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"Jade," Beck said.

I looked up.

"WHAT DO YOU WANT," I snapped.

I was really annoyed with Beck. He was always taking Tori's side. I could put up with that but today was the final straw. It was our 3 year anniversary and Beck decided we should go and cheer Tori up after a breakup with her stupid boyfriend.

"I get the feeling you're angry with me," Beck said.

"No shit sherlock," I snapped, "Why are you even with me?"

"Because I love you," Beck said.

"THEN WHY IS IT ALWAYS ABOUT TORI! YOU FREAKEN PUT HER FIRST ALL THE TIME."

"Jade," Beck said surprised, "That's not true. How could you even think that?"

"Jade," I said in a mocking voice, "Tori broke up with her boyfriend so we're going to go over to cheer her up, even though it's our 3 year anniversary. Okay that's a time out go sit on the steps. The bitch kissed you and you went along with it. Jade can't you be a little more sensitive to Tori? Why should I be? I can't believe you would embarrass Tori like that. By the way if you hadn't have acted like an idiot that wouldn't have even been an issue but that's another story altogether. Oh and even knowing about the crap I've been dealing with you have no sensitivity to me. Do you think I am just trying to hear myself talk or something Beck? You know why I react the way to certain things and you don't care."

"Jade of course I care," Beck said, "I love you."

"You say you love me but you haven't acted like you do lately," I said angrily.

Beck ran a hand through his hair.

"I'm sorry," he said, "But you're not the Jade you used to be before..."

"Maybe not," I said, "How can I be?"

He put a hand on my shoulder.

"Jade," Beck said, "I have seen the fight go right out of you."

"I think I've been doing a fair bit of fighting lately," I said with a humorless laugh.

"In the past 18 months," he said, "I've seen you become flat. You went from a happy loving bright person to someone who has given up. You're paralyzed by fear and anger. I know it seems like I've been unfair to you-"

"Seems like? Is there any other way to look at it?"

"Yes," Beck said, "I want my Jade back and I will do anything to get my Jade back."

"DON'T YOU THINK I WANT TO BE YOUR JADE AGAIN? DON'T YOU THINK I WANT TO BE ABLE TO ENJOY LIFE AGAIN," I demanded, "I WENT THROUGH HELL IN THE PAST 18 MONTHS BECK. IT ISN'T GOING TO BRING ME BACK BY MAKING ME RELIVE THAT HELL! IT ISN'T GOING TO BRING ME BACK BY ALWAYS SIDING AGAINST ME. OH AND ACTING HURTFUL TOWARDS ME ISN'T GOING TO DO IT EITHER."

"It has though," Beck said, "Not brought you back per-say but this most I have seen you show emotion in 18 months."

"Maybe," I said.

"Jade do you realize old you would never have allowed yourself to be treated the way I have been acting? You would have told me to fuck off."

He had a point there.

"I just don't know what to do," I admitted.

"It's alright," he said, "We'll get through this together. Come on."

"I can't do this Beck," I said.

"Yes you can," he replied.

He put his arm around my shoulder and held me securely, "You've been through a lot and the first step is seeing that it doesn't have control of you anymore."

"BUT IT DOES HAVE CONTROL OF ME," I said.

"I have control of it," he replied, "I'm not going to let anything happen to you I promise. We are not giving up. I promise. We'll take it slow. You'll start talking to a professional. I'll be there with you. I'm not going to let anything hurt you anymore."

I collapsed in tears into his arms. He held me for a long time then wiped the tears from my eyes.

"Trust me Jade," he said, "We'll get through this."

And I knew he was right. With him by my side it wasn't so bad anymore. With him by my side I was okay.