I think I've officially gone mad it's a school day and I'm writing at 1 am. I've been madly in-loved with the pairing Edmund and Lucy. this is incest so you've been warned this first chapter is heavily based off Edmund's thoughts and is the last of Edmund's thoughts that we're going to see throughout this fanfiction. I don't know If this fanfiction will last but I'm sure its plentiful enough for a semi-oneshot this fanfic will mainly evolve around Lucy's thoughts with a blend of Edmund's well except this chapter as established it is of Edmund's
"Ed, are you awake?" The girl mumbled, shifting the covers ever so slightly
Edmund groaned, and most of all, awakened from the voice of the young girl, he slowly turned to his side, avoiding the girl from further disrupting his slumber. Lately, his sister had been coming in, waking him up for no reason, only to start a conversation and keep him awake for hours, most of the time Edmund being fatigue from the daily mundane activities of life would want to succumb to sleep so when Lucy begins to babble and ask of Edmunds opinion about the never ending topic of Narnia. he'd just give her an agreeing sound or short replies of "yes Lucy..." or "no Lucy" Even so, the girl went on to babble anyway.
"Ed, I know you're awake... please talk to me." She whispered, mindful of her steps as she approach closely.
"What are you doing here, Lucy... go back to sleep" he whispered irritatedly, he didn't entirely dislike his sister coming over for the past few days, he knows very well that it is his task as an older brother, however it is to the point where Edmund's sleep has been continuously on and off. And when he wakes up in the mornings he'd feel so utterly miserable, well he isn't Peter either, peter's always been the brother that his siblings would confide in to and the most tolerable between the two of them.
"I can't sleep..." she frowned, "can I sleep with you ed?," she said, trying to undo the covers from Edmunds person, but instead of cooperating, Edmund very vexed, gripped the covers tightly forbidding Lucy from entering.
"Oh please Ed, let me get in" she begged still whispering, trying not to wake their scrub of a cousin; Eustace Scrubb
Edmund sat up annoyed, occupying his whole bed "Lucy you can't stay here...I'm not Susan you know ." He looked at her with a pained expression.
"oh please Ed don't be like this, I promise this time I won't speak.. if I could just sleep by your side?" She begged looking at him with doe like-eye.
Edmund sighed defeatedly and shifted towards the side of the wall to leave a space for his sister, the place wasn't big enough as Edmund had a pretty small bed much to his dislike definitely an unfit accommodation for a king, well at least back in Cair Paravel he had such enormous bed, a grand chamber fit for his person, but now left with no choice he's downgraded to sharing a room with the most obnoxious and feeble minded of a cousin, Eustace Scrubb, his new 'personal' chamber furnished with a pathetic little bed and a small room that suffocated Edmund's brooding nature, such thing as privacy was non existent, every time he would come to the room to be alone, Eustace would've already been there sitting on the bed dreading his thoughts in his journal. Muttering insults to Edmund. Edmund would clench his fist bottling up his anger and would silently exit the room to go outside and pace around the block to clear his mind such thing would become a daily routine, Edmund pacing about the block to clear his mind, really once they came back from Narnia nothing was really ever the same, he found friends in England but none of them he can really tell about Narnia as they would most likely shun him and think he's a lunatic of some sort.
"do you ever miss Cair-Paravel?..It's been too long, and I wish if we could ever relive the memory.." Lucy started
There she goes again, babbling about Narnia, Edmund of course doesn't mind it, but he really was tired and it's really been a long time and Cair Paravel has been long gone and obliterated to ruins. But of course he couldn't deny the fact the he truly misses the palace, everything about it and for the past 15 years of their reign Edmund would never ever be able to forget the certain aroma that lingered the palace. Narnia was his home as to his siblings and nothing could ever replace the feeling of home, now they are back where they originally came from but it doesn't exactly feel like home. Narnia was their sanctuary the place they grew up to love and now, In England hit with disappointment he is no one, just an ordinary boy, an alien lost in a planet with exotic beings that resembled very much like him but in Narnia no matter the variation of races and species he felt at utmost home, He was The Just, everything was glorious, under the reign of the kings and queens of old, through them Narnia led a prosperous era.
"Yes Lu, I do, I truly miss Cair Paravel... now go to sleep would you" he mumbled trying to dismiss the subject and his longing for home.
"Well yes.. but I was hoping maybe we... uh.. oh never mind" Lucy yawned
There was a long pause but neither of them slept, Edmund was well aware that Lucy was still awake because he could feel her squirming about, but after a few good 30 mins Lucy fell asleep which left Edmund alone to his thoughts,He was sad really, especially when slowly the 4 of them are drifting apart by the circumstances of the world they currently live in, both Susan and Peter are far away and here they are stuck with the cousin they don't like to associate with. thinking and reminiscing of his memories of Narnia and listening through his sister's soft breathing he couldn't help but appreciate the warmthness of the girl next to him, and after much thought, Edmund had finally succumb to sleep.