"That boy is staring at you Josie." Audrey whispered into my ear. I looked up from my cell phone and stared in the direction she was looking in.
Just like Audrey, my best friend had said there was a man staring at me. He was tall and skinny with black hair that had blonde streaks through the front and it fell into his eyes. I could tell he had a slightly large nose but that was pretty much all I could tell from this distance. When our eyes met he quickly turned around and made it look like he was talking to the boy beside him the whole time. I smiled at that, most guys would have come straight over to me. I looked over at Audrey who was shamelessly flirting with the guy beside her and I didn't think she would miss me if I went over there.
"Josie, what are you doing?" I heard Audrey from somewhere behind me but I had my mind set on one thing.
"Hi!" I shouted over the loud music once I was in front of the boy. He seemed shocked but quickly got over it.
"Hi." he said shyly and I held back the giggle at the blush creeping across his cheeks.
"Do you want to dance with me?" I asked. I knew he would say yes as I bit down on my lip and looked up at him through my eyelashes.
"Uh, uh, ye-yeah." he stuttered and I smiled widely before grabbing his hand. "Alex, I'll be back." he said shoving the boy next to him roughly before following me out to the dance floor.
I grinded up against him and pushed my naturally red hair from my face as we danced in time with the music. Now that I was closer I was able to see that his eyes were a gorgeous brown, I had never seen eyes like that before and he had an amazing smile too. He seemed like a sweet kid, good boyfriend material but I was fucking done with boyfriends. All I wanted was a one night stand and I knew this guy wouldn't have an issue giving me one with the way he was inspecting my body earlier.
"What's your name?" he asked as I moved myself closer to him.
"Josie, yours?" I questioned as I considered knotting my hands in his hair and pulling him closer so I could kiss him.
"Like the Blink song? Oh and it's Jack." he said back. I nodded at his question before tugging him down by the front of his shirt so I could kiss him.
I swiped my tongue along his bottom lip tasting the whiskey and Joe or John, whatever his name was opened his mouth letting my tongue slip in. I quickly pushed him off of the dance floor and over to the wall. My tongue explored his mouth, him moaning slightly as I sucked on his tongue. I bit down on his lip as I slipped my hands up his shirt, my hands exploring the smooth skin until it reached his happy trail. I let my hand slip down further and pushed it up against the ever growing bulge in his skin tight jeans.
"Wanna go upstairs baby?" I cooed into his ear after I pulled his face down so it was close to mine.
"Mhm." he hummed and I giggled before tugging at his hand and leading him up the stairs.
*Three Weeks Later*
"Josie, are you okay?" Audrey questioned after she banged on the door.
"I'm fine Audrey, I'll be out in a minute." I said before leaning my head against the cool tile floor.
"Josie are you puking again?"
"No!" I lied hoping that I wouldn't have to puke again; the sounds would definitely give me away.
"What are you doing in there then?" she asked suspiciously and I scowled. I really didn't want her in here fluttering over me.
"I'm plotting your murder!" I yelled back as I slowly climbed to my feet. I flushed the toilet and brushed my teeth before pulling open the door to the bathroom.
"Josie, were you puking again?" Audrey asked as we walked down the narrow hallway to the kitchen.
"Yeah, I just have a stomach bug I think." There was no point in lying, Audrey would question until I told the truth and I was too exhausted to fight with her. My head started to ache a bit and I held my hand to my head checking to see if I seemed a bit warm but when I felt normal I dropped my hand to my side.
At this Audrey gave me a look and I raised an eyebrow but she didn't say anything. She turned around and started cleaning the kitchen. I was just about to ask her about the look when there was loud banging on the door.
"Oh joy, she's fucking here." I said sourly while I stomped into the living room and yanking open the door.
"Why so sad Jo-Jo?" Audrey and mine's other best friend Charlotte, Charlie for short barged into the house carrying a bag full of I had no idea.
"Not sad, tired."
Charlie didn't say anything she just walked into the kitchen of my tiny crappy apartment that I shared with Audrey. I watched as she sat down at the table with Audrey and they both began chattering instantly. I didn't feel like dealing with Charlie's drama today though so I went and fell back on the secondhand couch we had gotten from Charlie's father. I was only relaxing for a second before I was being pushed. I opened my eyes to see Audrey was above me and I scowled.
"The couch isn't just for you."
"I don't feel good; you're supposed to take care of me." I whined but scooted down the couch so there room for her to sit.
"I'm not your mom, go to your parents' house if you wanna be babied." she said as she grabbed the remote from the coffee table and flicked on the TV. It blared loudly and I groaned before standing up, squeezing past Charlie in the hallway on the way to my room.
