Title: Love
Author: Tara Kitaide
Rating: T
Genre: Romance
Pairing: Naruto/Hinata
spoilers: It takes place after the two and a half year time skip but other than that, not many.
Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto or any of the characters associated with it. Naruto belongs to Kishimoto Musashi. I just borrow his characters and use them as puppets for my own lil creations.
Dedication: To my girlfriend. I wrote this with her in mind.
Love
Sometimes I use to wonder if I really had it.
Everyone seemed to know this wonderful sensation. To know what its like to have someone that makes you fall head over heels, who gets your heart pounding whenever they're near, who makes their knees' buckle, and other such clichés. I guess I use to be too young to understand what love was about. Even now I wonder if I could ever feel such a sappy thing. Its not like the word makes me want to run to the nearest garbage can and up-chuck my ramen. I just couldn't see my self in love.
I do have friends.
I have Sasuke and Sakura, Kakashi-sensei and Iruka-sensei too. Not only them. I have Shikamaru, Gaara, Choji, Neji (even though he'd never admit it), Rock Lee... Even Gai-sensei and Asuma, Kurenai, Anko, everyone! And Konohamaru who looks up to me! I have someone who looks up to me! ME! Uzumaki Naruto! Screw up of Konohagakure! And then theres you...
My life was so different back then, looking back, its hard to believe that person was me. I use to think I'd never be loved, that I'd always be lonely. No one loved me. No one noticed me. No one but you. Even though I didn't know it at the time, you always supported me and cheered me on if only from a distance. You loved me when no one else did. You noticed me, admired me, gave me strength. You even tried to show it but your shy personality always got in the way. Remember after I beat Kiba? During the Chunin exams? With that shy, nervous smile you gave me that ointment. You looked so cute. After that, we spent the rest of the time next to each other, didn't we? I was really happy.
Then there was your fight.
I couldn't stand it, seeing you so upset like that. I don't know what overcame me but at that moment I felt like you were the only person in the world that mattered. I wanted to beat the hell out of that Neji guy! I couldn't believe the way he was treating you! Thinking back, I guess its about that time I began to realize my feelings for you. Then when you lost and almost died... I felt like my heart was gonna break in two. Then when you looked up at me before they carried you off, it was like you were reaching out to me. Trying to tell me those thoughts and feelings you could never say aloud. I found myself feeling the same way. Even now.
Basically what I'm trying to say is I love you.
You changed me. You opened the door to my shut out emotions. You warmed my frozen heart. You pulled me out of that dark place and carried me out of the darkness. I'm not saying you were the sole reason for my renewal. Like I said, I have friends and people who helped me tremendously. But of all the lights I was drawn to, yours shone the brightest.
I love you, Hinata. I'm just sorry I didn't realize it earlier. I guess it took a couple years with pervy sage to realize that or rather admit it to myself. You were on my mind constantly and I found myself praying for you, hoping for your well being and that when I returned, you may feel the same way. I'm sorry I made you wait so long to hear this.
I love you, Hinata.
With every fiber of my being, I love you.
A/N: Everything will become clear with the next two installments. Just think of this as a letter. I'll try to update soon but I can't promise anything. Review if you actually read this. Sometimes I wonder if no one reads my stuff. T.T