My Demons Inside chapter 1 As i lay out on this cold night, my mind wonders. trembling thoughts of that night always pops up in my head. so horrible that even someone strong as me cant even push them away. is so cold, about 30 deg. my nightmares have gotten much worst. now i think i should tell you about it. It was a chilled night. My brother had his fiance over along with her sister. She looked so beautiful in the moonlight. i would always look at her and almost get caught every-time. she finally caught me. I smiled and look down. and she walked up to me. i was unwilling when she kissed me. shocked and confused i looked at her. she smiled and did it again. i pushed her away and put my face against the wall. "why must we do this Nicki?" i don't want to get hurt all over again" she looked at me and grabbed my hand. " I adore you" Nicki said." Nicki your in a relationship" i said in pain. "hush and just kiss me you fool" Later that night i arrived home. my brother spoke " Tina, hug me you'll need it" i looked at him.. " why?" he walked in and allowed me to read the MSG Nicki had sent him. scared i asked Dan "omg is this.." read it" " Dan please tell your sister Tina to leave me alone, shes a bad person and everything is all her fault dan. I cant believe she would do this to me. shes suck a waste of time. I dont even know what i was thinking tonight. I have messed everything up with my boyfreind. Im such a bad person. Plus all i would do is hurt her. Its in my blood. Just tell her to fuck off. K thanks bye." As i finished reading it i reseved a message from her. it said " Listten tonight was a mistake. How could you let this happen? Your such a piece of crap for this. just stay out of my life." what was i to do? what was i to say? i walk into the bathroom and stare at the mirror. my mind says " tina, its alwways your fault so why even stay?" I began to cry. i reached for my weapon of self destruction. and this is were my demons come out. so tired of it i walk outside. i began to run, running down my driveway. i wouldnt stop. i couldnt stop. no clue where i was runing. my mind so blank and face so drowned with tears. i arrived 3 miles down from my house. it was about 3 in the morning. blood soaked and tear stained face i bang on my bestfriends house. " rusty open up, its me tina." i heard the flicker of lamps turning on and he opened the door. " oh my god tina come in! Whats happened to you?!" he sat me down and handed me a glass of water. " I mess everything up rusty. im scared, so scared i dont know whet to do.." Rusty goes to his room and gets me a change of close and bandages. " Tina what happened and how did you get here?" rusty conserned looked at me." I... I.. I honestly dont know, im scared. i havent even done anything! it wasnt my fault!" I couldnt help but to bust out in tears. rusty looks at me. " come on lets get you changed and bandaged."