Losing Her To Destiny
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Disclaimer: I am addicted to writing these. No, I do not own it.
Summary: Gilmore Girls gone sentimental. I think I've got their characters down at last. Set after Season Two. Rory is trying to avoid Jess, but its really hard, especially since Rory has been invited to a party by an annonymous mailer, in which she will get the surprise of her life.
Prologue
"Just wanted to." he said, his voice clear and rough, sort of softer than usual. Oh my god, she thought. Why did he? Why? Why? She kissed him. She felt heat go through her body as Jess tried to kiss her back, leaning over her, forcing her, pushing her. Dean, she remembered. She pulled back. "Oh my god!" she said, not believing she had kissed Jess and had actually liked it. It was different from Dean's. It was ...forbidden. It was..lust. Unlike Dean's kiss which contained love and care, and a sweet soft touch. Jess's kiss was hard, forced, yet lust..lust..the word kept screaming in her ear. "Rory-" he tried to object when she broke the kiss. "I-I have to go!" she said, loudly, running away, her bridesmaid jade green and blue dress hitching up on her legs. "Oh, WELCOME HOME!" she called. She felt...good...excited. Then another word besides lust screamed in her ear. Dean. Dean...
Part One: Calling Destiny
Rory looked at the jade blue dress, thinking of the moment. It was still ringing in her ears, screaming in her brain, and something rumbled inside her stomach. She put it into a suitcase when her mother charged into the room, wearing scooby doo pajama bottoms and an old t-shirt. "Thats mine." accused Rory. "I didn't mean to!" said Lorelai dramatically. Rory forced herself to grin. "So hows the packing going, Missy?" asked Lorelai.
"Fine, actually. But I left a kit-kat bar on the dresser table and suddenly, I woke up and I saw it gone..could it be the ultimate candy bar theif?" joked Rory. "Yes, yes, it must be. We must get a guard dog right away!" answered Lorelai, ruffiling Rory's hair. "I am going to miss you...who else will tell me the five hundred different ways to get sand out of my hair..."
"Its useful!" complained Rory. Lorelai giggled slightly like a schoolgirl. In a squeaky highschool girl voice, she said, "Oh my, do you look perdy tonight!" she imitated. "Hey get off, I've got a boyfriend." said Rory, smiling painfully. It hurt her even to admit it. "Oh c'mon, one dance wouldn't hurt would it?" Lorelai said, her voice cracking. Rory laughed and collapsed on the bed. "Kay, get some rest, sweetie." said Lorelai, kissing her forehead.
"I've got the charlie brown tape if your still interested, cuz you so purdy..." said Lorelai in that weird voice again. "Mom!" whined Rory, and Lorelai grimaced. "Me? Your Mum? Oh don't be naughty.." she said. Rory made a disgusted face as Lorelai shut the door behind her. She smiled, then sighed. The whole summer in Washington. She'd be arriving at Washington in three days, and even though she dreaded leaving her mother and not getting a chance to see Lane when she got there, she thought it would make her..think things out. Was there anything to think about? She had kissed Jess! What had made her do that? What had made her so emotional that she felt that urge, and liking it? It was forbidden..it was breaking the rules..it was cheating on Dean..this was not her...
Ever since Rory could remember, the only rule breaking she had done for the past years was when she was five years old and ripped off her teddy's head, which when her mother bought as a present because they didn't have much money back then. Now, she had done an awful thing, and the weird thing was, she felt..guilty..but good..for some reason. Lossening up. She closed her eyes, the lamp still on, and rolled over. But she couldn't get to sleep. Groaning she got up and tip toed to the kitchen, hoping not to wake her mother. She saw the phone, lying there, on the table. Her fingertips got a slight tingle as she reached for it, shakingly and slowly dialing a number.
"Hello?" his voice asked. Thank god, Luke's asleep, Rory thought. "Hi.." she stumbled. She was embarrased. Rory sat down on the chair, putting her knees up to her chin and pushing against the table, the phone leaning against her ear. "Hi...its after midnight." he stated.
"I know." said Rory.
"I am sorry if I woke you but-"
"No, its alright. I don't mind.."
"Look, what happend when you came back-"
"I am sorry."
"You are?" her voice cracked a little, sending shivers through her body as she pulled herself closer.
"Yeah, I mean- I didn't mean to-"
"You- you- didn't start it."
"Yeah but-"
There was a long silence and Jess finally finished his sentence.
"I didn't stop it."
Now there was silence of eternity. Rory tried to think of something to say, but what could she? This was so unlike Jess, apologising, and feeling guilty.
"I knew you had a boyfriend and I didn't stop you." he said finally.
"Right." said Rory, feeling guilty that he was taking the blame.
"Well, I guess we'll see each other around then." said Jess.
The last sentence hit her like a arrow through her heart.
"Yeah, see you around.." she said, hanging up the phone with a bang. Why did she think things would change? Didn't she know that she had a boyfriend? But you can't go on forever, another voice in her head argued. She bit her lip,feeling hurt and disgusted with herself. What was she doing? Was she ready for change? Did she really think she could replace Dean? Would Jess ever fill his spot? Maybe not, but he'd already made a new one.
She sighed peacefully, laying her head down in the table, wishing God would just give her the answers instead of making her searching for some. One thought spread through her mind before she went into a deep sleep, though. What should she do? Should she smile because Jess and Her were good friends? Or should she cry because thats what they'll ever be?
A/N: I know it doesnt have much romance in it, but in part two, I promise it will have some, and if not, it will have drama. Thanks for reading, and please review!!! No flames please!!!
