Brief Commentary:
Orah! First Wallflower fanfiction. -tries to appear cool and composed- This came upon a mere whim. Tadaa. Did that even make sense? Review if it isn't too ugly. ;O
The Looming Gap
One Shot
They say I'm frightening. Ha. Not nearly as frightening as they are.
Damned radiant creatures. I interfere in the lives of such beings so recklessly, and yet, as radiant creatures, they are so lovely that they think little of it.
Then there is the insistence that I am actually physically appealing, and that I'm the only person on the planet who doesn't see myself that way. They ask what is wrong with me, ever so persistently, and try to mold me into a radiant being myself so that their rent will be free. Why such God-willed life forms worry and fret over such things is far beyond my psychological capabilities.
If it were up to me, I would never leave my room; the only darkness. The wonderful, solitary darkness, where I may watch my films while I eat my chocolate, and speak freely with Josephine, Akira-kun and my dearest Hiroshi-kun. When I was able to do simply that, my life was complete; dark, darker than a moonless night sky.
But when they came, such radiance almost extinguished my darkness. Damn them, damn them a thousand times, those handsome beings.
It makes me wonder, however. How can such four lovely creatures be so blind to the obvious gap that separates the beautiful from the ugly? Surely, they should be avoiding me, not speaking to me at all costs in order to preserve their handsomeness. Handsomeness that gets them chocolate...so much chocolate...they cannot stand how much they receive...
And so I would gladly eat these radiant beings' chocolate, and prepare their meals, even in the summer, when the weather is so hot I feel as though I may die. But this is because those four are radiant princes, and it is the duty of a plainer, uglier person to serve them.
Damn them.
At first, I attempted to kill such gorgeous beings. That was a wise decision on my part, but the plan eventually faltered and ended up as a failure, and now I am forced to live with them, until I am made into "a lady." But that will never happen, for I, as plain and dark as I am, dare not cross into the light, the beautifulness of radiance.
Perhaps when I complete my education, I shall move back to Hokkaido. They will not dare come to such a place of darkness, right? They are displeased with the fact that Hokkaido is so cold. Perhaps that shall be my way of escape from such lovely creatures.
So I shall live with these frightening, beautiful beings, until I am able to take my leave of this place.
...DAMN IT!