Hey so everything before this is the same as the books but I didn't like the end so im changing it lol.

*Disclaimer* I don't own any of the characters or the plot they belong to Scott Westerfeld. But I do own this ratty old sweatshirt which is more comfortable than characters lol.

"I want to see him."

"Tally-wa that's not a good idea. What if you lose it? You could kill someone.

"Shay-la," Tally hissed. "Let me see him."

"Let me see him or I'll kill them all. You wont be able to stop me."

Shay's arms were wrapped around her now, but Tally knew she could break the grip. Enough of her sneak suit still worked that she could turn it slippery, slide out, and start swinging, go straight for their throats....

Shay's grip shifted, and something pressed lightly against Tally's neck. "Tally, I can inject you with the cure right now."

"No, you can't. We have a war to stop. You need my brain the messed-up way it is."

"But they need those machines. All your doing is--"

Let me be the center of the universe for five more minutes, Shay. Then I'll go away and let him die. I promise."

Shay let out a long sigh between her teeth. "Everyone, get out of our way."

As Tally neared Zane's bed she could hear only one thing over the incessant beeping of the machines that held Zane hear on the edge of death, or maybe he was already past that edge….. it's all your fault…. There it was again the thought she knew she would never get out of her head.

"Oh Zane…" She whispered. "What have I've I done to you?" She felt the tears she could never cry before run down her face, as she kneeled beside him. As she gently took his to cold, to still, hand in hers she remembered the last time they'd been together. The memory she longed to erase.

"Zane, why? I- I'm rewiring my self again Zane but—but I can't do it with out you. Don't you know that it was always you? Back when we were pretties I didn't change until—until—until our first kiss. Zane I need you….." She mumbled into his pillow. He had changed her again. She knew she was know longer special. Not like she was, because the thing that disgusted her so much, had made her push him away, and dive into the ocean would make her happier than she had even been in her life. She wished he would wake up, even if he was the trembling, broken Zane she'd seen last. Even if he hated her and pushed her away as she had done to him, anything would be better than this.

"I love you" she whispered in his ear, finding it cruely ironic that she had finally gathered the courage to tell him and he would never know. It's all your fault said her thoughts again.

"I know" she snapped angrily to herself.

"Tally," Shay whispered hesitantly. "We need to—"

"Go." She finished for her. "I know Shay-la. I know." She gently kissed his check as she rose and released his hand. "Good-bye"

It's all your fault……It's all your fault……It's all your fault…..

Tally focused on the beeping and humming of the machines as they walked out of his room, anything to drown out that thought. Beep………Beep……..Beep……..Beep….Beep..Beep..Beep.

No, she thought to herself. No.

"It can't be" she barley breathed as she turned to look back one last time. She saw him laying there, so different and yet it almost looked as if he was only sleeping. Tally blinked hard though she knew her eye's couldn't be playing a trick on her, they were after all still special.

"Shay?"

"What?"

"Look at Zane. At his hand"

"Tally, what is it" she replied wearily as she turned around. "Is that? Is he?"

"Yes, Yes!" Tally practically giggled as she ran toward him.