Secondary

Note: Just a quick drabble about Raphie boy and how he always feels 'secondary'.

2k3 or 2k12, could apply to either – Raph

Disclaimer: I do not own the Ninja Turtle Franchise. The Turtles were originally conceived by Kevin Eastman and Peter Laird and published into a comic series by Mirage Studios in 1984. The 2003-2010 cartoon was handled by 4kids and the 2012-Ongoing animated cartoon is handled by Nickelodeon.

Secondary. That's all Ah am, right? Of course, standing next ta fearless. Tha showboat makes all of us look like little leaguers wantin' ta be heroes.

"Good job Leonardo, I can tell you have been practicing that kata and I am very proud of your progress. Raphael, you let your anger control-"Ah stopped listenin' at that point. What's tha point? All he's gonna do is tell me how Ah need ta control mah anger, because Ah'm tha bad guy right? An' true ta form, Leo's tha good guy. It'll probably neva change.

It's tha same up top too. Up top, Ah'm jus' second rate, second place, second in command, tha list can continue ya know.

An' growin' up wit three otha brothas unda such a small space, cooped up like tha', ya learn pretty quick how ta getcha way. Get whatcha wan', get attention, get Dad's approval. It all comes wit tha package deal.

Mike always stole attention one way or anotha. Tha kid was pretty smart wit it, Ah'll give 'im that. Don's one of a kind, but Ah know he fixes everythin' for his share of tha' attention. We all know he don' really like fixin'. Maybe inventin', but Ah know it ain't fixin'. An' Leo got attention tha minute he became Splinter Jr. Ah hate 'im tha most.

Mike's way of gettin' attention is annoyin', 'coz he does his act outs as obnoxiously an' dumbly as possible, but at least he doesn't hog Dad's attention. Nah, Mikey jus' wants ours, which is fine (As long as he doesn't get too needy).

Don's way of gettin' his share is subtle an' it ain't much. It's nuthin' Ah gotta worry 'bout anyways.

But Leo? Oh hell no. Leo is tha fuckin' hog of it all. Always playin' leader, tha prodigy, tha fuckin' platinum ninja. It ain't fair. An' then he acts like he knows it all. Don can act like tha', but not Leo. No fuckin' way.

Now, imagine when we go out. Leo, of course, has every fuckin' ally givin' 'im honor. An' Don gets tons of respect an' credit. Mike doesn' even try ta impress people. Guy could give two shits less what people gotta say 'bout 'im. An' Ah do to, trust me, but ya get tired of livin' in a shadow as Leo's 'Second in Command' after awhile.

But when Ah'm alone? Up top by mahself? There ain't no one ta outshine me. Everythin' is ta mahself. There ain't no one ta tell me what ta do. No one ta tell me what's wrong an' what's right. So, Ah lone it. An' then, it's mah own rules, mah own morals.

An' there ain't no one ta take mah place.

A/N:

I know, short. I am sorry hehe. This is kind of a random thing I found just in my WIP folder on my PC. I'm just making my way through it. Anyways, hope you enjoyed!