Real?
Usually it's either while standing outside on the balcony, overlooking the vast ocean, or while being confined in the infirmary for recovery when he gets the feeling that she's still around. The rational side of his mind tells him that it's not possible. Not anymore. Cause she isn't even alive anymore. But his heart cannot stop clinging to that tiny spark of hope that somehow she's actually still with him.
And whenever he starts looking around for her the feeling of her presence floats away. And he is once again left longing while wondering whether it was really ever there in the first place…