When would I ever get the courage to do what I want?
I'm fed up with the life with my parents.
When my mom used to scold me for no reason,
I tell myself that deep below,
I still love her.
But when she starts to show some love now,
I tell myself that deep below,
I still hate her.
It's the complete opposite.
And I don't want to change,
But I am.
I feel unaffected to the hurtful words she says,
When in the past I break down and cry.
In the night,
When my poker face fall,
The sadness in my eyes no longer shows.
When the stars shine from the night sky,
I no longer look up and sigh,
All along thinking that how good it is,
To be alive.
The tears that I have been holding back,
No longer pour down when I'm alone.
When you lose the will to love,
There isn't anymore to lose.
No tears, no shouts, no sadness,
Can express the my emotions,
That are churning deep inside.
I don't know what I'm feeling,
Or what I want to express.
I shut my mouth,
Resume my expressionless face,
And walk on.
There's no more to lose,
My heart is in pieces,
And I know,
No glue would put it back together.
I wonder,
When I'll ever get the courage to,
LEAVE…