Not Broken Anymore Chapter 1, a ncis fanfic

AUTHOR: April C-M
EMAIL: aprilmermoud
RATING: T
FEEDBACK: Yes, please. That would be so nice of you.
SUMMARY: Gibbs visits Abby in London and gets a surprise. Possibly Gabby? Not 100% yet!
DISCLAIMER: I do not own these characters and I am make NO money off this story. I appreciate the Minds at NCIS and The Amazing actors who help bring these characters to life! I DO NOT OWN these Songs nor am I making any money off them either! They are the Amazing Work Of the Band Blue October whoms songs were a inspiration for this Fic!

Abby had left, She couldn't handle the fact that Reeves had died protecting her. He understood that, He understood how heartbreaking if was for her. Now months had past and he hadn't heard from her, McGee said she was fine but He needed to know for sure. So he got her address from Tim and took a week of vacation time and flew to London to see her. As he arrived at her apartment building, The first thing he noticed was the security and he was happy to see that she had taken her safety seriously. The Door man Asked for his ID before checking a list of people who were allowed up. The man looked up startled before looking back down and chuckling,

"Whats so funny?" Gibbs asked.

The Door man just smiled and turned the list towards Gibbs so he could read it. He instantly read Abby's handwriting,

'Special Agent Leroy Jethro Gibbs/Boss-man/MY Silver Haired Fox: Is allowed in anytime day or night, no questions asked, You don't want to suffer his wrath or Mine! Let the man in!'

Gibbs felt his face light up in a smile for the first time since she left. God he had missed her, He looked back at the Guard and raised an Eyebrow. The man handed him his ID back and turned to let him in before stopping

"Oh I just remembered! Ms. Sciuto Is not in this evening!" Gibbs looked at him strangely "You know where she is?" The man nodded before reaching into his blazer and handing him a flier, "You will find her here, Her show will be starting in about fifteen minutes." Gibbs looked at the man for a long moment before asking "What Show?" The man blinked back surprised before answering slowly "Her band is playing tonight." Gibbs didn't know what to say so he looked back at the flier in his hand and walked back to his rental.

He entered the bar that screamed anything but Abby, the noise wasn't as loud as he expected considering how many people there were but as he rounded to the bar he noticed the stage was being set up and a simple drum set, two guitars, and a violin, along with a single stool placed in the center of the stage with a mic in front of it. He looked around and noticed multiple fliers hanging on the walls, all of them had Abby's beautiful green eyes staring back at him, You couldn't see much of her face but He knew it was her. The band name The Clay Kates made him want to cry. He asked the bartender for a bourbon and found a table near the back and to the side so he could listen and see her but hopefully she wouldn't see him.

Several minutes later her band mates all filed onto the stage and took their places, He didn't realize he was holding his breath until he watched her walk onto the stage. He let out a deep breath upon seeing her, Her hair was pulled back into a single ponytail, She wore tight black jeans with chains that hung perfectly around her hips, her shirt was a hot pink and across the front was the signed letters for Clay Kates.

"Hi Everyone! Thank you so much for coming tonight! I'm not going to bore you all with a bunch of Talking so lets just get right to the music shall we?" The audience that had now settled into their seats roared, as she sat down on picked up one of the guitars.

She leaned close to the mic "This First Song is called 'Everlasting Friend' It is dedicated to all my friends I have loved and lost due to violence." Gibbs felt his throat tighten as he watched her prepare to sing her song dedicated to the lost members of their family.

