Kisses
Kisses bring pain…
I realize that now.
One Kiss on the neck…
Filled with affection.
One kiss on the back…
Filled with love.
One kiss on the Shoulder…
Means pain.
I didn't know that then.
It started out as a game. Stress relief, that's what it was. Relief from the stress given to us by friends and school.
It was simple. We met late at night, it didn't matter where, whether it was the Astronomy Tower or the Room of Requirement, we just needed to see each other. It also didn't matter that we were arch enemies. For, as long as we met, it felt good.
When we met, there was not one word spoken. No, not one word. Ever.
We would shag…
In silence.
We would get dressed…
In silence.
We would leave…
Him, to Gryffindor Tower, and me to the Slytherin Dungeons…
In silence.
This routine of ours lasted until graduation. After that it stopped…
…And it did…
For thirteen years, it stopped. T never saw him once in all those years and I was fine with it or so I thought.
My heart clenched at the sight of his battered form when I saw him again.
I didn't know why…
…Nor did I want to know.
At least no then.
We relapsed back into our old routine…
…starting out slow.
It wasn't anything new…
Nothing changed…
…At first…
Like I said…
It was all a game.
Until one of us broke the rules…
Until one of us…
…Fell in love.
He thought I didn't know…
…Naïve…
He thought he could keep it from me…
…Naïve…
But I could tell…
I could see…
I could feel…
I could tell from the way he acts…
I could see it in his eyes…
I could feel it in his touch...
They were filled with…
…LOVE…
I never told him that I knew…
…I wish I did…
I never told him that I loved him too…
…I wish I did…
But now it's too late…
I missed my only chance at…
…TRUE LOVE…
Because now…
His dead…
Gone Forever…
Now I realize…
I finally understand…
What those three kisses meant…
…They meant pain…
FIN