If you'd only look at me - Astoria's story
Chapter 1: First Glances
He never looks at me. Never. My one wish is that he would look at me. Even if it was with hatred in those steal blue eyes. At least he'd be looking at me. And that would mean one second that Pansy wouldn't have, would never be able to have.
I feel so desperate sometimes, so unwanted. Once I even wished I was Pansy.
My friends say that I'm crazy, wanting him. They say that he'll never want me. For him to want me he'll have to know that I exist. He doesn't. I'd be surprised if he did ever look at me really.
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'Really Astoria, you have to stop just sitting there looking at him. Why won't you go and talk to him instead?'
'Talk to him? Do I look like I have a death wish? You of all people should know what happens when you talk to him! Don't you remember what Crabbie did to you in second year just because you said "Hi" to Draco?'
'Well, yea, but he was in a rush. And he was a fourth year…'
'When you say "in a rush" you mean he was trying to get away from Pansy, right?'
Rosella laughed. Her laugh was like a tiny silver bell, yet it somehow managed to carry a long way.
Then, the unthinkable happened. Draco had heard Rosella's laugh. Not only that, but he had stopped talking to Pansy, and had looked over in their direction. Astoria looked at him. To her complete amazement, he was looking not at Rosella, but at her. Straight into her eyes. Astoria felt a chill go up her spine, was that interest in his eyes? She couldn't be sure, since he looked away as Pansy said something to him.
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Over the next few weeks, Astoria noticed that whenever Draco was around, he kept glancing over at her. It was very strange, not that Astoria was complaining. It was just that she wasn't use to all this attention from him. Astoria had a nasty feeling that Pansy had noticed because she kept glaring suspiciously at her whenever she caught Draco looking in Astoria direction. So, all in all, Astoria was quiet happy when the Christmas holidays arrived. Draco, for some strange reason, had decide to stay at Hogwarts. Astoria was overjoyed when she found out, as it would mean that Draco would be wondering around without any of his usual friends and , most importantly, Pansy.
So, with only Draco, Rosella and three other first years, Astoria was thinking that maybe this holidays she might get her chance to actually talk to him. Unfortunately for her, Draco never seemed to be in the common room at all. Rosella even checked the library whenever she was passing, but always came back shaking her head and carrying several heavy books.
Christmas day arrived. Astoria and Rosella woke early to find huge piles of presents at the foot of their beds. While Rosella got herself twisted in her bedding and fell out of bed in her rush to open them, Astoria climbed gracefully out of her tidy bedding and walked slowly to her pile.
It was the usual stuff that any 14 year old Slytherin girl would get. Lots of books, beauty products, and lots of sweets from her friends. As she turned to the last present, she wondered who it could be from. She had already opened mothers, fathers, her sisters, and all her friends. Inside the beautiful silver and green wrapping, was a …
A/N - and that's the end of chapter one! hope you liked it... review??