Agent X

The Impossible!

Presents

All For Me

Please note this story was written several years ago by my sister and I, and as she is closing her account we have decided to move it here. It'll be kept in it's original form, with a minimum of editing (although it needs it) because I'm lazy. This includes author notes. Details can be found on, and questions directed to, my profile page. Thankyou.

A/N: Please note that these events are meant to take place almost directly after Aftershock. The chapters that follow are all part of the chronological order. This is also my first ever Teen Titans, and overall, fanfic. Constructive criticism is always welcome.

Disclaimer: Teen Titans is owned by DC Comics, Cartoon Network and Marv Wolfman.

The wind was rising. It ruffled his fur and tousled his hair before turning around and heading back out to sea. There the seagulls caught it and rode it high, until they too were able to look down on the wharfs and the gleaming bay.

Far away, it seemed, he could hear the rattle and honk of traffic, smell all the scents of the city. He even fancied himself able to hear the jumble of voices as the people talked about the weather, the news, where to eat, where to shop, and what to wear. And as Beast Boy's eyes glazed over she moved towards him.

It had only been a couple of weeks since they had been betrayed. It had only been a couple of days since the Titans had ceased their remorse, and it had only been a couple of hours since the recognition of, not Terra's actions, but his own had sunk in.

"I'm sorry" he said. Beast Boy's back was currently on the ground, his eyes staring up at the sky. It was blue, too.

Slowly she sat down beside him, letting her legs hang in the void over the edge and hand gripping her cape to stop it from whipping about. Her eyes lay shadowed in her hood and turned to the bay. He noticed that even in her proximity she still seemed apart.

"You're not alone. She betrayed us all. Twisted us all. Hurt us all. The others know what it feels like to be betrayed." She paused and tore her gaze from it's wanderings to look at him, "What are you blaming yourself for?"

As he sat up carefully, their eyes locked. "Do they know what it feels like to betray someone?"

Guilt. That was all she could see in his eyes.

"No" Beast Boy answered himself. Leaning back on his palms he refocused his attention on the distant horizon. His voice caught a little, "Do they know what it feels like to betray two people?"

Silence was her answer, but she watched him closely as he closed his eyes and breathed deeply and steeled himself. "Do they know what it's like to break the most important promises of your life, to the two most important people in it?"

She paused before speaking. Her analytical mind working quickly through his words. Finally she asked, "What did you promise her?" and he replied,

"Friendship."

"Promise me that no matter what happens… that no matter what I've done… promise me that we'll always be friends?"

The images passed quickly through her mind, but she saw the desperation, heard the frantic plea. And she felt his shame.

"I promised that no matter what I'd always be there, that I'd always be her friend. But as soon as I learned what she'd done, I turned around and I abandoned her. I broke my word minutes after it was given."

Quickly she spoke up this time, "At that point she had already betrayed us. You had no reason to remain loyal to-"

"That's not my point!"

She stopped and remained quiet, dropping her glare as he brought his knees closer to himself, and turned to look at the smoggy city.

"It's my fault. I said I'd be there for her, traitor or not. I… I told myself I loved her. But now I wonder how I could have fooled myself then into thinking that my word was worth anything to anyone, when I'd already broken a promise. One that was much more archaic and to someone much more special."

And she went along, even though she knew, "Who was the second promise to Beast Boy?"

"You."

The book in her lap seemed to be getting heavier with every word, until finally the babble she had managed to ignore fizzled back into the foreground.

"… that's not a kindergartener, that's my wife!" Beast Boy tried hopelessly to smother his laughter, but in vain. Rolling her eyes she pulled the book closer to her face. It didn't work.

"You're gonna drown in that thing. Oh! That reminds me of the one about, hold on… right! These three guys, okay, they're drowning in the ocean and this mermaid comes up and -" he had noticed she wasn't paying attention, and frowned.

"Here, give me that!" snatching the book from her hands Beast Boy carelessly tossed it aside. The resulting thud was loud enough to draw the attention of Cyborg, as he crossed the room to head to the kitchen. He looked at the mess of pages that had crumpled under the weight of the tome and winced. She wasn't going to like that.

