...
I look out the window wishing I could find someone that could share that kind of love with me.
I haven't had a boyfriend since I left Rose's father finally when she was 8 years old.
We moved away from Michigan. I wanted to get as far away from him as possible.
It's hard to trust anyone. Rose and Brad keep telling me I need to get out there and start dating. Maybe I should.
But I was to scared to.