Azusa sat down on the grass and looked at his new scar. It was a late night and he wondered about the plan of Adam by murmuring himself,
"I wonder… If I will be able to become…. Adam.."
Thinking about that, what would happen if Eve was choosing him? Would he become stronger than other people? Would he live happily ever after...? That was the question that Azusa couldn't understand. Or did he..?
Sighing softly, he lied gently down and stared at the starry night for a moment.
Many of them shined beautiful for tonight. Or rather, too beautiful that it burns so much in his heart when it reminded him of his harshly past.
It has been an eternally long time since Azusa and his brothers Ruki, Kou and Yuma became vampires by Karlheinz. Including Justin, Melissa and Christina as he called them as 'friends' who beat him every single day by ridiculous reasons were no longer alive. Thinking about his trauma, Azusa wondered: Now that his 'friends' were no longer there for him, how was he suppose to receive all of those physical damages to existing? Would he does this alone..?
While devoting his moment to think about his fate, an amount of negative thoughts were drifting around Azusa when he heard them saying like;
"Useless"
"Worthless"
"Powerless"
"Meaningless"
"Weak"
"Hopeless"
All of these words, he felt super suicidal by hating himself for that. He didn't deserve to live this world any longer, he thought to himself. No matter how much he cut himself or what else he was doing, the pain won't just go away. Perhaps it was a good idea to kill himself. Then his depression would vanish away too. But it was one thing that Azusa was now thinking. What about his brothers? What would happen if Azusa had sacrificed himself without saying goodbye to them? At least not telling them what to do beforehand? Then when several days have passed, they would find his dead body. It would not only letting them losing Azusa, but it would also destroy them as well.
Now that Azusa thought about this further, he remembered the day when he met his brothers at the orphan house. Although that Azusa himself was the youngest one and he and his brothers were having a different background and personality. But still, all of those memories they had been sharing the good times, the bad times, the sad times...they were like a real family.
At that moment, Azusa heard Ruki saying, " C'mon guys, let's make a plan to escape from this place, all of us."
As slowly as he smiled, he began to shed some tears. He didn't realize until now that it wasn't too late to leave the world yet. Not when he had the family who was more important to him than anything else. He was so happy that he was alive.