She didn't.

"Beast boy" she started with a voice like a steel spring coiled, "Leave me alone. Now." He did, rather quickly backing up along the couch. She glared at him, he held his hands out in front as a gesture of 'peace'. Or maybe just to protect himself. A tense silence reigned the room.

She ignored Cyborgs fascinated face poking around the doorway from the kitchen. She ignored the highly pitched gabble that was drifting muffled from one of the hallways and was steadily becoming louder. She ignored the fact that his eyes refused to leave hers the whole time.

Seeing he wasn't about to try anything funny she relaxed a little, took a deep breath, and turned towards her book. And before she had even bent down –

" – and she says 'I will grant each of you one wish' so the first one, of course, wants to -"

"Beast Boy!" Swinging around and snatching her book up at the same time she stepped towards him menacingly. Her eyes glowed "From now on, when I say no more, leave me alone and get lost, I mean stay the hell away from me!"

At that moment there came a short feminine gasp from the other side of the room, causing in turn a sharp intake of breath from the girl herself as she closed her eyes. Slowly an array of objects in different states of ruin were levitated back to the ground. She exhaled and opened her eyes to the scene, turned on her heel and walked out.

"Hey! Come back. That won't help! I will not leave you alone until I make you smile!" her outline was disappearing into the sudden darkness of the corridor. "I promise I'll make you smile. You won't be able to ignore me forever - Hey! Wait!" she was gone.

He was left in the silence of a disheveled and strangely cold room with three shocked faces watching his clenched fists and eyeing the hallway. Beast Boy looked steadily after her.

"I know I'll make you smile."


The sun was setting. It didn't seem to shed that splendid array of colours. Rather, it bathed them in a cold and ordinary light. It wasn't silent. She could hear the perpetual rattle and honk of traffic and caught a wiff the busy city. There was a distant jumble of faceless voices from people talking about the weather, the news, where to eat, where to shop, and what to wear.

Both sets of eyes were focused on the fading horizon, with their backs to the city skyline. It wasn't silent, but the quiet seemed to be waiting.

"I'm leaving" he said.

Sitting down she turned to look at his features as he stared unwaveringly into the distance. The wind fiddled with her hair and his fur before he spoke again.

She didn't speak.

"You know, it wasn't that long ago that I realised what I've been denying. That I did something far worse than Terra. I let the two people I care about most fall away from me, not only that, I pushed them away. I betrayed them both by promising them something of myself to two people who needed it and, once they had finally begun to accept me, turned away. I left them. And now I can't regrasp those possibilities. You… I know now that you'll never really be able to trust yourself to me again. I mean, if I had stuck to it, I could have kept my word. I could have made you smile, or made… something. But I was getting restless. And depressed. The lack of reaction made me loose faith, and so when she was there with her ready admiration and attention, I abandoned my cause. Just like that."

Beast Boy paused. "And then when she needed me, needed the words I had given to her… I didn't go through with them. I never completed my promises."

He stood up slowly, eyes not leaving the horizon and his voice strangely strong in the wind.

"So now I have to leave, to find out if I can trust myself again. To know that I'm worthy of having my friends trust me." Beast Boy turned to look her directly in the eye.

"I have to leave, if only to find if I still have something here, or if it's all truly turned to nothing."

"Will you be coming back?" Both were standing now and she could see, had seen that this decision was immovable.

"I.. I'd like to think so, but if I do, it won't be for a long time."

An emerald eagle was disappearing fast in the spreading dark. She watched it go and followed the steady movements with her eyes until it had faded, before turning heavily to head back indoors.

"Only, there's one thing. Before I go I… I need to ask. I don't want to leave this behind unfinished. I need to know if there is something ahead for me. Please, let me fulfil the most important of my promises…"

But even before he had launched off the massive tower and into the night sky, even before he had gracefully shifted to a sleek and lonely bird, and even before the words had been formed in his mouth or mind; they both knew. The request was something impossible for her to do. Not for anyone, nor for any reason. It was a simple question, with a simple answer.

She wouldn't do it.

"Please Raven,

Smile for me."