The Hardest thing

Author's Note: This story is based after episode 62 (English) during the R break up era. If you haven't seen that episode, basically what happens is Mamoru (I'm gonna use the Japenese names ^_^) keeps having these reoccuring nightmares that tell him if he continues to stay with Usagi, she will die. You find out that that's the reason they break up and he tries to avoid her in order to protect her. Usagi then gets under a spell and Mamoru comes to save the day by kissing her and she becomes free from the spell. Mamoru then tells Usagi that he doesn't love her and goes off leaving Usagi broken hearted. You also find out that he doesn't want to do this but has no choice and has to continue hurting her in order to keep her safe. He's also hurting himself in the process because he loves her so much.

I'm really sorry in the lack of updated story in Sailor Angels. I got really stuck in that story and I just can't seem to get chapter 5 written, so it's on hold for the time being. I started writing this story on the side and it has helpped me with writing. I'm not quite done writing this story just yet, but within the next few days, I will be : ). This story is alot different from Sailor Angels and it's more me when it comes to my writing. I enjoy writing stories such as this where as Sailor Angels is just me challenging myself as a writer. Writing is my chosen career so I want to improve as much as I can. Please! Please! Please Review so I can IMPROVE as a writer!

With Love,

The Moon Geek

Chapter One-

Mamoru woke up the next morning from the same, horrible dream. He sat up in his bed with his head in his hands. This was one of the worst mornings of his life because he still had last night on his mind. The look on Usagi's face when he told her he didn't love her after he had saved her life was too brutal to bear. The look in her eyes just burned into his mind. He hated hurting her but he had no choice. It was to protect her. His mission in his life was to protect her and this was the only way to do so.

"Ughh! Why does it have to be this way?" he moaned to himself.

Two Weeks Later

"Usagi, are you okay?" asked Ami. She was always one to observe.

"Yeah. Why?" asked Usagi.

"You're...um...you're...um...," hesitated Ami.

"I'm...,"questioned Usagi.

"You're doing your homework!" cried Ami. She then took the paper and reviewed her answers. "And your answers are all right! You're not even sitting next to anyone to get the right answers either!"

"Are you serious?" said Rei. She took the paper and looked at it. "This is impossible!"

"What are you trying to say? I'm just as smart as anyone else in the world!" said Usagi.

"Only when you want to be," commented Luna. "See, I told you so. Once you put your brain to work, you can do anything."

Usagi didn't comment. She just continued to work on her schoolwork. That's what she was going to do from now on. Doing school work took her mind off of things, and people. People especially. People such as Chiba Mamoru. She couldn't think of him without crying and she didn't like crying so she figured she'd find a way to numb the pain. Schoolwork seemed to be the only way that would work. That still didn't end the nightmares though.

Later on that night

Usagi woke up screaming that night. She sat up gasping and trying to breathe. She looked at her clock.

3:03 A.M.

Usagi groaned and fell back into bed.

"Nightmares again?" asked Chibi-usa.

Usagi nodded her head.

"Would you like to talk about it?" asked Luna.

Usagi shook her head no.

"Try to get some sleep then," said Luna. "Don't worry. Things will be better in the morning."

Usagi closed her eyes and tried to get some sleep. The nightmare only resumed.

The Next Day

Mamoru went through out his day in a daze. He went to school, then went to work, and went to the arcade to see his good friend Motoki and got some coffee.

"Good afternoon Mamoru," smiled Motoki as Mamoru walked into the arcade and sat down in his usual spot.

"Good afternoon Motoki," said Mamoru in a dead voice and a blank expression.

"How are you?" asked Motoki.

"Fine and yourself?" asked Mamoru. He wasn't fooling anyone. He wasn't fine and Motoki could see that.

"I'm pretty aggarvated actually," said Motoki.

"How so?" asked Mamoru in the same dead, monotone.

"My best friend has been comepletely out of it lately and its like I'm talking to a brick wall! Dude, I know you and Usagi broke up and all," said Motoki. A flash of pain crossed across Mamoru's face when Motoki said her name. "But Dude, you've got to move on." Move on? How could he move on? It's not like he and Usagi had a choice in the matter! He had to play cool though.

"Sorry Man. It's just been a little chaotic lately. I don't mean to seem so distant," said Mamoru. Good cover.

"Well Man, I've got a surprise for you that might actually cheer you up," said Motoki. "Meet me back here at 8. I'm getting off early so don't worry."

"Should I be scared?" asked Mamoru.

"Nah Man," said Motoki. "You'll actually thank me."

"I'm scared but I'll come," said Mamoru.