Author's note: As mentioned in the summary, the poem is constructed based on Anna's point of view during her second scene with Castiel in episode 16 - season 4.
Traces
It's him, that searches for me now
It's him with whom I seek to be
A familiarity so soothing, yet so clouded
like a distant dream, a feeling that never ended.
And I see my Angel standing to the opposite side
Clothed in unmistakable radiance under the cold lamplight
His eyes filled with query and expectation
His presence wrapped in a new, humane aura.
Can a simple gesture convey traces of harboured emotion?
And all these words I won't utter, the feeling that lingers?
Even in your denial, your tranquil silence or our time apart that intervened,
I continue to remember what we have shared.
Now that injustice has torn our world- an unveiled peril she brings,
wonder strikes me how Love can be so strangely out of reach.
I am looking to bridge our differences, to mend the lost time
though you may interpret it as a sin without possible forgiveness.
The battle won't cease shortly
The shadows shall spread in places we thought as clear
But with you, I won't hold back, I won't bend
even when my tears betray the kind of entity I am, that I fell.
Those beneath the light, will not allow room for understanding
Although I don't belong and barred from being accepted
I cannot stop myself from wishing that someday I shall be embraced by you
again, much like the sky with the sun.
" The clouds will disperse..." I want to say
elusively touching your arm not daring to come closer
and then I speak differently.
I breath in and turn away, giving you freedom to decide.
In my silence and departure,
I keep so many words inside myself
hiding that you will never lose me, never see me indifferent
And in great danger, I won't be absent, I promise to be there.
XxX
Thank you for reading! This is my first fanfic for Supernatural section.