-1Title: Daddy's Little Girl

Author: X-Kelly-X

Rating: T

Summary: What'll I do when my Daddy's gone?

Disclaimer: I do not own ER, nor do I own the characters. Lyrics belong to Jeff Carson.

Daddy take me with you
I promise I'll be good
Daddy, this is next time
And momma said I could

Sittin' in the front seat ridin' down town
An ice-cream cone I'd rap him around
My little finger
Tighter then my baby could
You can make a tear go a long, long way
When you're daddy's little girl

Well he tightened my bike chain from 7 to 13
Taught me to drive when I was a wild thing
Reached and he prayed while I made some mistakes
That I wouldn't have made if I'd have done it his way

Now he hugs me when he sees me
We talk about the past
He tries to give me money
And I try and give it back

He's a book of advice
More then I need
The look in his eyes is saying to me
Let me help you all I can
While I'm still in this world
What will you do when you're daddy's gone
And you're daddy's little girl

I loved him. No, not past tense, I still do. When I was younger I never wanted him to leave, always wanted to go with him. Then they got divorced. Living with Mom, I saw that life goes on without him, but now I know I'm never going to see him again, not in this life anyway. It hurts. More than I'll ever let anyone know.

He's always done everything for me, from fixing my bike, to most recently teaching me to drive stick shift, he was so proud, and I'll never forget that look of happiness on his face when I struggled on and did it. That was because of him, I was ready to give up but he made me carry on, it was almost as though he wanted me to do this before he was gone.

I see now that if I'd have done things like he told me to that I would've found life a lot easier, but I guess I've got a stubborn streak, maybe it's genetic. He always gave me the best advice, I just never took it. The best advice he ever gave me was to love, even though I never told him, he showed me that if you love someone enough, you can change them. His love changed me, no more smoking, drinking or drugs. I promise you Daddy, no more.

Until now I never thought about the things we never got to do together. He'll never walk me down the isle, he won't be at my graduation, he won't get to see his grandchildren. It never hurt until I realised he wouldn't be there at all these crucial moments in my life. He's my Daddy and he's gone, I can't be my Daddy's little girl anymore.

There's two things I know for sure
She was sent here from heaven
And she's daddy's little girl
As I drop to my knees by her bed at night
She talks to Jesus
And I close my eyes
And I think God for all of the joy in my life
Oh, but most of all

For butterfly kisses
With her momma there
Stickin' little white flowers
All up in her hair

Walk me down the isle daddy
It's just about time
Does my wedding gown look pretty daddy?
Daddy don't cry
With all that I've done wrong
I must have done something right
To deserve her love every morning
And butterfly kisses for life

I wish I could've told her how proud I was. Proud of her driving stick shift, proud of her surfing. Most of all I'm proud of her for learning how to love, she proved she loves when she played that song to me, so simple, and yet the happiest moment of my last hours.

It hurts me to know I'll never walk her down the isle, never be at her graduation and never meet my grandchildren, but maybe someday I'll see them again, and if I don't I'll just have to watch over them, all of them.

All I ever wanted was for Rachel to see how much she has to offer, how much love and devotion she has to give. She's an angel, that I know, she may not always show it, but I know she was sent from Heaven. I pray that she never hated me, but that deep down she knew I was right. I wish she could understand that I hated being harsh on her, it hurt me as much as it hurt her.

I'm gonna miss my little girl, all 3 of them in fact. But Rachel will always be my little girl, whether she's 2 or 32. She had m wrapped round her finger from day one, and it's always gonna be like that, she's always gonna be her Daddy's little girl.

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