the fool;
Hikaru keeps a journal hidden in the bottom drawer of his desk and writes in it after every game he has. (He does not call it a diary because he is not twelve anymore and he doesn't want to taint that word with his life.)
In it, he draws messy kifu and scribbles 'I could have done better's and 'I wish I'd made this move instead's and 'I'll try my best tomorrow's. Cramped into the bottom right hand corner of the last page, he'd written one musty night last June, so drunk on euphoria and diet Coke-
I wish I knew how to feel less alone.
Owari
2010.09.15