Sushila

"Okay" I said as I exhaled slowly "what do you think?" I was standing in front of the mirror in my best friend Kerry's room. Us and our other best friend Ebony were getting ready to go

to the Christmas disco at the local teen bar. It may not seem like a big deal but we all had important things that we needed to do even, if at that moment we were all hiding them.

Except me.

You see the other three people joining us this evening were our three best guy friends, Dan, Scott and Adam. And we were all romantically attached to each other; most of us kept a

secret but I had taken a chance a couple of years ago and told Kerry and Ebony that I really fancied Scott. They were all really supportive of me and are always urging me to take the

leap and ask him out, but as we've all been friends for at least 7 years, some longer, I really didn't want to risk losing him as a friend. Because I do love him as a friend which I've made

sure isn't affected by my giant sized crush on him. So anyway tonight was the night I was going to take that leap and for that I needed to look really good. The girls and I went

shopping today to get our dresses and if I say so myself we all looked really good. First there was Kerry. With her golden long wavy hair and big blue eyes she's the typical beauty but

her sparkly silver mini dress and black knee high boots she looked absolutely amazing. Just like a model with her subtle makeup and hair sashaying around her shoulders. Then there

was Ebony the complete opposite to Kerry. Ebony is smaller with pale skin and short choppy black hair with a sweeping fringe. The dress she was wearing was a strong emerald green

with thick straps and green beads around the bust area. They whole affect looked amazing with her bright green eyes and suede grey ankle boots. And then there was me. The girls

had tried to convince me that I looked great and I suppose the chic princess style did look good. I'm Indian you see so with my fudge coloured skin and curly brown hair the tight purple

dress I was wearing went well. The dress was pulled in by a big purple jewel and my high purple shoes worked the same. My hair was pinned back into a loose bun and I was wearing

sliver earrings dripping with fake diamonds. I was ready to party, I was ready to wow Scott, I was ready to go.

As I walked into the room the pounding music hit me like a ton of bricks. Or maybe it was just the butterflies swarming around in my stomach that knocked me off balance.

"You okay?" Kerry asked looking at me with a worried expression on her face.

"No, no I'm fine." I laughed and started to score the room for Scott and the other guys.

"Boo!" I jumped as I felt a warm hand clamp down on my shoulder. I looked up and smiled.

"Dan, hey. How are you?"

"Good," he nodded, "so where are Kerry and ebony?"

"Erm…just over at the bar I think?" I shrugged pointing my burgundy nail in the direction of the bar. Dan started to say something but I really couldn't stop and talk. Normally I love

speaking to Dan he's so sweet and funny but now all that was on my mind was Scott. So instead I just patted him on the chest, mumbled a goodbye and ran off quickly. Well as quickly

as I could in 4 inch heels.

The reason I had just risked my life sprinting through the darkened club was because I'd just seen what I'd been looking for all night. And it made my heart beat 3,000 times faster

than usual. Okay so he was dancing with another girl but come on Adam, one of the most popular boys in our school was dancing with Ros the most annoying girl in our school so I

didn't really think that meant a lot. In the 15 minutes I stood watching him he danced with around seven girls and so (Ebony backed this up when she sidled over), he would almost

definitely dance with me, perfect.

Gulping back the last of my diet coke I took I deep breath and strode over to the dance floor where Scott gently pushed away his current partner and turned and smiled at me.

"Hey," he smiled, his cheeky grin warming my heart, " how you enjoying the party?" A lot better now that your here I thought to myself.

"Great thanks!" I smiled twisting my hair around my finger, "so Scott you fancy trying out some of those moves on me?" Oh God that doesn't sound good. "I mean dance moves--of

course." Damn it.

Scott smiled, obviously finding my discomfort amusing. He started to say something but immediately broke off with just a mumble of 'Sorry, can't' in my direction as he passed.

I stood there mouth hanging open, gutted. How, how could he just blank me like that? He was one of my best friends and he had just left me hanging. Wait, he was one of my best

friends, he wouldn't purposely hurt me. There must have been something important that he'd had to do. He probably feels really bad for running off like that but sometimes things

happen that you have to see to. I hope every things all right with who ever he was running to see, because they must have been in serious trouble, it thought to myself. I bet he was

really sorry though. Yes! I'm sure tomorrow he would be really nice to make up for it. I could use some spoiling.

