I wrote this years ago and just found it today in my notebook. A short one-shot from the last episode of Meakashi-hen when Shion falls of the balcony.
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I've lost, but when? That I'm not certain of. It was him that had awoken my Demon. However I do not harbor a grudge towards him, for he makes my beloved sister happy. These horrible crimes I have committed, all the people I've hurt and killed, I do not wish for you to accept me. All that I ask of you is to believe in me, believe it was not me when these crimes were committed. It was the Demon. Demons make you do terrible things. I wish I could take it all back. My soul will never be cleansed of my sins. I don't care if I go to Hell; I've been through Hell already, losing every person who I held dear. All I need to be relaxed is knowing that you forgive me. I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. I'm sorry Mion for not believing you when you said you had nothing to do with Satoshi's death. I'm sorry Keiichi for taking Mion from you and defiling her body. I'm also sorry for torturing and killing you when I thought you helped demon away Satoshi. I'm sorry Satoko, my dear Satoko, for killing you when I thought you made Satoshi disappear. And finally, I'm sorry Satoshi for not keeping Satoko safe, even though we made a promise. I don't think you could ever forgive me, but I'm truly sorry for what I have done. I miss all your smiling faces, you laughs, everything. I miss you all dearly and I hope I make it to heaven so I can see you all again. I wish that I could be with you again in the next life without all the death and sorrow, so we could live happily together. I truly am sorry.