Disclaimer: I don't own Outlaw Star. This fic is written purely because once
I get an idea truly stuck in my head, I *have* to write it. So... please don't
sue. I don't have any money anyway, just three Cowboy Bebop DVDs and three Trigun
videos.
A/N: I haven't seen all of Outlaw Star, only as much as has been shown on CN
as of 2/12/01. So I don't know a fair amount of details about what actually
happens towards the end. If the characters seem a bit OOC... Well, I'm sorry,
but think of it as being in an alternate universe or something. I, personally,
think this takes place a fair bit after the end of OLS, though you can pretty
much set it anywhere after they all meet up and it will still work. Please,
don't flame, though everything else- praise, worship, constructive criticism,
etc., is perfectly welcome. Now read! :)
Sayonara
by: Illusioness
Oh, God. Gene.
Why'd you have to go and do that?
Why'd you have to go and play the hero?
We could have done it together. We could have beaten them- together. We're a
team, right?
So why'd you go alone?
That explosion- it haunts my dreams. Even during the day; every time I close
my eyes, I see that building blowing sky-high... and taking my best friend with
it. If only you'd told us, maybe we could've found a way to get rid of those
guys without you pulling a friggin' suicide mission. But that always was your
way, wasn't it? You didn't want any of us to get hurt.
Now that I'm the one that everyone seems to turn to, I can't figure out how
you kept things running so well. You had a way with people- everyone seemed
to trust you, deep inside, no matter what they might have said to the contrary.
And now, without you, things just seem to be falling apart...
Melfina isn't taking this well. I'm worried about her. Ever since your... funeral,
she keeps wandering around the Outlaw Star, an nearly dead look in her eyes.
She won't talk to anyone, she's almost stopped eating! I don't know how to help
her, Gene. She loved you, Gene- and the fact that she never told you is tearing
her up inside.
Suzuka is being- well, Suzuka. She still sits around and drinks all the tea
she can get her hands on, day and night. She hasn't slept more than an hour
at a time in quite a while. I don't think that she thinks anyone has noticed,
what with all the makeup she uses to cover up the dark circles under her eyes.
She's trying to stay strong for us, trying not to rely on anyone. But inside,
she's hurting- just like everyone else.
Yes, everyone else- even Aisha. Aisha's putting up a brave front- she won't
admit to missing you. But it's obvious to those of us who know her. She doesn't
brag about being a Ctarl-Ctarl at all anymore, and her appetite has dropped
drastically, nearly to the level of a normal human's. Can you believe that?
Even Aisha is mourning you...
Gene, if it wasn't for them- if they didn't need someone to take care of them,
to keep them fed and clothed, I don't know what I would have done. I wanted-
I still want to follow you, to see my aniki again. But I know you would
hate that, would hate me for leaving Melfina behind without someone to take
care of her. So don't worry, Gene- I won't do anything drastic. But oh, God,
how I wish some of these days...
Well Gene, I guess it's about time for me to go, now. Dawn's almost here, and
it'll be time for me to get everyone up and ready for the day. Time for me to
try to get Melfina to eat, to try and get her to talk to someone, anything...
And maybe today'll be the day she finally starts to heal.
Maybe today'll be the day we all start to heal...