Hey guys, I thought I'd do a FGOS with Ana being pregnant and what struggles Christian and her will have to deal with through the pregnancy. Check out my other FSOG story!(:
ANA'S POV:
1 week and 5 days. 1 week and 5 days since I found out I was two months into pregnancy. 1 week and 5 days would be the start of staying up late argueing with Christian about getting an abortion. It was the start and the end of a happy marriage between Christian and I. I would soon become big due to weight gain because of the baby and I wouldn't be able to give Christian what he needs, sex. I'd be to big to even look remotely attractive in anything he bought me in my new wardrobe he insisted on buying me. I'd end up being forced to wear those hideous maternity clothes you find at Macey's that is way too overpriced.
He's tried to convince me to keep the baby that we would be able to work things out. After he spent the first part of the week in island state insisting we get "It" he called it removed. It wasn't until I snapped and told Christian it was either you put up with the child or the child and I would be living somewhere else and I'd be filing for divorce. He quickly resigned to the fact that he would become a dad but it didn't mean he wouldn't sulk/pout like a child himself. Christian thinks this will be tough on him but he's dead wrong he's not the one with morning sickness. Or the one who has to sacrifice their body. Or put up with horrible acne. So Christian can shove it up his ass about feeling sorry for himself. He's the one insisted it was fine that I could stop the pills and we could just use condoms. Yeah until on breaks and then there's the "Oops I'm pregnant" card. So technically I can blame this on Christian. And I most definitely will. I know part of this is my fault for agreeing to just condoms but I was ignorant and in the bliss of beeing newly wed. And it's not like I haven't pondered about taking the easy way out and having an abortion. But the sensual and caring part of me who is smart and knows I'd be guilty and regret it stops me from going through with it. Than there's always the option of adobtion but I would always wonder what he/she is doing. What he/she looks like. Or does he/she have a good home? What are their interests/hobbies, is he/she good in school? Do he/she have any friends? These questions and "What If's?" stop me from giving the baby up for adoption. The worse part is how am I going to tell my family about this? Christian and I have only been married three months. And two months of that I have been pregnant without knowing it. What would Kate think of this? Or Christian's family? To many things are going to happen way to quickly. I won't be able to keep up let alone wrap my head around things. I'll end up having to go to Dr. Flynn, Christian's psychiatrist, myself for a mental breakdown. I won't be able to hide this for long. The weight is going to start giving away my secret. What sucks about pregnancy weight gain is it doesn't look like normal weight gain you know the difference. I might be able to pass an excuse or two at first like "I've been eating allot more" or "I haven't been working out as much as I used to" but soon people will know the truth behind these lies. And Christian will go over the top control-freak on me.
Isn't pregnancy fun?