I feel sick to my stomach as I run out of the bathroom. I had come to the mall to read and my curiosity got the better of me, I had to know. For a while I haven't been feeling myself and now I know why. I look in my purse for my phone so I could call Augustus, my boyfriend. We both have cancer, and it makes life a little harder than it would be for most teenagers, and he is currently in the hospital so the doctors can try treatment for his cancer that recently came back. I dial his number quickly, not even bothering to scroll through my contacts. It rings and rings and i feel like I might die. I just need to talk to him and I just need him to answer his damn phone. The rings stop and i sigh "Hazel Grace?" I hear him say. A smile spreads over my face as soon as I hear his voice. "Augustus Waters do I have news for you.." I say quietly, I realize I was still running and i find my way to the parking lot. I could almost hear his smile in his words "And what's that?". I walk to the car I had drove myself here in and stay quiet"Do you have anything going on today?" I ask him as I start the car up "Nope. Why?" "Because I'm coming to see you, Gus Gus" I say with a small laugh and he laughs too "What's the catch? You haven't visited in a while" he tells me and i feel a bit of guilt "Sorry.. Well I'm coming to see you now" I say, turning the radio up a bit. "It will good to see you again my Hazel Grace" I begin to back up out of the parking space"It will be good to be seen " I say and smiles, hanging up the phone as I begin driving towards the highway. "See you soon" I text Augustus "Okay" he says back and I smile small texting "Okay" back. He replies quickly saying "Okay" again and I laugh texting it back once more so I look down at my phone and it slips out of my hand "Ugh" I say to myself, keeping one hand on the steering wheel and ducking my head down for a second to look for my phone "Where did it g-.." I start before lunging forward a bit and groaning from the pain I immediately feel in my head. My mother was going to kill me if I just ruined the car, is the only thought going through my head until theres another lung forward and i suddenly feel like I'm spinning and then everything goes black and i feel pain all throughout my body.
1 HOUR LATER
I open my eyes just barely and immediately feel the pain again. I see a doctor talking but his words didnt make much since and i turn my head a bit and see Augustus with a concerned look on his face and I finally catch a few words from the doctor, but they were words I did and didn't want him to say at the same time. "...The good news is that her and the baby are okay" I hear the doctor say at the moment he finally realizes I'm awake . Augustus' face changed from concerned to confused and unbelieving of what he said "The what?" He asks and sees my face. I feel a oxygen mask on my face, covering my mouth and nose and making sure I can breath. Even with the mask I had a lost of breath as I look at Augustus and he looks at me. "T-The baby" I say, repeating what the doctor had said but my words sounded muffled from the oxygen mask. He stays silent and just looks at me, the only movement he makes is when he blinks "Thats what... That's what you wanted to tell me" he asks and i just nod, slowly looking around the hospital room. "What happened?" I ask looking at the doctor"Your car went off the road and you ran into the tree and we suspect the car got out of control and ran into several others" he said quietly and nods. Augustus was still just looking at me. "B-But... You.. A baby...?..B-But .. I.." Gus was just saying random syllables and words, I could tell he was too shocked to say any actual sentences "A-Amsterdam...?..?" He asks quietly and looks at my stomach which has gotten a little bigger, but i was pretty sure that was just because i had suddenly had a larger appetite, but it explained that as well. I look down at the bump on my stomach as well and nod slowly"Amsterdam.." I say back. I was glad when I saw the doctor finally get the hint and begin to leave. He gave me some painkillers and told me i could hook back up to my own oxygen tank whenever I pleased before walking out the door and leaving me and Gus alone. I take off the oxygen mask and stand up slowly which was still kind of hard for me and i walked the few steps it took to get to my oxygen tank leaning against a chair and taking it back to the hospital bed. Even that few seconds made me a bit dizzy and i laced my nasal cannulas over my ears and placing the tube so air would go into my nose. I sit on the bed with my legs crossed and sigh looking down as Augustus walks over towards me. He kneels on the ground next to the bed and stares at me "Hazel Grace ?" He whispers and i remain silent"Hazel Grace?" He repeats, louder this time and I look up at him "Yes, Augustus waters?" I ask "Why didn't you tell me earlier?" He asks quietly"I-I didn't know earlier..." I say taking a gulp of air . "Hazel, w-we both have cancer and that means that.." He looks at my stomach again "It means the risk is higher " he whispers and i just nod letting a tear run down my face. My life was hard enough having cancer myself, but the only thing worse than having cancer is having a kid with cancer. I remember thinking that one day when while my mother was making me go to my stupid support group. He slowly put his hand on the bump on my stomach and looks up at me with a small smile on his face . I smile back"A-Are you happy about this..?" I ask him quietly and his doesn't say anything and leans down resting a small kiss on my stomach over my shirt and smiles a bit bigger looking at me. "Of course I am" he whispers and kisses my forehead "I just don't think you are... Ready... For something like this". I think about what he was saying, that I wouldn't be old enough yet for this. "Then what am I going to do?" I whisper and he looks at me with those big gorgeous eyes of his and stands up, sitting next to me on the hospital bed and pulling me into a hug. "No matter what happens, I love you Hazel Grace" he says into my ear and i smile "And I'll always be here" he says and rubs my stomach. We both laugh "I'll always love you Hazel grace" he says and smiles at me "Well some infinites are bigger than other infinities Augustus waters" I tell him. "Im tired" I say sleepily and close my eyes slowly. He kisses my cheek "Sweet dreams" he says quietly as I drift off