I went home, just another a summer. I would just go on about my days, go to school, hang out with friends, and do sports. I'll have the everyday normal crap everyday. Nothing different. Just me enjoying my days that go by.
Who am I kidding?
I just spent the whole summer with her. I can't have anything else in my life right now. She is my life. Gwen Tennyson is my life. All these days that I don't get to see her are some of the most painful days ever. It's been this way since we were ten. I can't imagine my life without her. I'm in love with my cousin. I don't care what anyone else would say about us. I'll fly out to the center of the universe and call out to all of existence, "I, Ben Tennyson, love Gwen Tennyson!"
When I hold Julie, I pretend she's you. When I hold her hand, I think that it's your hand I hold. When I take her out, I think I'm taking you out. I can't keep this up. It's not fair to her for us to be living this lie. Everything we do is just wrong. I can't let this continue, no matter how much it hurts. I can't let her suffer for my sin so it's time for me to do what I've got to do.
"Julie, I'm sorry"
It's time.
I can't just let this build up in me. If this keeps up, I'll go insane. I have to find you. I have to tell you. I can only hope you're not with…him.
There!
Good, you're alone. Now's the moment of truth, do or die. I have to prepare myself for any kind of response, even if it's not the one I want. But if I don't tell you, then I'll be suffering for the rest of my life.
"Gwen, there's something I need to tell you."
The stars never seemed so amazing. It's like they were designed so I can enjoy this moment better. Then again, how could I not? You're here in my arms.
I just don't want to let you go. I could lay here in our afterglow forever. The feel of your skin against mine is so intoxicating. It's like we were suppose to happen. We've been through so much and we were always together in it all. Nobody was ever more on my side than you. I can't imagine facing the world without you.
And I just can't help the way your hand looks with that ring.
It's time. Grandpa and Kenny stood with me in the waiting room as we waited in anticipation. I can't hold still! I can't think! My mouth is so dry! My legs are shaking! Is she okay? Why can't I be in there with her? I need to be with her!
Then it happened.
It took on a brand new meaning when the doctor said "It's time to watch a miracle arrive."
Thank the Lord, cut the cord, take her home, help her grow, and complete the circle of love!
That's the circle of love!
Jenny's birthday