A heartbeat skip, relationship
Inside a bubble bath
An icing drip below your lip
So we undo the math
A sudden slip between
My pathetic sedatives
A real-life script of how
Mistakes became our medicine, so

Delay the hurtful words
Of complicated overcast
Please take the message that I'm
Picking up my chin at last
I said my confidence
It gets stronger when you're next to me
But we pray from miles away
In quest for what we long to be

I might crumble, I might take a fall again
(Still missing you)
I might crumble, I might take a fall again
(Still missing you)
I might crumble, I might take a fall again
But you're my everlasting friend
Everlasting friend

A heartbeat skip, relationship
So we would stay up late
A teardrop drip below your lip
Beside the airport gate
A sudden slip from where
We used to be a year ago
A real-life script of how
Our hands would hold and not let go

But delay the mournful words
Of complicated overcast
Please take the message
That you taught me how to live at last
But I said my confidence
It gets stronger when you're next to me
But we wave respect goodbye
In quest for what we long to be, but

Will you be coming home?
(Everlasting friend)
My everlasting friend, will you be coming home?
(Everlasting friend)

I might crumble, I might take a fall again
(Still missing you)
I might crumble, I might take a fall again
(Still missing you)
I might crumble, I might take a fall again

I might crumble, I might take a fall again
I might crumble, I might take a fall again
I might crumble, I might take a fall again
I might crumble, I might take a fall again
I just want to know that you'll be coming home
I just want to know that you'll be coming home
I just want to know that you'll be coming home
I just want to know that you'll be coming home

Gibbs barely became aware of the song ending and the applause that erupted around him as she finished the final cord. He felt her heartbreak, her sadness and her bravery. He wanted to run to the stage and wrap her in a hug, but instead he watched her stand as she stretched her arms and rolled her shoulders before she smiled when the next song began.

I try to stay on top of you
To hold your body down
Your shaking seems to hinder
Every grasp that I have found

Moving every inch around me
To defuse your private bomb
I stretch myself surrounding
And protecting you from harm

I use a wallet for your mouth
So when you bite you will not bleed
I drilled a wire through my cheek
And let it down and out my sleeve

And now you're pulling out the best of me
Yeah which never ever comes
This wires all that's left of me
And its hooked within my gums
Within my gums...

So drill it, so drill it
So hard
Feel it
[screaming]

Its proof to show that I bleed for this
And I'd cut myself the shame
To get to know this masochist
Who has stolen my first name

Pretending he's a teacher
Holding all my weight at ease
Yet the teacher seems to split in two
Destroying both his knees

Now crawling I position myself
Below your broken wings
I lift your feathered left arm
Where you hide your heart from me

I never noticed it was swollen
With the touch of brutal pain
I never knew a heart could live inside
The rust from all your rain
All your rain...

So drill it, so drill it
So hard
Feel it
[screaming]

I didn't think to bring a wash cloth
And rub away the dirt
Myself and I we share
This barely beating heart of hurt

And when the hurt comes there's an argument,
A fight to save a smile
A small attack on human tears
To dry them for a while

A dream we all should count on ;
Yeah a vision I believe
Where confidence is found
Attached to wires on our sleeve

Where loneliness is history
Told to pack his shit and leave
Where guidance is a fortune
Told to help in time of need

And were crying isn't secret
It's the art of how we grieve
And lessons are the key
To every goal I will achieve
I will achieve

So drill it, so drill it
So hard
Feel it
[screaming]

So drill it, so drill it
So hard
Feel it
[screaming]

So drill it, so drill it
So hard
Feel it
[screaming]

Gibbs felt his heart nearly stop when he realized this song was about him, Had he came off so sad? He knew she tried to protect him, just as much as he tried to protect her. But had he caused her heartache? Caused her to almost hate him because of it? His thoughts were cut off as he heard a glass shatter to the floor, He looked up and caught her staring at him. She had tears in her eyes as he raised his hand as to wave, she gave him a crooked smile, before turning away from his eyes, and nodded to the other members of her band. She turned to look at him before quickly signing 'Im Sorry'. Then the next song began. He knew this one was going to hurt.

Close my eyes
Feel you sigh
A desperate aching wonder
Will you ever, ever let me off my knees?

