Juvy: Ahhh the good old days of Teen Titans. Goodness I miss this show (tears). I was always interested in the Star/Rob/Rea triangle. Though my ship is Star/Rob I found the concept interesting. Also Starfire was my favorite character. I haven't a clue why so many people hate her? So I decided to write some Starfire angst 'cause there seems to be a genre that is lacking. Also BB squimed himself in there too. Sneaky little kitten!

Disclaimer: Lets face it if any of us here owned TT then there'd still be new episodes. But alas I nor any of my fellow fans own it. Teen Titans belongs to it's respected owners. Drat.

She sat on the roof glancing out towards the sky. She didn't belong here, not anymore. At least she didn't feel as if she did. Sure she loved her friends dearly, but did they love her? She shook her head, red hair twisting about. Such a silly thought. Star knew they loved her. It was just one, him, that didn't love her the way she did.

Even when Starfire first arrived on this strange blue planet she had felt connected to the spiky haired human. He had fought her with such passion and strength in those first moments of meeting. Coming from a land where the ways of the warrior were bred into you as a child she instantly respected him. That respect had grown into something else. Something she hadn't the knowledge of until recently.

It was Cyborg who had explained it to her. This 'love'. She knew of love or thought she did. On her home planet they had the love of a warrior, love of a sibling and of parents, but not 'love'. This was where Star grew confused. She loved Cyborg, and Beastboy; they were like her older and younger brothers. Raven a sister to her, Robin had been harder to categorize however. It was perplexing for the longest time. She failed to understand why she couldn't place him in any of the groups she knew of. He wasn't like a father or brother. So what was he? This was where Cy had come in and explained.

'On earth your heart pounds'.

'Like you are in battle, quick and hard,' she asked. He nodded chuckling at her analogy.

'You palms will become wet and sweaty too.'

'Sticky and moist like, and this means you are in this 'love?' She asked again and he nodded once more.

At first it had sounded like some sort of illness. Cy only laughed patting her on the shoulder goodheartedly. He spoke then boring deeply in her green eyes with wisdom only he seemed to possessed. 'When they can hurt you like no one else can,' Star closed her green eyes tightly at the memory, ' then you're in love.' And she was.

Bless Tameran she was. Though when she realized, it hadn't appeared so shocking. Starfire knew—always—she had the 'feelings' she just couldn't tell what they were. She did now wishing she didn't. Watching the sun set coloring the sky a range of oranges and yellows Star felt the universe pull her to it. Calling her with sweet words covered in honey and promise. Starfire learned in one heartbreaking moment she loved Robin, now she wished she didn't.

Wished she didn't see it, feel it. All the way down to her bones and seven stomachs. She clung to the happy moments of her time here for there were many to chose from. The feeling of floating came upon her. Rising up she drifted closer and closer away from the pain that single tower room had held.

"Starfire!" A voice called pulling her back. Like a bag of bricks tied to her feet she fell back down to the meet the hard surface of concrete. "Oh man! My bad Star." She looked into a set of dark green eyes similar to hers and a crop of green hair.

"Beastboy?" Starfire questioned eyebrows rising. What could he possibly be doing here? The roof was something of a secret spot for her and Robin where they had always watched the sunset in her blissfully unaware days. Was it so wrong to want to cling to those times?

"Here," he offered her a gloved hand pulling her to her feet. They both smiled though there was no real joy behind it. Strange really as they were two of the most joyous members of the team. She knew of the reason her own heart ached, but Beastboy?

"Figured you were up here." He commented lightly sitting down on the edge. He stared out into the sky not unlike she had done only a few moments before. He had that same look in his eyes, one of need. What was it he needed Star wondered beginning to worry.

"Friend," she sat down beside him, "will you not tell me what troubles you so?" Beastboy looked slightly surprised only to let out a humorlessly chuckle. This behavior only served to confuse and worry the redhead more.

"Star, dude, that's my line." He flashed another smile showing off his one canine tooth.

"Wha-? But Beastboy, I assure you everything is in fine working order." She smiled brightly though something inside her was still screaming.

"You're good." Her eyes filled once again with confusion. "At pretending I mean. I swear if we weren't both upset of the same thing I wouldn't be able to tell at all." Starfire hadn't felt this confused since Robin had tried to explain to her the concept of the TV. The people were real but not trapped inside the device, more like moving pictures but how where pictures real? After a few hours Robin sat her down and told her to just enjoy it. She did.

"I saw them." Suddenly the pieces snapped in place with a shaking click. Them. Beastboy could only be referring to their leader and the dark-gemmed princess of the Tower.

"You saw…"

"I saw Robin and Raven, yeah." He was no longer looking at her only to the emerging twilight.

"Beastboy, friend, I, know of not what you speak—"

"It hurts ya know?" She stopped short examining the boy before her. He appeared so much older now. Gone was he usual carefree prankster attitude. Now was the older mature boy seen only by the few. " I mean, it just…hurts, ya know?" She did know, goodness did she know.

"I didn't mean—that is to say I—I…" Words fumbled out of her mouth. Starfire wanted to erase the scene that was on repeat in her head. She had an inkling that Beastboy wanted to do the same. Feeling a hand on her shoulder she glanced up.

"S'not your fault." He said smiply.

"And nor is it yours." She said softly placing her hand on top of his. They looked at each other both seeing the pain and regret. Both seeing what others didn't, couldn't. They weren't supposed to be sad, Starfire especially. She was supposed to be the happy-go-lucky girl who many felt was to stupid to feel or understand anything of substance. He was supposed to be the prankster who never learned to keep his mouth shut and was always falling into trouble. He wasn't supposed to be smart or worldly. Neither were suppose to be this upset.

Beastboy was expected to make a joke and Starfire was supposed to be over joyous. Both were suppose to congratulate them. Beastboy and Cyborg would propose to make a breakfast explosion and Star would suggest all sorts of outrageous things like a party or, heavens forbid, a wedding. Neither were suppose to be upset. It wasn't in their job descriptions. Moments passed as the sky flowed from yellow-orange to a purplish-blue. Stars sprinkled the horizon. Starfire longed to reach out and touch them. The tiny little planets that most earthlings knew nothing of. "Beastboy if I may…"

"Of course."

She turned resting her face in his shoulder. Tears flowed out of her green eyes. Meaningless words dribbled out of her mouth. A hand ran through her hair. Rain from another pair of green eyes splashed her neck. The stars twinkled on as two friends held each other trying to stitch their hearts back together. Even if it was only for pretend.

Edit!Juvy: Thanks SOOOO much to everyone who reviewed the first time. I LOVED the critism everyone gave me. That may sound a bits strange but I me, when people tell me I made mistakes it means a lot. So I went back edited some stuff and tried to fix things. Hope it reads better. Thank you. This is my first TT fic but I feel the need to write more. Maybe a multi chapter fic. Who knows, who knows... Hope you enjoyed and thank you for reading.