Hello-ssu! Nice to meet you guys and welcome to my newest fanfic. I really never tried to write a KHR ff, but hey for everything a first time. So don't worry this fanfic won't be Nana centered just in the first chapter/prologue. And I'm already apologizing for the facts that I'll probably have wrong, 'cause I haven't finished the series yet…. Still need to but I'm always kinda too lazy. Anyways I hope I'll get loads of support for this ff hehe. Btw for the Nana bashing and stuff in the future I'm already sorry in advance…truth to be told I really adore Nana, I was really internally struggling for this story cause I didn't want Nana to turn out like this… so yeah once again sorry. okay so very OCC Tsuna and loads of drama for those who don't dig it, sorry.

P.S: I suck at planning my chapters and making a plan for how the story will turn out so yeah…have fun!

Warning: Nana bashing, future bl/yaoi, bullying, suicide and shit….

Disclaimer: This ain't owned by Shirotani, she just owns the crappy extra plot and stuff….

prologue

Sawada Nana, she was known around the neighborhood as one of the sweetest persons you could meet in the world. She grew up in a very standard, but loving family which consisted of herself, her parents and her siblings. Nana was from nature a sweet, sensitive yet independent girl. She met her first and probably only love of her life at the coffee shop she worked at every Saturday. At first he was just a random stalker, nothing she wasn't used to, but after a while he started coming more frequently to the shop and became a regular customer, that took a 'slight' interest in her. Her being the innocent teenage girl she was obviously enjoyed the attention the man gave her every Saturday and even asked for more shifts at the café. That man being called 'Sawada Iemitsu', a blond, very charming, but persistent guy.

After three months she finally gave in, it was GAME OVER for Nana. At first he just interested her and she started going out with him, after him stubbornly asking her over and over again though. Everything was like a game for her, but the more she stared finding out about the blonde the more she started falling head over heels with him. After a while it started becoming more serious, so serious he proposed to her. The couple really moved fast, not that they both had any complains about it though, after all it was love at first sight right? Nana was at that moment eighteen-years-old, Iemitsu twenty-two. A legal age to get married and of course she happily agreed to marry him like the love struck teenager that she was.

Being married to Iemitsu sure gave loads of struggles in her life, first of all, he was almost never at home. He worked at a construction site and had to travel overseas because of his responsibilities within the company. That's what he told her. Of course she didn't believe a thing about that, she may be sweet but certainly not stupid at all. However she was just in denial, she was still young, she still had many internal struggles. What if he was seeing someone behind her back, that would break her into little pieces.

She couldn't take all the thoughts of the many possibilities as the why her husband could be lying to her, so she buried herself in the forbidden fruit. She drank and she drank, day and night, not stopping no matter what unless her husband happened to return home. The love she held might have just disappeared in the blink of an eye.

But one day when Iemitsu returned home he asked an unexpected question,'' Nana, do you want to try having a child maybe?'' The question shocked her to the very core, but at the same time the thoughts of someone being next to her twenty-four-seven thrilled her to no extend. Especially after receiving almost no more love from her husband she wanted something consistent in her life.

Shyly she brushed part of her hair behind her ear and started blushing profusely. ''Yes'', the only words that came out of her mouth and that's when it all started. The passionate love making that she hadn't experienced in months of his absence. Waking up the next day wasn't all that nice though, as he had once again left the house without saying anything to her at all. It felt so lonely and so excruciatingly silent. The house was as big and empty as ever.

Three months had passed since their passionately love making and her husband had yet to return home, not even a single phone call or a letter. Three months since she started throwing up every morning and three months since the last time she had her period. She suspected the possible results and thus made her way to the drugstore to buy the thing she was looking for. Yes, a pregnancy test. However with the time her husband hadn't come home she felt slightly empty, even while thinking about the fact that she could carry his child in her. Silently rubbing over her stomach she made her way back home while the gaze of the clerk kept following her every movement.

''Boss, you might want to contact your wife, looks like things are going to get interesting.''

Back at home Nana was sitting on the toilet holding her pregnancy test with a big grin on her face like life couldn't be better. Two bright red lines marring the wonder device. ''So, little one, seems like I won't be alone anymore with you now. Hehe, may you grow to be a healthy little one, alright.'' Nana rubbed her stomach again looks like it would become a habit for the time being. She really couldn't be happier, she threw all the bottles of wines, the cans of beer, her expensive Bordeaux away leaving nothing but empty cabinets. Instead of those alcoholic drinks she put different kinds of snack in the cabinets. A clean start thta was to be her new goal. She just couldn't wait to tell Iemitsu about the good news! Maybe he would finally pick up his phone and answer. How would he react to the news?

Months past and Nana's stomach began to show and she had cravings for snacks like crazy, but it was all good since Iemitsu was by her side. Somehow she felt like the love she had lost slowly started to return and fill her heart to the brim. Every day she started humming and rubbed her stomach in a clockwise motion. Those nine months were the best of her life that she could have ever experienced, but then came the time to deliver her little baby into the world.

''come on Nana! Push just a little bit more!'' Nana's face crunched up in pain and tried once more to push. ''Aaaah! It hurts, Iemitsu!'' She grabbed Iemitsu's hand in pain and squashed it which made him flinch in pain. Like they say; 'together in pain and happiness'. But as soon as Nana stopped screaming and let out a big sigh a little sound was heard, their little baby boy came into the world. ''It…It's a boy, Nana, Nana, it's a boy! Isn't he beautiful?'' The little baby started wailing and rubbed with his hands in his eyes.

The doctor started making his way towards the new mother and made his presence known by coughing several times, ''So, how would you like to call your child Sawada san?'' Nana looked down at the child who was now lying silently in her arms, ''Tsunayoshi, his name will be Tsunayoshi. Hello Tsu-kun~'' She silently started cooing on the child whom just started leaning further into her breasts. And Iemitsu just looked lovingly at the pair. His own little family, but not everything was rose colored and he knew what kind of destiny was to fall upon his child. It was at that point that his heart started aching and he made one of the hardest decisions a father has to make. ''Nana, I'll be leaving in a week to Italy. I'm sorry'' He looked down in shame as his eyes were starting to sting, but he kept it all in. 'for Tsuna, for Nana!'those were the only thoughts that filled his head, he had fulfilled his purpose.

After several moments of deafening silence it felt like a thread snapped. She tightly hugged Tsuna to her and shrunk in a little ball before lashing out at Iemitsu, tears streaming down her face which was full of exhaustion. ''You! I should have never married you! It's all your fault!'' she grabbed several objects lying next to her and started throwing them to Iemitsu in a child's tantrum. ''Go away! I don't want to see your face before me or Tsuna ever again! Leave, now!'' She glared at him with the heat of a thousand suns as he looked away ashamed and started making his way out of the hospital.

This was better for the two of them, to never see each other again. He admitted he messed up her life and he never deserved to see his son again.

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It's alright Tsu-kun, mama is here to always protect you. No matter what, mama will always love you.

soooo, that's the end of the very long prologue, hope you enjoyed it all. It's pretty late here so sorry for all the grammar mistakes and stuff. Anyways please review and follow etc. the usual stuff. And if you have any questions or suggestions go ahead i'm open for everything ;)

Bye, Shirotani out and see you guys next real chapter!