Wide awake
Like a dream
As simple as a secret
Being told, told to everyone but me

Will I
Bleed out
I gave it all
But you can't stop taking from me
And way down I know
You know where to cut me
With your eyes closed
Bleed out
It won't be long
til this heart stops beating
So don't let me
bleed out here alone
Hear my plea
you won't hear my plea

Sudden rain
Coming down
It all comes back to me
Waking up, falling down

Another day
Come undone
I keep trying to heal your pain
In return, you cut me over and over
One more time and I will

Bleed out
I gave it all
But you can't stop taking from me
And way down I know
You know where to cut me
With your eyes closed
Bleed out
It won't be long
til my heart stops beating
So don't let me
Don't leave me
bleeding alone

I finally feel like I'm supposed to be, yeah, oh
Don't you take this moment away from me
but before you kill me wont you
wont you look back in my eyes and watch me

Bleed out
I gave it all
But you can't stop taking from me
And way down I know
You know where to cut me
With your eyes closed
Bleed out
It won't be long
til this heart stops beating
So don't leave me don't let me
bleed out here alone

Tears slipped down her face as she turned to take her seat on her stool, She didn't look at him until she began speaking, "This Next song is for my Team, My family. Tony, Tim, Ell, Ducky, Jimmy, Nick, and Jack." He smiled at her letting her know everything was okay. She winked at him before picking up her guitar.

I've sat at the back of the line for years,
Wishing the world wouldn't spin,
I give in, alone again it appears.
There were pieces of me that lived in corners on a hard wood floor.
Until an Angel walked in through my door.

Time stopped, the arch of her back grew wings.
And pulling me further from a devil to a heaven, she said "Believe."
True peace as she looked into my soul.
She said "I'm here to show you faith, and to help you when you fall."

Can you feel my heart,
Beating underneath these stars?
You're the Angel that came, and took these clouds away.
You made me believe!
Never be weak, be strong.
Live every moment like an Angel,
Flies...

I'll whisper in your ear,
You are mine, and you will never have to be alone.
And when I pull you near,
You'll know I love you like I never loved anyone.
So let me be the one to lift you up,
I'll carry you home.
'Cause now I'm here to keep you safe,
And to catch you when you fall.

Only you can see the true me,
Through all the right, and wrong.
Take hold, the best has yet to come.
(Yeah)
You've given me the strength to believe in my heart again!
And now we're here to share this faith.
Stand together through it all.

Oh, oh, oh, oh,
Oh, oh, oh.

That's who you are!
You're the Angel that came, and took these clouds away.
You made me believe!
Never be weak, be strong.
So really strong!

OhOhOhOh,
OhOhOhOh,
OoooOoooh!

That's who you are,
You're the Angel that came,
And took these clouds away...

Gibbs let his tears slide down his cheeks as he felt the hurt heal from the other songs, He watched as she lifted her hand and signed that she loved him, He lifted his and signed back to her, His smile grew as he watched her eyes light up, She ducked her head and looked back at him before turning back to the audience. "Thank you all so much! We have one song left! I will be at the bar after the show if anyone wants to stop by and say Hi! Here we go guys!"

She turned to look at him and signed 'For you' before starting her next song.

I know how to let you leave
How am I suppose to let you go?
Now you stand in front of me
And all the rain is turning into snow

Can you tell me that you're real
So I can really know
That everything I feel I can finally show
Standing next to me oh the person I can be
Is finally here and she won't back down at all

But I can't stop thinking
how you just keep making
sense of all that was broken before

And I won't keep faking
Cause I'm done with taking
Cause with you I'm not broken anymore

I've seen the empty deep
I've damned up the water flow
You're the touchstone my complete
You're the ship that kept me afloat

But I can't stop thinking
how you just keep making
sense of all that was broken before

And I won't keep faking
Cause I'm done with taking
Cause with you I'm not broken anymore

But I can't stop thinking
how you just keep making
sense of all that was broken before

And I won't keep faking
Cause I'm done with all the taking
Cause with you I'm not broken anymore

And I can't stop thinking
how you just keep making
sense of all that was broken before

Yeah and I won't keep faking
Cause I'm done with taking
Cause with you I'm not broken anymore

I'm not broken anymore

Gibbs watched her take her bow and walk quickly off the stage. His felt his heart thud in his chest, If She claimed she wasn't broken anymore because of him, she had it all wrong. He wasn't broken anymore because of her. He was going to tell her before he had to go home, and maybe he could convince her to come back home with him.

TBC