Okay! Here's another try at fanfiction writing. My last one failed miserably.
I hope this one's better
Disclaimer: I don't own Shugo Chara or any other copyrighted material mentioned.

Chapter 1

"Mama, do you think everything happens for a reason?"

"Damn it," I cursed under my breath, "that's the third one this week!" I threw the blue lighter onto the ground and reached into my pocket for a match. After striking it, I lit the small joint sticking out of my mouth, inhaling deeply and immediately relaxing. I sighed with relief.. Those snotty people I hung out with all day were getting on my nerves. They all think I'm perfect, nobody would guess that sweet little Hinamori Amu was an anorexic druggie. I laughed slightly at my thoughts. I guess I brought it upon myself though. After being teased in high school about my weight, I wanted to become skinny and popular in college, so I went on a new "diet". When I got to the new school, I had dropped from 160lbs. to 120, in only 2 months. I wanted to stop the diet and drugs since I was instantly popular. By then though, I was already addicted to drugs, and I couldn't stop starving myself. Now I was in my 3rd year of community college. I was taking music classes, hoping to become famous.

"Amu," A soft voice and a knock at the door interrupted my thoughts.

"What do you need?" I replied as sweetly as possible to my friend Tomoyo.

"I was just wondering if you had Yuki's number. I can't find it anywhere!"

"Yeah, hold on." I quickly cleared the smoke from my apartment and set the joint down, running towards the door. "It's in here," I handed her my cell and started to leave when I felt a hand on my shoulder.

"Amu, are you okay? Your eyes look strange…" She trailed off.

"Yeah, I'm fine. Just a little tired." a breeze from the window in my apartment blew our way. Her eyes widened with understanding. Shit, she knows.

"Okay, I'll give your phone back in the morning. Get some rest." There was hurt in her voice. She turned and left. I honestly didn't care.

…

Suddenly I did care. I should have known Tomoyo wouldn't keep it a secret. Everybody was staring at me with judgmental eyes, secretly criticizing me.

"Here, your phone" Tomoyo dropped my small pink phone in front of me.

"Did you have to tell everyone?" I asked, trying not to scream.

"About what?" She asked obliviously. Was she trying to play some sick game with me?

"You know what."

"Oh. That. I didn't tell anyone, Amu." She was seriously pissing me off now.

"Then why is everyone staring at me." It was more of a statement than a question.

"I think your imagining it. And about that 'thing', can I talk to you about that later?" She sounded truly concerned.

"I guess. But please, keep it a secret for now."

"Okay, I will!" She said, back to her perky self. Somehow, I knew I would regret telling her.

The rest of the school day was uneventful, but as soon as I got home, that changed. Tomoyo was standing in my living room and my apartment was torn apart. My diary and every drug I had was laying on the table.

"T-Tomoyo," I gasped, "What is going on?"

"I decided to go through and find every drug you had. And I read your diary. I can't believe you starve yourself. Amu, why didn't you tell me? I could have helped." She confessed with pleading eyes.

"By the time I even met you it was too late. I was already addicted and my anorexia…" I trailed off.

"Why do you do this stuff?"

"Do I have to tell you?" she just nodded. I sighed and proceeded to tell her my whole story. Everything starting from leaving Seiyo Academy.. That was the worst choice ever. When I was done, she was speechless for a while, then she finally found the words she was looking for.

"Wow. I had no idea." She reached over and hugged me. "I'm so sorry Amu."

"It's okay" I cried into her arms, then pulled away, "Can you promise not to tell anyone?"

"Of course, I promise," She held her pinkie out to cross with mine like primary school students, but I felt happy and a little relieved.

"Have a good weekend!" I shouted as Tomoyo left. Somehow I felt like she was my first real friend.

-Sunday afternoon-

For some reason, I was a little scared to go home. There was something in my gut telling me to not go, but of course I ignored it, where else was I supposed to go?

Wrong move.

As soon as I stepped in the door, I wanted to melt and slip under the door. All of my 'friends' were somberly standing in my living room.

"W-what's going on?" I stuttered

"Amu," Tomoyo stepped forward, "This is an intervention. I told all of these people because we all care about you and we don't want to see you get hurt."

"TOMOYO," I shouted, "I TOLD YOU NOT TO TELL ANYONE!" I broke down in tears and several people came rushing forward. The voices were all blending, I couldn't see straight anymore.

"Amu, are you okay?" The closest person asked.

"No, NO, GET OFF ME" I screamed and jumped up, rushing out the door.
I stayed in a business hotel for the night, trying to think of other places I could go. There was always Tadase's house, but that would be awkward since he told me he was gay then started dating Rima. Next choice was Rima's… but she's living with Tadase. Kukai and Utau were married and living in America now. Yaya was pregnant with Kairi's child. Ikuto was just too perverted, and his favorite target happened to be me. Who does that leave?

Nagihiko… but he's gone…

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