This was going to be all right, I smiled to myself feeling better. It wasn't like he ignored me. Just as that reassuring thought finally started to let me relax I saw it. Saw them. Scott and

Kerry. Dancing together.

I sat in the corner of the closet cradling my ankle as tears stung my eyes. I knew I probably shouldn't have bolted across the dance floor like that but I really couldn't face it. Not only

was I blanked by Scott but I just couldn't believe that Kerry had betrayed me like that. I mean she must have beckoned Scott over to her when she saw me talking to him, why else

would Scott go running towards her. I bet she made it look like an emergency, that's the only way he would ever just ignore me. Right? But in the heat of the moment as I was running

to a dark corner to cry alone, I had gone over on my foot. And let me tell you, it hurt. Like crazy. I breathed out slowly as I tried to calm down. Even though, you know, my life was

falling apart.

"Sushila??" I heard a voice say, astonished. I looked up, it was Dan.

"Hey," I whispered wiping the tears from my cheek before they trickled down my neck.

"What's wrong, are you okay?" He asked looking panicked, "do you want me to get someone for you?" he looked so worried, I would have laughed if it hadn't been for my breaking heart.

"Honestly Dan I'm fine. If I need anything it's a bit of company, sit."

I could tell he wasn't convinced but, still sat down next to me in the dark corner where I'd cleared a space for him next to the killer shoes.

"So," Dan asked wearily, "what's all this about, I mean I was talking to Ebony earlier and she says that her and Kerry," I gave a little whimper at the sound of Kerry's name which

caused Dan to question me harder, "haven't seen you for at least an hour, have you just been sitting here crying for the last hour. And for that matter why have you been crying?" I

looked down at the floor trying desperately to hold back tears. Dan talking about it had brought it all back but I couldn't cry, I didn't want to worry him and I could not tell him. No way

could I tell Dan. I mean he is one of Scott's best friends. It's bad enough Ebony and Kerry know. Oh…Kerry. Damn now I'm crying again.

"Sushila, please," Dan whispered, "just talk to me."

"I don't want to talk." I moaned resting my head on his leather jacket, "I just want to forget." the last part was whispered as I inhaled the sweet smell of leather, but he still heard it.

Tilting my head up to face him he murmured in a low voice

"Well I know a way to help you forget, and it has nothing to do with talking." And with that he took his hands of my face wrapped them around my back and pulled me into him and in a

second we were kissing.

My instinct was to pull away, I mean this was Dan, he was one of my oldest friends. This should be like kissing my … my brother or something but actually It wasn't. I felt safe here and

Dan was a good kisser. Like a really good kisser. I needed something to help me forget this was doing the trick perfectly. Plus Dan was the perfect person to forget with. We'd all just

heard that he broke up with his long time girlfriend Alisha, so he understood heartbreak. And I really do like Dan, he's a great guy so I kissed him back, strongly.

Dan is the tallest out of the three guys and, wrapped up in his strong arms I felt, petite and delicate. Like something really important that he didn't want to break and I liked that

feeling. For the first time in my life I felt as if someone really needed me, and in that moment I forgot about the fact that it was Dan, my oldest friend. I didn't think about the problems

this might cause or anything that may happen tomorrow. I just concentrated on right now.

Cupping his face in my hands, he pulled in me tight. I closed my eyes and deepened the kiss. This wasn't weird at all. I wrapped my arms around his shoulders as he slipped his hand

around my waist. I felt his teeth slightly bite down on my lip and gave a shudder of pleasure as he pulled the clip holding my bun in place, out of my hair. Really getting into it now I

gently pushed Dan backwards so that he was half lying on the floor of the small closet. I lay on top of him, running my hands through his hair as he kissed my neck. In face we were so

caught up in our passionate embrace that we didn't notice that someone had been in there. That someone had seen us, until it was too late and all that we heard was the door of the

closet slamming shut.