Disclaimer: I don't own CSI period.

A/N: I was going to use some the lyrics for another story but once I read them I thought of Grissom and his upcoming to departure (hopefully to go to Sara). Lyrics are from the song Beloved by VNV Nation

it's colder than before
the seasons took all they had come for
now winter dances here
it seems so fitting don't you think?
to dress the ground in white
and grey

I loved my job and and got satisfaction of putting together a puzzle of how something occurred. All I needed was my puzzles until I met you, now I can't feel the sense of accomplishment since it's so meaningless without you.

it's so quiet I can hear
my thoughts touching every second
that I spent waiting for you
circumstances afford me
no second chance to tell you
how much I've missed you

Everything reminds me of you. I stayed so closed off from you and when I realize I want to tell you to stay with me, that I love you and I want to be with you always. You left me again after my foolish remarks


my beloved do you know
when the warm wind comes again
another year will start to pass
and please don't ask me why I'm here
something deeper brought me
than a need to remember

Why did I stay for so long? I thought I needed to stay for our team, our surrogate family. But once you were gone everything reminded me of you. I thought I could escape so I went to went to her but I realize now that I want more than memories.


we were once young and blessed with wings
no heights could keeps us from their reach
no sacred place we did not soar
still greater things burned within us
I don't regret the choices that I've made
I know you feel the same

You told me once that I was your one and only. You thought that we could survive anything. I know now that you are my one and only and I can not survive without you.

my beloved do you know
how many times I stared at clouds
thinking that I saw you there
these are feelings that do not pass so easily
I can't forget what we claimed was ours

moments lost though time remains
I am so proud of what we were
no pain remains, no feeling
eternity awaits
grant me wings that I might fly
my restless soul is longing
no pain remains, no feeling
eternity awaits

I am now ready to start the next phase of my life. I'm ready to fly next to my butterfly and to feel nothing but love and happiness for all eternity