I fell back onto my bed and ran my fingers through my hair as I yawned. I was exhausted lately and I had been puking a lot lately too. Just a stomach bug I told myself again for the millionth time in the past two weeks but the small voice in the back of my head told me it was probably something more. I swallowed nervously and ignored the nagging feeling that had been bothering me lately. The voice persisted though and I groaned before climbing to my feet and making my way over to the calendar at the corner of my room. I looked at the date and bit down on my lip, my period was scheduled to come in three days so I wasn't late, maybe it was just some really bad PMSing? I twisted my hands together nervously before going to lie back down on my bed.
I was just going through my phone, stopping when I reached the first J, Jack. "Josie posie!" Charlie cooed which brought me out of my thoughts and I quickly escaped from my contacts list.
"What Charlie?"
"What are you doing?"
"Dying."
"Aw, does the poor baby have cramps?" she cooed.
I glared at her before saying, "Charlie if you wish you live then you will leave." I snapped. She frowned at my words but turned and walked out of the room.
My mind wandered back to what I was thinking about before. I chewed on my lip before standing up and going over to my closet. I pulled out a hoodie out, slipped it on, zipped it up a bit and pulled on the hood before pushing my feet into sneakers. I looked into the mirror that was hanging on my wall. I was wearing my glasses and my face looked extremely pale against the black frame and bright red hair that fell down in curls. I was wearing a pair of black baggy sweatpants and oversized gray American Apparel hoodie that made my small and thin four foot ten frame look teenier. I snatched the keys off of the dresser besides the mirror before walking out of my room and down the hallway.
"Going out." I grumbled to Charlie and Audrey before walking out of the house and slamming the door shut behind me. I ran down the stairs and slipped out of the apartment building. I walked down to my old 1998 black Ford Escort, unlocked it and then got into the driver's seat. I put the keys in and turned on the car while thinking about where I wanted to go. I decided on a quick trip to the store would be enough time for me to clear my head. I put my car in drive before turning out onto the street and driving to the Walgreens. When I reached it I pulled into the first open spot I saw and turned off the car. I walked around inside for a bit, going up and down the rows of stuff, stopping once I reached where all the pregnancy tests were.
I looked over at the different ones and I looked down. I ran my finger over my flat stomach and then shook my head. You're not pregnant I told myself but you've been sick a different part of my head shot back. So what? People get sick I told myself but like I knew, the little voice shot back, sick for two weeks? At that I was kind of convinced, with shaking hands I grabbed the box off of the shelf before walking out of the isle. I quickly went to get some ice cream and some other stuff before walking to the front. While I paid for everything I got my eyes down, not wanting to see the disapproving look the old woman was sure to give me. When I got home I threw the test over my bed and then grabbed the ice cream. I ate it all before lying back down and falling asleep.
Another two weeks passed and I was still getting sick and still hadn't gotten my period. I was currently standing in the bathroom staring down at the test. Please be negative I said to myself before sitting down on the toilet. After peeing on the little stick I set it on the counter and washed my hands. I leaned against the sink and shut my eyes tightly, please be negative I begged hoping that there was some greater being out there that would hear me. I waited the five minutes it said I needed to, it felt like hours to me but finally my alarm went off. I swallowed deeply before lifting the test with a shaking hand up closer to me.
"Oh fuck." I said before everything went black.
"Josie! Josie!" Audrey screeched and I winced. "Oh thank god you're alright!"
"Not anymore, your voice, it's killer dude." I said while pushing her away. I climbed to my feet slowly feeling a bit shaky, I hadn't fainted in years.
"What's this?" I heard from behind me as I was splashing water on my face and I quickly turned to see Audrey had the test in her hand.
"Nothing!" I barked while tearing the test from her hand but I knew it was too late, her eyes were wide.
"Josie! Was that a-a-a-a pregnancy test?" she asked and I squeezed my eyes shut tightly, I wished this would all just be a bad dream but when I heard a screech I knew I was wide awake.
"Oh my god! I'm gonna be an auntie!" she screamed as she wrapped her arms around me.
I stared at her with wide eyes. How the hell could she be so excited about this? She should be panicking! We could barely afford to pay for rent, school and food, forget paying for a baby. Audrey kept freaking out as I sat down on the floor and basically had a meltdown. I was pregnant by a guy I had only ever met once and only knew his first name. I didn't know what he did for a living, where he lived, or even his last name! What would I do if he wanted nothing to do with me or with the baby? I very well didn't support abortion but I couldn't do this alone. I bit down on my lip, I guess I needed to text the mysterious Jack.