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This fanfic is originally by me (except for its characters and problems within it). This Secret Ansem Report SP is just a fiction; I do not make profit from it and this isn't a trailer for the next KH game. THIS IS REALLY JUST A FICTION. I make it because I want Ansem stated his feeling for Xehanort. Not a shota-con (man loves younger man)…
The brain behind this Heartless-Nobody incident was Xehanort, my beloved apprentice. Xehanort, my smartest apprentice…
I did remember the way I met him at the first time. He was hopeless, he didn't know his own self, his head was full of confusedness, and he helpless to live. If I didn't come in front of him, perhaps he would disappear into the deadness. But it didn't happen because I found and brought him to my office. Somehow I prohibited him to die because I know he had some big talent.
If I didn't find him, would this world get its peace?
If I permitted him to die, would I live normally with my five apprentices?
No… maybe nope. Even though Xehanort didn't exist, my other apprentices could be the ones to continue that dangerous experiment.
Yet if Xehanort didn't exist, my five apprentices wouldn't do such fool and reckless thing; such fool and reckless thing which Xehanort has done.
It was right that the entire accident wasn't Xehanort's fault. I was the one who started that study of heart in the first place. However I didn't have right to blame him even though he has gone too far from a nice guy to a total traitor for me…
No, he's not a traitor. He had continued the experiment in order to respect me. He had continued the experiment so he would lighten my huge tasks. He had continued the experiment because he wanted to complete one of my tasks so I could proud of him,
He had continued the experiment to make me happy. But why did it turn out like this?
I used to watch him more than anyone. Now I have made a huge mistake just because I didn't pay much attention for him; I should know that he wasn't a mature yet, he still wanted me to give my 'fatherly love' to him.
He loved me as a father to him, and I loved him like my own son. Yet my busyness had made him became a 'nice-traitor son'… and I still dared to blame him for being a brain behind this incident? What a fool father…
Xehanort… please forgive me. Even though this wasn't your fault anymore, but I have to make you disappear from this world. Please don't angry with me, I myself regret my own decision.
I was proud of you, Xehanort. You're my best apprentice from my other apprentices, but you also the foolest apprentice from my other apprentices. Please forgive me again…
Xehanort…
I was the one who prohibited you to die in the first place, but I also the one who try to kill you.
Did our fates make fool of us?
Well, this fic is based on my own experience; which Ansem is my brother. I ever tried to suicide, I stood on top of my high house's roof and suddenly my brother called me by my cell-phone; he said "Life is short. Don't shorten it, it's a waste." . His words made me notice that I have to go through this life, and I notice there's someone doesn't want me to die. I respect his love.
But yesterday he tried to kill me. I say it again, he tried to kill me. He knows I have some heart disease, and he tried to kill me use that disease. Fool brother.
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