This is set just after Elliot left. I am not folloeing the storyline from SVU, this is an AU story about Olivia and Elliot.Elliot is NOT married in this story and Eli doesnt not ecust (as Elliot and Kathy git divorced before he would have been conceived for this story)

Chapter 1:

Olivia had just gotten home from a rough day at work. It had been 3 weeks since she found out her partner of over 11 years was never coming back. She had struggled to hold back the tears when her captain had informed her that they were looking for his replacement and she still hadnt come to terms with it.

flashback*

Olivia stumbled out of Captain Cragen's office out of breath and speechless. Had he really just said that? Was Elliot really not coming back? Olivia looked up and saw that her colleagues were staring at her waitjng to hear what was so upsetting, but she couldn't get any words out. She opened her mouth but the words were stuck in her throat. It was almost as if sayingit out loud made it real. So instead of talking, she ran...

Tears were streaming down her face now and it was veconing even harder to breath. Olivia found herself on the roof, standing looking out at the city, wondering where on earth he could be.

Reality*

The woman kicked off her shoes once the door to her apartment was shut. Her keys were thrown somewhere near the kitchen, along with her badge and phone. Her government issue gun was stowed away in the cabinet next to the front door and she finally relaxed - well she relaxed as much as she could considering she had just spent 16 hours waiting for her perp to appear.

She made ger way towards her bedroom, discarding her clothes on the floor along the way. Once in the large room, Olivia rummaged through her drawers to find something to wear. She pulled out an oversized tshirt and shorts, pulled them on and without thinking headed to the kitchen. She automatically grabbed a glass and poured herself some wine. This had happened every evening for the past 3 weeks.

After drinking the enture bottle of wine Olivia's vision was beginning to turn blurry. She rubbed her eyes, willing it away however, like all the previous days it did not work. She shut her eyes tight waiting for the spinning feeling to stop. Once the feeling had disappeared she slowly opened her eyes again, she flicked the radio on and sat calmly listening to it. She wasn't paying much attention to the lyrics of each song, but when she realised that there were tears falling from her eyes. She tried to listen to the song that was currently on and the words broke her heart.

And I don't miss you,

You're not in every single thing I do

More tears graced her flushed cheeks as she thought of the man who had left her after a decade.

I wanna tell all my friends,

But I don't think they would understand.

It's somethin' l've decided,

'Cause only you could fill this empty space

Olivia sat crying for hours, thinking about her partner - correction ex-partner. Once she finally stopped crying she pulled out her phone, dialled his number and waited... Only he never picked up. Just like the other 74 calls she had made to him, the phone went to voice mail, and her heart jumped slightly at the sound of his voice on the machine.

"I'm busy probably chasing a perp, leave a message or call back"

"Hey, its me... again.. You need to call me back. We need to talk" Olivia sobbed down the phone

Sobs continued to echo out of her and around the empty apartment until Olivia had nothing left inside her. Her eyes drifted closed and she slowly drifted into a (not so) peaceful sleep.