Disclaimer: I am addicted to writing these. No, I do not own it.
Summary: Gilmore Girls gone sentimental. I think I've got their characters down at last. Set after Season Two. Rory is trying to avoid Jess, but its really hard, especially since Rory has been invited to a party by an annonymous mailer, in which she will get the surprise of her life.
Prologue
"Just wanted to." he said, his voice clear and rough, sort of softer than usual. Oh my god, she thought. Why did he? Why? Why? She kissed him. She felt heat go through her body as Jess tried to kiss her back, leaning over her, forcing her, pushing her. Dean, she remembered. She pulled back. "Oh my god!" she said, not believing she had kissed Jess and had actually liked it. It was different from Dean's. It was ...forbidden. It was..lust. Unlike Dean's kiss which contained love and care, and a sweet soft touch. Jess's kiss was hard, forced, yet lust..lust..the word kept screaming in her ear. "Rory-" he tried to object when she broke the kiss. "I-I have to go!" she said, loudly, running away, her bridesmaid jade green and blue dress hitching up on her legs. "Oh, WELCOME HOME!" she called. She felt...good...excited. Then another word besides lust screamed in her ear. Dean. Dean...
Part One: Calling Destiny
Rory looked at the jade blue dress, thinking of the moment. It was still ringing in her ears, screaming in her brain, and something rumbled inside her stomach. She put it into a suitcase when her mother charged into the room, wearing scooby doo pajama bottoms and an old t-shirt. "Thats mine." accused Rory. "I didn't mean to!" said Lorelai dramatically. Rory forced herself to grin. "So hows the packing going, Missy?" asked Lorelai.
"Fine, actually. But I left a kit-kat bar on the dresser table and suddenly, I woke up and I saw it gone..could it be the ultimate candy bar theif?" joked Rory. "Yes, yes, it must be. We must get a guard dog right away!" answered Lorelai, ruffiling Rory's hair. "I am going to miss you...who else will tell me the five hundred different ways to get sand out of my hair..."
"Its useful!" complained Rory. Lorelai giggled slightly like a schoolgirl. In a squeaky highschool girl voice, she said, "Oh my, do you look perdy tonight!" she imitated. "Hey get off, I've got a boyfriend." said Rory, smiling painfully. It hurt her even to admit it. "Oh c'mon, one dance wouldn't hurt would it?" Lorelai said, her voice cracking. Rory laughed and collapsed on the bed. "Kay, get some rest, sweetie." said Lorelai, kissing her forehead.
"I've got the charlie brown tape if your still interested, cuz you so purdy..." said Lorelai in that weird voice again. "Mom!" whined Rory, and Lorelai grimaced. "Me? Your Mum? Oh don't be naughty.." she said. Rory made a disgusted face as Lorelai shut the door behind her. She smiled, then sighed. The whole summer in Washington. She'd be arriving at Washington in three days, and even though she dreaded leaving her mother and not getting a chance to see Lane when she got there, she thought it would make her..think things out. Was there anything to think about? She had kissed Jess! What had made her do that? What had made her so emotional that she felt that urge, and liking it? It was forbidden..it was breaking the rules..it was cheating on Dean..this was not her...
Ever since Rory could remember, the only rule breaking she had done for the past years was when she was five years old and ripped off her teddy's head, which when her mother bought as a present because they didn't have much money back then. Now, she had done an awful thing, and the weird thing was, she felt..guilty..but good..for some reason. Lossening up. She closed her eyes, the lamp still on, and rolled over. But she couldn't get to sleep. Groaning she got up and tip toed to the kitchen, hoping not to wake her mother. She saw the phone, lying there, on the table. Her fingertips got a slight tingle as she reached for it, shakingly and slowly dialing a number.
"Hello?" his voice asked. Thank god, Luke's asleep, Rory thought. "Hi.." she stumbled. She was embarrased. Rory sat down on the chair, putting her knees up to her chin and pushing against the table, the phone leaning against her ear. "Hi...its after midnight." he stated.
"I know." said Rory.
"I am sorry if I woke you but-"
"No, its alright. I don't mind.."
"Look, what happend when you came back-"
"I am sorry."
"You are?" her voice cracked a little, sending shivers through her body as she pulled herself closer.
"Yeah, I mean- I didn't mean to-"
"You- you- didn't start it."
"Yeah but-"
There was a long silence and Jess finally finished his sentence.
"I didn't stop it."
Now there was silence of eternity. Rory tried to think of something to say, but what could she? This was so unlike Jess, apologising, and feeling guilty.
"I knew you had a boyfriend and I didn't stop you." he said finally.
"Right." said Rory, feeling guilty that he was taking the blame.
"Well, I guess we'll see each other around then." said Jess.
The last sentence hit her like a arrow through her heart.
"Yeah, see you around.." she said, hanging up the phone with a bang. Why did she think things would change? Didn't she know that she had a boyfriend? But you can't go on forever, another voice in her head argued. She bit her lip,feeling hurt and disgusted with herself. What was she doing? Was she ready for change? Did she really think she could replace Dean? Would Jess ever fill his spot? Maybe not, but he'd already made a new one.
She sighed peacefully, laying her head down in the table, wishing God would just give her the answers instead of making her searching for some. One thought spread through her mind before she went into a deep sleep, though. What should she do? Should she smile because Jess and Her were good friends? Or should she cry because thats what they'll ever be?
A/N: I know it doesnt have much romance in it, but in part two, I promise it will have some, and if not, it will have drama. Thanks for reading, and please review!!! No flames please!!!